| Fan Fiction |
by Autumndreamer
I watched Yunho finishing up the food I cooked for him and I smiled a little. At least, if I stay with him I can still watch him eat the food I cook and see him being happy. Even if he doesn’t want me anymore, I don’t mind.. I want to stay next to him..
I know I have a place to stay if I want to move out, at least for temporary purpose I can stay in Junsu’s. But, that was just an excuse I made up so I could still stay here with Yunho. I have been staring at him the whole time and ignoring Seul Gi’s stare at me. I know what she is thinking.. she is the winner now.. she has Yunho all to herself now, and maybe deep down her heart she has cursed me out more than a million times for still sticking around in the house. But, I don’t care.. nothing will keep me away from Yunho.. I will take care of him for the rest of my life and that is my promise to Mrs. Choi..
Yunho stood up: “I am done.”
“You are done? Do you want desert?” I asked with a happy voice. I think I am winning back his heart again.
Yunho looked at me, and I could tell that he doesn’t want to let me go. Yunho.. just tell me you want to hear my explanations and bringing that girl home was just to piss me off. This is all just a joke.. tell me.. please..
But Yunho didn’t say anything, instead, he looked away from me and said: “Seul Gi ah.. I am going to shower.”
I looked over at Seul Gi and she seemed a little shocked that Yunho was telling her this. Of course she would.. what is her to Yunho anyways? What are they?
“Oh.. okay..” Seul Gi answered awkwardly, then Yunho walked away without even saying anything to me, I felt that my heart is hurting again, but I will overcome the pain. I know Yunho cannot forget about me. Or am I just trying to comfort myself?
I stood up and took Yunho’s plate, but Seul Gi stood up and took the other side of the plate at the same time. I looked over at Seul Gi and she looked at me too. We shared an eye contact for a long time, till I broke the silence: “I am going to do dishes.”
“No.. I will do mine and Yunho’s dishes.” Seul Gi said.
“No! I will do it.” I said and sounding a little mad. “Please..” my voice got soft.
Seul Gi looked at me for a few more seconds then she let go, and walked out from the kitchen. I felt tears rolling around in my eyes again. God! How am I going to face this everyday? Please.. help me..
But this isn’t the worst yet, after doing the dishes, I walked up the stairs but in the middle I stopped. Where am I going? I can’t go back to the bedroom anymore right? But my legs continued to move on their own. Before I realize it, I was standing in front of Yunho’s bedroom again. I signed and leaned my forehead on the door. Yunho.. Yunho..
Turning myself around, I slide down on the floor and hugged myself walking sitting outside of the bedroom. I didn’t want to move away, because from this place I am the closest to Yunho again. Just a distance of a door, he is inside the room and I am outside.. but I can’t see him and he can’t see the tears in my eyes.. Yunho ah.. do you know how much I love you? Do you know how much I miss you?
Slowly, I felt my head getting heavy and I leaned on my arms while falling asleep slowly, but I could even feel my heart hurt so much during my sleep..
End of pov.
Yunho’s pov.
Letting the water rinse my face so many times, I am trying to control myself. Jae looked so pitiful, but why is he like this? Why didn’t he go to Siwon when he should be? Does he still love me.. no it can’t be.. he kissed Siwon in front of my eyes twice and maybe more behind my back.. maybe he is trying to trick me again.. yes, that must be it..
How stupid of me to let him stay in the same house as me? Jung Yunho, you know you can’t control yourself much longer around him. But.. how can I kick him out? My heart still hurt seeing him and I still love him.. yes, I do.. very much! But he hurt me so deeply and I just can’t forgive him.
Stepping out from the shower, I dried my body and put my clothes back on. I can’t walk out with a towel on only anymore, because I know Seul Gi is outside. I feel so uncomfortable with her compared with Jae. Ahh.. of course.. because she is still somewhat of a stranger to me, even though, I did that with her. I still can’t believe I did that.. but she is the victim too..
I stepped out, “Yunho ah.. you are done?” Seul Gi walked over to me. I nodded and hugged her lightly.
Seul Gi: “Yunho ah.. you.. you let Jaejoong shi stay in this house.. I don’t mind, but he..”
“He will move out soon.” I said quickly, “He said that during dinner right?”
Seul Gi looked down at her hands: “But.. it is.. I..”
“Don’t worry, I won’t go back to him again.” I said biting onto my lips hardly, “I will never forgive him.”
Seul Gi looked up at me: “But, you still love him. Don’t you?”
I looked over at Seul Gi: “He is nothing to me anymore.”
Seul Gi stared into my eyes and slowly she leaned over to my face and closing her eyes little by little, but quickly I pulled away. I don’t know why I did that, but I didn’t want to kiss her. My body moved on it own.. away from her..
Seul Gi opened her eyes and I could see her face was looking really sad. I said: “Seul Gi.. I am tired.. I want to sleep early today.”
Seul Gi nodded: “Okay! I will go fix the bed.”
I walked over to the bed and hugged onto one of the blanket: “You can sleep on the bed.. I will sleep on the coach!”
Seul Gi widened her eyes and looked at me: “Yunho.. I know you don’t like me at all, but.. you were the only to ask me to move into your house.”
“Don’t get me wrong. I.. I don’t want to take advantage of you before I am sure with my feelings. But I am truthful all everything I said to you.” I explained and hugged her to make sure she is okay, “Don’t worry, I won’t change my mind. I know it this time.”
Seul Gi then nodded slowly and walked over to the bed: “Good night then.”
I walked over to the coach: “Good night to you too. We still have work tomorrow.”
Lying down, I looked up at the ceiling and thinking about Jae again. What is he doing now? I.. I have a urge to get up to check on him right now, but looking over at Seul Gi.. I know I shouldn’t.. Is he calling Siwon? Or is he out with Siwon? Aish! Stupid Kim Jaejoong..
Slowly, I fall asleep and thinking about Jae the whole time..
Next morning..
I woke up really early, and I don’t even know why. Maybe it is because I wasn’t sleeping on the bed so I wasn’t really comfortable. But, there was something more to it. Something just doesn’t feel right. I felt as if part of me was missing.
I got up and didn’t want to wake Seul Gi up, then I walked over to the door. Turning the knob softly and slowly, I opened the door, but suddenly a body fall down backward on my feet. I jumped a little and stared at the person.. Jae.. it’s Jae..
Jae opened his eyes and quickly sat up as turned to look at me, “I.. I am sorry.. I.. I fall asleep..”
Jae got up and I walked out closed the door behind me, “Shh.. Seul Gi is still asleep..”
Jae looked down and whispered: “Sorry..”
“What is it?” I asked sounded annoyed but I am not, I really wanted to see him..
“N.. nothing.. I will go cook breakfast now.” I said.
“Don’t need! I will buy something with Seul Gi on the way to work.” I answered coldly but my heart felt so warm looking at him.
“Oh.. okay..” Jae sounded very disappointed, and he turned around to walk away with his head hang very low again. This reminded me of the first time I have see him. He has always walked like this before. The first day I saw him walking into the class.. he was like this.. with no smiles on his face.. but these few years he had smiled so much more and yet.. the smile is gone again..
“Yah!” I called.
Jae stopped and turned around, then I opened my mouth as I said: “When are you getting out of here?”
I sounded very harsh and mean and I even know that myself, but I didn’t mean it like that. I really didn’t want him to leave me, so I wanted to make sure that he is not leaving out anytime soon. But he looked shocked, then he bits onto his rosy lips, “I.. I will try to find a place to stay at.. as soon as possible.. I.. I will go look for one.. now..”
He rushed down from the stairs and I watched him with pain in my heart. How could I treat him like this? But.. how could he have cheated on me?
Ring.. Ring..
I looked down at my cell phone in my hand. I took my phone with me out from the bedroom and it said “Yoochun” on there.
“Hello?” I answered, and I know Yoochun and Junsu know nothing about Jae and I now. I don’t really want to tell them either.
“Yah! Junsu wants to pay a visit to your place today. When do you have time?” Yoochun said.
“Why my place?” I was shocked. I was just hoping that they wouldn’t find out.
“Junsu said he misses Jae. So, when will you have time?” Yoochun said.
“I don’t have t—“ I was just about to protest, but then I heard Junsu’s yelling from the background. Junsu: “JAE IS ALWAYS AT HOME. LET’S JUST GO NOW!”
Yoochun: “Ahhh! You are being too loud in the morning honey! Yunho, I guess we will just go visit you right now. See you!”
“Yah! Yah!” Yunho yelled, but Yoochun already hanged up.
Aish.. how am I going to explain everything to them? They are going to freak out. That Yoochun..
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