The Devil's Toy (R) *COMPLETE*
by babygiggle
Chapter 30
Nuna...
(Seungri P.O.V)
She stood up for me even when I behave like an ass to her. I treat her as if she is nothing but a sleezy slut. I judged her so bad and yet she still forgave me.
I saw her walking in her mourning color, her eyes, I notice was swollen. Wanted to go to her but I couldn’t bring myself too… What if she hates me? She turn to me then and I avert quickly, I just—I just can’t do it.
I went to find Minye, I found her cleaning the bathroom and I rush into her comfort, “Seungri? Seungri oppa, what’s wrong?”
“I can’t Minye, I can’t.” I chanted over and over again.
“Can’t what? Can’t what oppa?”
“I can’t face Pandara, I just can’t.” I was so furious with myself, why does Pandara have to be so kind? Why does she have to make me feel so guilty about myself? Minye took a deep breath and rush me to sit down, “Oppa, you’re scared aren’t you?”
“I…” I sigh loudly and nodded my head.
“Oppa, it ok to be afraid, but you need to risk it sometimes. Pandara unni is really nice, she was never mad at you. I promise you she is not mad at you. All you have to do is try.”
“I don’t know if I can…”
“Yes you can…I believe in you.” She smiled so purely, I knew without a doubt she’ll always be beside me.
“I’m a man…I can do this.”
“Yes you can.”
I walked out, turning to look at Minye one last time for reassurance. She smiled at me and nodded.
I found Pandara sitting by herself near the pool she was crying.
I walked toward her, “P—Pandara?”
“Oh Seungri! Um, what brought you here?” she wiped her tears first before turning to me.
“I came to talk to you...c—can I?” I felt myself trembling.
“Um sure, of course.” She smiled.
“(Deep sigh) I’m sorry for all those time I was such an ass to you. I”—
“There’s no need Seungri, I’m not mad at you.”
“No, please listen to me. I judged you harshly and you did not deserve it, and for that I’m sorry. I judge you to be like someone I once love and hate. When I was 13, I was not the good looking charmer or tone like you see me now. I was fat and ugly and beyond lovable. I fell in love with this nuna, she was nice beyond comparison. She made me felt whole, she made me feel as if I belong you know. I thought…I really thought she loved me for me…or at least loved me at all. Then one day I found out the truth, she did not love me or cared for me in anyway. She cheated on me with my uncle, I saw them fucking on his bed, she used me to get to him, that was how important I was to her. I was so mad, so furious, raging inside I shot both of them with my bastard of an uncle gun, killing them both. My loving aunt…she saw everything…she started screaming, and then before I can reach her she fell down the stairs and broke her neck. I was taken then, and charge with 3 murders. I would never harm my aunt; never. She was the only one who cared for me. It was my fault…” tears stung my eyes as it poured out of me.
“Seungri, it’s not your fault, you never meant it to happen, they were adults they shouldn’t have done that to you. It was wrong if them. I understand as a child they can be easily tempted…they can do things and regret it the next day. You need comfort and they made you an outcast, your aunt would never blame you, she was scared but if they stairs weren’t there…believe me she would have listen to your reason and comforted you. I know I would have. Whatever the reason is…I do not blame you and you shouldn’t either.” She held me in her arms, I felt so warm, so comforted… “Nuna…”
She stiffened, let out a soft cry and asked me, “What did you say?”
I pulled out of her embrace and stared at her in the eyes, “Nuna...can I call you nuna?”
She started to cry, “Of course…of course you can, I always have another spot in my heart for a brother.”
After holding each other we started telling stories about one another, we laughed and I comforted her when she cried. Then we laughed again I felt good now.
“Nuna, whenever you are down you can tell me anything ok, you can trust me.”
“Alright I—
She started to jerk, “Nuna, are you ok?”
She got up so quickly and ran; she went into the bathroom and vomit uncontrollably. She should have been better by now if she is sick, what is wrong with her?(End of Seungri P.O.V)
(Pandara P.O.V)
When will this stage end? I can’t risk being find out no one can know I am pregnant…