| Fan Fiction |
by Autumndreamer
I still remember Ji Hyun’s crying face that night, and every time when Yunho hugs me or kisses me I feel as if I am being haunted because Ji Hyun’s tears would appear in my mind..
This is like a torture to my mind, and I am really feeling so exhausted over this guiltiness. So I started to adopt a habit. I would report to church when I wake up early in the morning, and whenever this guilty feeling over-ride me I will need to talk and pray to god for forgiveness.
“Jaejoong! Are you going to church again?” Yunho asked while laying on bed and looking at me getting dressed.
I walked over to the bed after putting my clothes on and kisses him on the lips lightly, Yunho smiled at me.
“Jae, why do you always go to church these days?” Yunho asked me.
“Yea, I suddenly find that I can only be myself when I am in church! I will be back before lunch!” I said and walked out from the room.
There I found Ji Hyun already up, and she is cleaning the living room. Ji Hyun looked over: “Oh Jaejoong ah! Going to church?”
I nodded: “Noona! Why don’t you let the maids to this?”
“I.. I can’t sleep anyways, so I would rater do something than sit there doing nothing.” Ji Hyun said.
“Noona.. I..” I said but hold my word back.
Ji Hyun: “Jae, I thought about what you said the other day. I know I am not happy, and maybe my emotions have affected you and Yunho’s life, and bring you two too much guiltiness, but I will fix my feelings, and you don’t have to feel guilty for me.”
I sighed and nodded as I headed out from the door. Driving in the car, I sighed deeply, I don’t even know what to do now. I need to go talk to god again, so I will find a solution to end everything, but in my heart, I already have a solution.
But.. am I ready for it yet? Is Yunho ready for it yet?
End of pov..
Ji Hyun walked up the stairs and knocked on Yunho’s room. “Yunho.. breakfast is ready..”
Yunho opened the door while drying his hair: “Oh, thank you!”
Ji Hyun looked at Yunho in Pajama and turned away as she said: “Come on to the kitchen when you are ready.”
Yunho nodded and walked back in to get ready..
Ji Hyun and Yunho sat in the dinning table, they have been eating like this for a few times already because Jae would always report to the church.
“Jaejoong went to church again.” Ji Hyun said.
Yunho: “Yea..”
Ji Hyun looked down: “Our parents are coming over in a little.”
“What? Why didn’t you tell me?” Yunho asked.
Ji Hyun: “They just called.”
Yunho jumped up and started to walk around, Ji Hyun: “Yunho! Why are you so nervous? We will just have to pretend like a married couple.”
“But what if Jae comes back, and he gets jealous?” Yunho asked.
Ji Hyun sighed: “Listen Yunho! I know you love Jaejoong, but I am a person also. I agreed to act with you and I promise not to do anything more to you. Why don’t you calm down and just be a man. Even Jaejoong knows that I am suffering, why don’t you see anything? When Jae is home, you don’t ever come out from the room. When Jae is gone, you just come down and eat like I am air. I am a persona also. I know you don’t like me, but after all I am married to you, can’t you at least talk to me normally? When our parents come, can’t you at least pretend with me?”
Yunho widened his eyes and stared at Ji Hyun, he has never seen Ji Hyun so mad, and this is the first time. Yunho: “Ji Hyun.. I never meant to ignore you.. why are you getting mad all of the sudden? I thought we all agreed to a situation like this. But..”
Ji Hyun looks away: “Sorry.. I just.. didn’t really control my temper well.. forgive me!”
Ji Hyun stood up and took the dirty trays and plates toward the sink, but Yunho held onto Ji Hyun’s arm.
“Ji Hyun.. I am sorry..” Yunho whispered, “If I didn’t meet Jae first. I would have fall for you, but there is Jae, and I can’t leave him.”
“I know, and I appreciate you two’s love too, that’s why I agreed to help you two. But please treat me like a human also!” Ji Hyun said with tears sliding down from her face, and this made Yunho’s heart itches a little.
Ji Hyun: “Our parents are coming, go get ready.”
Yunho nodded and walked up the stairs to change..
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In church..
Jae kneeled down and closed his eyes as he whispers: “God! Please forgive me for my wrong. I know we are wrong, but I can’t help my love and I can’t stop my love. If this continues, I know we are all going to get hurt. Please, tell me what to do? I have only you to ask for.”
Priest: “Young man! You look very troubled. If you know you are at wrong, then try to fix it. Remember, the only way to go to heaven is to bring happiness to people no matter how much you suffer for yourself. People come to this world to suffer, and if you decide to be selfish again, then there is no way to go back to heaven again. If, you think you are hurting others, then try to stop it.”
Jae continues: “But how do I stop it? The situation is already made here! I already hurt her.”
Priest: “Don’t be afraid to go down to hell if it brings other people happiness.”
Jae suddenly opened his eyes and a tear dropped down from his face.. and in his heart he already made a decision..
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“Appa, Umma! Don’t worry, Yunho treats me really good.” Ji Hyun smiled and Yunho hugs her and smiles back.
Ji Hyun’s parents smiled and nodded in happiness, just then, the door opened, and Jae walked in..
Ji Hyun’s parents who already know something about Jae and Yunho, both gave Jae a glare. Jae looked down and hurried up the stairs.
“Ji Hyun! Why did you agree for him to live here too? Yunho, if you are already married, then shouldn’t you live with Ji Hyun only? Jaejoong is old enough to live by himself too.” Ji Hyun’s dad said.
Yunho looked away, and Ji Hyun said: “don’t say it like that, I really like Jaejoong too, after all, I have tutored Jaejoong before.”
“But it’s so inconvenient!” Ji Hyun’s mom said.
“No! Its fine!” Ji Hyun smiled. “Lunch is about ready, why don’t we go eat first.”
Ji Hyun dragged Yunho up and looked over at him, then Yunho smiled a little: “yea! Let’s go eat!”
Jae leaned his back on the door and whispered: “Maybe this whole thing should really put to an end.”
Ji Hyun’s parents left later at night. Ji Hyun and Yunho watched them drive away, then they quickly stepped away from each other. Ji Hyun looked over at Yunho, and Yunho looked at Ji Hyun too.
Yunho: “Thanks for everything today.”
Ji Hyun looked down and shakes her head without saying anything, she then walked toward the stairs. Yunho followed, but he didn’t go back to his bedroom first, he followed Ji Hyun.
Ji Hyun stepped into her room, and Yunho stepped in too. He looked over at the big bed, and thinking about Ji Hyun sleeping there by herself everyday. Yunho sighed and said: “I am sorry for everything. If there is anything I can do for you, please let me know.”
Ji Hyun turned over and suddenly she hugged onto Yunho. Yunho gasped, but Ji Hyun said: “Please.. don’t push me away.. I just wanted to hug you for a little.. I won’t do anything else.”
Ji Hyun cries hard but didn’t say anything else, after a while, Ji Hyun lets go and looks up at Yunho: “Sorry, I just suddenly felt very sad.”
Yunho nodded and then turned away as he said: “It’s okay.. I didn’t mind..”
Ji Hyun called: “Yunho.. can I ask a favor from you?”
Yunho turned over and said: “What?”
Ji Hyun: “I want to have a kid! Your kid!”
Yunho widens his eyes and said: “What? Ji Hyun! You..”
“I have already decided! I contacted the hospital, and they said they can do a test-tube pregnancy. The appointment is tomorrow.” Ji Hyun said with a serious face.
Yunho: “Are you sure about this? You are still young, you have the chance to love another person, but with a kid.. you..”
Ji Hyun: “I have decided already. Can you please come with me to the hospital tomorrow?”
Yunho looked down and slowly he nodded, and he stepped out from the room but the first thing he saw was Jae staring at him. Yunho widened his eyes while holding onto the knob of Ji Hyun’s just closed bedroom door.
“Jae..” Yunho called.
“I got hungry, so I went down to the kitchen to eat something.” Jae said with a light smile on his face.
Yunho: “Jae.. I am sorry.. Ji Hyun was..”
“Its okay..” Jae said and holding the same smile, then he turned toward their bedroom and asked, “Are you coming?”
Yunho: “Yea..”
Jae walked into the bedroom and then he turned around to look at Yunho, slowly, he whispered: “Yunnie.. take me tonight.. I want to feel every part of you tonight!”
Yunho hugs onto Jae and kisses him passionately while Jae returns the passionate kiss..
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