| Fan Fiction |
by Autumndreamer
I waited impatiently at home, and I could feel anger building me up as every minute pass by. Yes, I am totally pissed off right now since Jae didn’t come back home yet, and not to mention it is already 5:30 when our school ends at 2:30! What the heck is he? I know any after school practices should end around 4 o’clock and there is no reason for him to be this late when he is not even practicing there.
Finally, the clock reached 6 o’clock and he is still not back. Umma already called for dinner, and I didn’t want to go because Jae is not back yet.
“Yunho! Come down for dinner already!” Umma called again.
I stood up and dragged my lazy legs down the stairs into the dinning. I know my face must have looked horrible as if I am sick, because I am sick! I am worried sick of Jae right now, and this is the type of feeling I haven’t had in a long time since Jae entered middle school. I know I used to worry like this when TOP picked on Jae, and I used to be worried like this when I got into middle school and left Jae in elementary school by himself. But I tried to drown this feeling down, so I could behave normal around him. However, this time, the same feeling is chasing back at me in a stronger formation. God damn it! Where is Jaejoong?
“Yunho ah.. Jae didn’t come back yet, let’s eat first!” Appa said.
“No, let’s wait for him!” I said.
“Don’t worry, I already left food for him and I will have the maids reheat it after he comes back. But since he is still not back yet, I am sure he already ate somewhere with friends.” Umma said then she smiled, “Maybe, Joongie got a girlfriend too.”
I was drinking water at the second and I literarily spite all of it out on the ground when I heard Umma’s sentence.
“OMO! What is going on Yunho?” Umma asked and held onto me in shock.
The maids rushed over to clean the floor, and I started to cough none stop because of the sudden shock and the spite of water. After a good few seconds, I finally stopped where Appa and Umma started to look at me weirdly.
“Are you okay?” Umma asked, “How did you manage to choke on water, Yunho?”
Appa: “That was totally out of manner!”
“I didn’t want to choke myself either!” I replied and looked away.
Umma looked over at Appa: “Anyways, like I was saying, Joongie might gotten himself a girlfriend too. Yunho ah, when you go out with Katie, you always come back later than this too. So, I bet Joongie is out there having fun with his girlfriend too, but he is just too shy to tell.”
I don’t know why, but Umma’s words made me ever more pissed and I want to throw the water bottle on the ground if Appa and Umma wasn’t in front of me at the second. Girlfriend.. more like he is hanging out with TOP.. or maybe TOP introduced him to some girl.. Yea! TOP is order, maybe he brought Jae to those bad places and introduced some bad girl to Jae. What if Jae gets hurt? What if those girls do something bad to Jae? Oh gosh! I can’t just sit here, I need to go fine him before something bad happens!
I stood up and Umma looked over at me: “What are you doing Yunho?”
“I need to go find Jae!” I replied and rushed out from the dinning room.
Appa and Umma sat there in shock and couldn’t make anything out before I left the room already..
I rushed over to the door, and just when I was about to open it. The knob turned from the outside, and the door opened as Jae showed up in front of me. He looked up at me and smiled a little: “I am home!”
“WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN?” I yelled, I know I couldn’t control my voice because I am so worried, “DO YOU KNOW YOU ARE MAKING US WORRIED? IF YOU ARE GOING TO COME BACK LATE, THEN AT LEAST CALL HOME AND TELL US! YOU ARE A MIDDLE SCHOOL STUDENT, WHO GIVE YOU THE PREMISSION TO COME BACK SO LATE?”
Jae stared at me with his big eyes and freezes for a second, then he smirked: “You sound like Umma now, do you know that?”
Then he took of his shoes and walked passed me toward the dinning room, and this attitude is really getting at me. I turned my head and grabbed onto his arm harshly as I pulled him toward the stairs.
“Yah! What are you doing?”
Without listening much of his complains, I already dragged him up the stairs into my bedroom. I throw him down hard on my bed which received a glare from his big eyes right at my face.
“What are you doing?”
“WHAT DO YOU THINK I AM DOING? YOU BETTER TELL ME WHERE YOU WENT!” I shouted again.
“Why do I need to tell you? You are not my Umma!”
“SO I AM NOBODY TO YOU? IS THAT WHAT YOU ARE SAYING?”
“You never tell me where you went when you come back either!”
“BECAUSE I KNOW WHAT I AM DOING, AND YOU CLEARLY DO NOT! YOU HANG OUT WITH TOP, AND YOU KNOW WHAT KIND OF GUY HE IS! WHAT GOOD CAN HE DO TO YOU?”
I stood up and stared at me so mad as if there were fires in his eyes, and he pushed me hard on the chest as I backed up a few times, he yelled: “DON’T TALK THAT WAY ABOUT TOP HYUNG!”
“Oh! You are defending for him right now! Huh? So, he is better than me huh?” I questioned with a loud voice and feeling my face turning red.
“OF COURSE!” He yelled, “BECAUSE HE NEVER LEFT ME BEHIND AND NEVER FORGOT ABOUT ME! HE IS MY FRIEND AND WILL ALWAYS BE MY FRIEND!”
“THEN WHAT AM I?” I yelled at the top of my lungs.
“WHAT DO YOU THINK YOU ARE TO ME?” Jae yelled back with the same level of voice.
I am so mad and I grabbed onto his slim shoulder as I pushed him hard onto the wall, I could feel his body bounced a little and he groaned hard at the pain. Then I felt him pushing my arms hard and kicking my legs weakly. I didn’t let go, and I stared into his eyes: “Listen! Jaejoong! I am your brother, and I am the closest to you no matter what happens. You should always be close to me instead of other people outside of this family, because we are a family!”
“Do you know what you sound like, Jung Yunho? You sound like a control freak right now! I have my freedom to do whatever I want just like you do too! I don’t need to tell you everything about my life just like you don’t tell me anything about your life! I don’t need to hang out with you just like you ignore me in school! I am your little brother, so you feel shamed of hanging out with me right? Guess what? TOP Hyung still hangs out with me even though he is a grade older than me! He doesn’t care that I am younger than him and he doesn’t ignore me because of some girl who is not even part of our family!” He said and pushed me away hardly as I landed on the ground.
I stared up at him.. some girl? Katie? Jae is mad that I am going out with Katie? So he did notice? He did pay attention to me?
“Jae..”
“WHAT?”
“Are you.. mad that I am going out with Katie?”
There was silent, and Jae who was about to exist the room stopped. He looked down and didn’t say anything. Slowly, he turned back and stared at me with tearful eyes.
I stood up and rushed over to Jae: “Jae.. what’s wrong?”
Tears rolled out from his eyes, and then he looked up at me. He hasn’t cried for such a long time, and this is the first time I have seen him crying like this after he moved out from my room. Maybe, I really forgot to pay much attention to him because I for some reason missed this side of him.. the weak.. insecure. .and sad him.. the him that needs my protection all the time.. I don’t want Jae to grow up so maturely and tough like he seems right now, because I want to protect him like before.. forever..
I pushed him in my hug and patted on his head: “Shh.. don’t cry.. tell me.. why are you sad Jae?”
“Yunho, can you break up with Katie?” Jae suddenly requested with a tearful voice, “Please.. I beg you.. I never beg you anything in my life, and this is going to be the first time. I know she is your girlfriend and you like her, but ever since you went out with her. I felt that you don’t have much time for me anymore, and I miss you. I want to give you the privacy that you asked for, but I can’t stand this anymore. Do you know that I have to cry myself to sleep every night because I am so afraid of dark? Do you know I feel so sad when you ignore me so much at school and hang out with Katie all the time? Do you know I miss the Yunho who always hang around mean protect me but now is protecting someone else? Yunho.. you even let her call you Yunnie.. but what about me? I thought that was our neck names.. Yunho..” Jae nagged in my arms and crying very hard. His voice was cracking because of all the sobs in between of his sentences. His face turned so red from the crying and his eyes were getting puffy from the hard crying.
Did I hurt him this much by having a girlfriend? Oh god! Watching him like this, I want to stab myself.
I sighed and hugged onto Jae harder: “Joongie.. I thought you wanted to be separated from me first, because you asked to move out form my room and you never came back. I also asked me to stop calling you Joongie and you started to distant yourself away from me. I thought you don’t need me anymore, so I tried to use Katie to fill in the empty space you left me. I even made her call me Yunnie, because I could think of you when she does that. I thought you were getting tired of me because you made new friends in school, and that’s why I seem so close with her in public, because I felt lonely after you left me.”
Jae cries and looks up at me while sobbing hard. I kisses Jae on the forehead and whispered: “Jae.. I promise you.. I will break up with her if that can make you stop crying.. and I promise not to ignore you again! I will hang out with you from now on and forever if you won’t leave me again.”
“Yunnie..” Jae finally called me that name again, and I know from now on, this name can only be called from Jae’s mouth.
Jae pushed himself out from my hug and looked up at me, slowly, he leaned over and this time. I felt Jae’s lips touched somewhere else other than my cheek.. a very special place.. my own lips.. this was my first kiss ever.. and it was with Jae.. even though, it was just a light touch but I felt so warm in my heart.
We both went down for dinner and ate happily as a family again, but this night, when I was about to fall asleep I felt someone crawling into my blanket. When I smelled the same sweet smell, I grinned in the dark.
“Joongie..” I whispered knowing that he must have sneaked into my room and on my bed.
A finger stopped my words and his soft voice whispered: “Let’s go to sleep.. Yunnie..”
Hugging onto him, I know this night I will have the sweetest dream ever.. because I got Joongie in my arms again.. and I can protect him in my arms again..
End of pov..
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