| Fan Fiction |
by biniBningPunkista
~~~~Stopping before Starting~~~
Jun and I were just a foot apart, we looked intently into each other’s eyes both of us in deep thought but then he swiftly covered this space and quickly had his face just inches away from me, his lips closing on mine. His eyes fluttered to close when my reflexes were awakened.
My right palm met his lips instead. This made him opened his eyes in surprise… full of questions along with it.
“I… I’m sorry Jun, because I am in love with someone else. Even a super actor like you couldn’t come between me and him.” I tried saying it in a light tone as much as I can.
A small smile crept on Jun’s lips, and he nodded at me.
“I think I understand now. Why you always tried to push me away back in Taiwan, that whatever I did… you never did seem to think highly of it.” He shook his head disbelieving the reality that was presented to him earlier.
“We can still be friends.” I suggested to him in a small voice.
“Yeah, friends… that’s a line in every drama that never really works out.” Jun scratched his head.
“Bye Jun.” I reminded him before he changed his mind.
He gave me one last look… then suddenly hugged me before I could react. We both nodded at each other one last time before he walked away from my apartment. As I watched him leave, my heart felt lighter than it ever has for these past few days.
I guess I really did love Toma enough to let myself reject a guy like Jun… the only question remaining is how do I apologize to Toma?
Pride was one of my bad qualities, I was never used to saying I’m sorry. I am indeed a very spoiled brat.
My head turned towards the street where Jun’s car just took off and saw a man standing alone by the side walk looking directly at me. It was too dark already that all I could make out is the person’s profile. Then a car passed by and lighted the man’s figure, which immediately caught my attention.
Toma.
I stood there in the doorway truly stunned this time.
How long has he been watching?
My foot moved on impulse as Toma moved to walk away from me, turning around slowly like he wanted to stay but opted to leave. On impulse, I got out of the apartment with my barefoot hitting the pavement and I started to run. Little stones were pricking my foot, but I don’t care… I had to talk to him.
“Toma!!!” I shouted as my hands dropped on my knees, he was way too far for me to follow on my bare feet.
Toma slowly turned around to face me with a pained look on his face. I was caught off guard, my heart clenched at this sight. Right there, I understood that he saw everything… but at what extent? It’s all a misunderstanding.
“Why?” He asked out loud.
The question held so many meanings behind it, his voice full of emotion as he stood there looking at me with those sad, hurting eyes. My own eyes seemed to prickle at the sight of him hurting like this.
This was all a misunderstanding…
It was all I kept repeating in my mind, but it doesn’t seem to come out of my mouth. I stood there away from him, feet hurting, heart clenching and tears slowly streaming on my face.
What do I look like? Someone guilty of something I didn’t even do? That’s what he’s probably seeing right now. There were so many things I wanted to say, but it can’t come out of my mouth. I should speak, shout… anything!!!
“It’s…” I started to say, but he spoke first.
“It’s over.” He said suddenly. I was washed in sudden coldness.
What the hell was he talking about?!?
After saying those two words he quickly turned and walked away from me like the years we’ve spent together was nothing, like memories both of us held were nothing.
“You don’t get to walk away from me IKUTA TOMA!!!” I shouted with all my might.
He abruptly stopped on his tracks then started to shout.
“I do Mao. I get to do it this time!” He shouted back without even looking at me and then he started to run.
Tears were falling freely from my face as I squatted down to cry my heart out as I hugged my knees to my body.
This isn’t happening to us.
------------------notes------------------
Jeez… drama. Did you expect that? I didn’t.
Toma running away this time sounds so elemtary-ish thing to do. T_T Gome…
so there it goes... i think it's a really very childish thing to do, and Toma's supposed t be the mature one here. so yeah, i stopped midway, re-thought about it and considered the other one instead. ^_^v
JUN AND MAO cannot kiss!!! i honestly was trying to consider that... but... i just can't. it would really ruin the whole story for me. i might just go for them instead if that happens! lolz... just kidding ;) but really... no JUN and MAO kissing... that's reserved for someone else's fic. >_< over all, im having a moment here. this would be the last update i would be having for the fic. it's been almost a year.... two fics made me get a lot of experience on writing stories. The latest comments i received where just pure love...
jmc_iuqcaj ~~~ i think you're squealing with giddiness while typing, and i am too while reading your comment!!! i'm glad you loved this fic. *hugs* to you.
mel ~~~ i'm really glad i influenced you to read a Toma fic, i just love that actor ^_^ hope he gets more fans through this little work. lolz...
Lil Daisy ~~~ don't give me an evil eye for this insert. lolz... i did pick the latter one for that chapter ne? your heart would still be able to take this one. (i hope?) kekeke... X_x
otakugal_anime ~~~ curiosity finished, insert is up. finally... hope you guys don't hate me for this. lolz...
btw... the latest fic i would be focusing on for this year is "Shinku Minami"
Hope to see you there too ^_^v Hontouni Arigatou Gozaimasu minna san...!!!