Fan Fiction |
by shining star
So I booked an appointment for Leila to go see the psychologist, and today was the day of the appointment. Early in the dawn, I woke up, got ready, and then drove to Leila’s apartment to pick her up. We were riding on the car, and whenever I turned over to look at her, she seems so scared. I then held her hands tight into mine, making her feel more secure and confident.
“Don’t worry; everything’s going to be okay.” I comforted her. Her hands were as cold as ice, I can tell that she’s really nervous and scared. I just hope that the people there could help her because I really don’t want to see my own girlfriend suffering through this mental sickness anymore, it breaks my heart to see her acting this way all the time. The only way I can help is to support her and protect her. I wish that I could do more, but unfortunately that is all I can do for now. I just wish that I can turn back time when I went to college, I should’ve taken the psychology class and if I did, I could’ve probably help Leila even more.
We finally arrived to the clinic. It was pretty decent there, but Leila was still afraid. I held her hand and we walked together into the clinic.
“Hi, there’s an appointment for Leila Tong.” I said to the receptionist
“Okay, please have a seat, in a few minutes, someone will be calling her name and then she could come in.” the receptionist replied
“Thanks.” I said gratefully as I led Leila to the seats close to the walls.
“Ron, how about we just go first? I really don’t want to be here.” Leila said looking at me with fear in her eyes
“Leila…” I said softly as I held her hands tighter “They will help you, there’s nothing you have to be afraid of. It’ll only take a while okay?”
“But I’m really scared, what if-“
“Shhh…nothing bad is going to happen.” I assured “I won’t let anything happen to you.”
Leila still had her eyes on mine, she then looked away and then nodded.
I kissed her gently on the forehead then said “After this, we’ll go back to my house and I’ll make lunch for you. I already have everything set up.”
“Really?” Leila asked happily. I was so glad that Leila’s sorrow face finally turned into a face filled with joy again.
“Yep.” I replied
“Wow, makes me want to go there right now and eat all the food.” Leila said, with a slight laugh
I chuckled softly and said “You will get to taste the good food, really soon…”
At that moment, a woman came out and called out “Leila Tong.”
Again, Leila turned to me, her face turned frightened and nervous. I took her hand and walked towards the room. When we were about to go in, the woman stopped us.
“The young lady is the client right?” The woman asked
“Yeah.” I replied “I’m her boyfriend; I want to go in with her to help her out.”
“I’m sorry sir, but our rule here is that only the client can go in and see the doctor, we can’t have any friends or family members going in with the client.” The woman answered
“But she needs me.” I argued back
“Sir, this is a strict rule, and I hope you’ll corporate here.” The woman pleaded
Why won’t they let me in? I just want to go in with Leila so she won’t feel scared, what’s the matter with that?!
I was about to get ready to argue back with that woman until Leila spoke up.
“Ron, I think I’ll be fine alone.” Leila said “Besides, I don’t always want to depend on you or else I’ll get use to it. You just sit out here and wait until I get out okay?”
“Are you sure you’ll be fine?” I assured
Leila nodded with a soft smile
I sighed heavily then responded “Okay, I’ll be outside waiting. Don’t be scared.” I then let go of her hand and watched as she enters the room until the door shuts I then walked back to my seat and sat there impatiently, wondering what’s going on in there.
Half an hour has passed, and she still hasn’t even gone out yet. I began to feel worried and uneasy; I wish that I can just run into that room to see how Leila is. All this waiting is frustrating me.
Another twenty minutes had passed, and yet no one came out of the room yet. I sat there on the seat fidgeting with my hands and suddenly I heard the door crept open, I turned around and saw Leila and the doctor walking out. I immediately ran up to her.
“Are you okay? How are you feeling?” I asked her
Leila smiled at me and replied “I’m fine, you don’t have to worry so much.”
“Hello Mr. Ng, I’m Doctor Cheung, Leila’s psychologist.” Dr. Cheung introduced as extended her hand out for Ron to shake.
Ron shook her hand and replied “Nice meeting you.”
“Leila has told me a lot about you and your guys’ wonderful love stories, it’s so sweet.” Dr. Cheung commented.
I find that a bit weird, why is she going into Leila’s personal love life?
“Oh thanks.” I replied “Anyways, how is Leila’s conditions?”
“This has to go slowly Mr. Ng. Leila’s mental ill isn’t that severe yet, so it’s pretty easy to cure, but we still need to do the process of curing her slowly, take each step at a time. If we rush it, it might affect something in her mind which causes more self rebellion. So that’s why I need to learn more about her own self and her personal life. I have to get a better understanding of her in able for me to help her. So far, I’ve got quite a bit information, but I will still need more, so I need Leila to come back each week to kind of talk and have me test her.” Dr. Cheung explained
“Okay, I understand.” I said “But what if she’s lost control, what do I do?”
“If she does, just leave her alone a bit and it will slowly go away.” Dr. Cheung answered “But I can prevent that from happening.”
“How?” I asked, curious to know.
“Try to make her as happy as you can, do not bring back memories that hurt her or make her sad. Some exercising can help her relax the mind and body, and more sleep is good too.” Dr. Cheung said
“I see.” I replied “Thank you so much Dr. Cheung, we’ll come back next week.”
I was very happy to know that everything went smoothly. For a second while I was waiting for Leila, I thought that she would’ve lost control and do things to herself that might harm her, I was scared, but I’m glad that people here can help her. Seeing Leila smiling more makes me smile too, it’s just the way it works. She’s sad, I’m sad, she’s happy, I’m happy. There’s nothing important in my life to me than Leila. I only want her to get better and be her own self again.
On The Car
“See, I told you there was nothing to be worried about. Gong to see a psychologist isn’t so bad, it actually helps you.” I stated
“I think you’re the one who was more worried. You should’ve seen your face when I first saw you after I came out of the doctor’s room.” Leila said laughing
“Teasing me here now are you?” I asked as I reached over and tried to tickle her.
We were having fun, and that is indeed a good start to help Leila cure her sickness. Seeing her smile and laugh just really satisfies my day already.
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++Li Qian’s POV
After the day that Raymond called me, we haven’t talked ever since. It’s already been a week. Well, I was wrong, this isn’t a good start. I like him and want to give him a chance, but I’m not quite sure he gets that. He called me once, but I was in the shower at that time and I just missed that call. Maybe he thinks that I’m still mad at him, I totally blew the chance for us. Sigh.
Sammul had asked me out to dinner and I agreed. I haven’t seen him nor did I talk to him in a long time, so when I saw him I was quite happy. He’s a good friend and I can tell my problems to him without him complaining, and he’s also very understanding. Sammul and I were having dinner at a pretty fancy Japanese restaurant.
“Are you okay Qian? You barely even touched your food tonight.” Sammul stated
“Oh, just not that hungry, that’s all.” I responded
“You don’t look too good today.” Sammul said as he stopped eating and concentrated on me.
“What’s going on?” Sammul asked
I sighed then told him the whole story that happened between me, Raymond, and Tavia. Sammul sat there listening carefully to what I said, and after telling him, I felt better.
“Want to know my opinion to this situation?” Sammul asked
“Yes, I was hoping that you will.” I replied
“I think you should be more expressive and ask him out rather than waiting for him to ask you out.” Sammul suggested “I mean, don’t you want that?”
“I do, but I’ve waiting him for so long already, he should do some action this time.” I responded
“He did, it’s just that you didn’t give him a chance, but now that you want to, he thinks that you don’t want to.” Sammul said
I gave out one of those sighs again “Sammul, why don’t you tell me what to do then.”
“I already told you, ask him out yourself.” Sammul replied
“But I’m a girl, it’s hard to say.” I answered
“Well, if you don’t want to do that then I can’t think of anything else.” Sammul said
Sigh, no one can help me now. I don’t have the guts to go ask Ray when I’m the one who rejected him.
After having dinner with Sammul, we both walked to the parking lot where Sammul’s car was parked. I was just taking quick glances around the area when I saw Raymond from the other side of the street walking by himself, looking very depressed. I continued to look at him as he walks.
“What are you looking at?” Sammul asked
“It’s Raymond; he’s across the street walking by himself.” I replied with my eyes still on Raymond.
“Why don’t you go over there and see what’s going on with him.” Sammul suggested
“No, I don’t think I should.” I replied. I really do want to, but if I think about it, I don’t think it’s a very good idea.
“You look pretty desperate.” Sammul commented “Go.”
I then turned over to Sammul “Do you think I really should?”
“Yes, now go already!” Sammul urged.
Yeah, so I changed my mind. Next thing I know, I was running across the street as fast as I can to catch up with Raymond. He was walking pretty slowly so I caught up with him in no time. Besides, I was in track and field during my four year of high school. Of course I can catch up to him.
“Ray!” I called out still catching my breath
Raymond then turned around and when he saw me his face turned completely different, it was quite shocking.
“Why are you breathing so hard?” Ray asked “Are you okay?”
“No…” I said weakly “I am…not…okay.” I almost couldn’t breathe.
Raymond then placed his arms around my petite body to give me support, and then I placed my left hand on his hand so that he can help me walk. I kind of acted like I was weak just so that he can help me. To be honest, I just love the feeling whenever he’s close to me. I’ll always feel safe when I’m with him because whenever I’m in trouble, he would be the person to support me. I smiled to myself as I looked up at him and saw his worried face. At that moment, I wasn’t suspicious that he’s using me as a backup anymore. I know that he truly cares for me, I can see it now.
We walked to a nearby park and sat on the bench that was all around.
Raymond looked me in the eye and asked “Are you okay?”
“Yes, I’m fine.” I replied
“You scared me before. It looks like you were about to pass out.” Raymond stated
“I’m not that weak.” I answered
“Anyways, why all of a sudden you were behind me? And why were you running out of breath?” Raymond questioned
Uh oh, how am I going to tell him this? Tell him the whole truth or still playing “hard to get”? Sigh, no more games Qian. I think I’ve tortured him enough, even I feel tortured.
“Well, I was having dinner and I saw you from across the street, so I ran after you.” I said casually
“That’s it?” Ray asked “Do you something important to tell me that’s why you were in a rush?”
“Well…” I said “I didn’t want to tell you anything, just you know, wanted to see you.”
“You wanted to see me?” Raymond asked looking at me as I tried to avoid his eye contact.
I didn’t respond to his question but just nodded my head in agreement. I guess he saw me nod my head, but he too remained calm. I waited for him to respond to it, but I still didn’t hear anything coming out from him. I’ve had it. So then I turned over to see him smiling and giggling to himself.
I slapped him playfully on the arm then asked “What are you laughing at? This isn’t supposed to be funny!”
“Okay, okay I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to laugh at you.” Raymond said, still with a slight smile upon his face.
“Good.” I stated with my arms crossed
There was another silence between us again, one of those awkward ones. There are so many things that I had to tell him, I wanted to express my feelings for him, but somehow it’s just so hard for me to say it. We both haven’t said anything to each other for about ten minutes, but then later Ray finally spoke up. Thank God!
“Qian…” Ray spoke softly “I have a question that I’ve wanted to ask you already throughout the whole week that we haven’t seen or talk to each other.”
“What is it?” I asked him, hoping that he will express his love for me once more. I swear, I won’t blow it off this time.
“Well, before I ask you this question, I just want to tell you something. It may sound similar to what I said in the voice mail I sent you, but this time I’ll tell you by person instead. I’ve wanted to tell you this when we were at the café already, it’s just that I was too afraid and witty to tell you face to face, so then I decided to express it through voice mail. I felt stupid for doing that though because it’s not sincere enough, I couldn’t expect you to accept me right away. Through a lot of consideration, I have more courage to tell you now.” Raymond explained
He did sound really sincere while talking; I almost felt like crying and just fall into his arms right there without him even asking me the question yet. But I didn’t because I could still control myself.
“Sorry if I bored you there, I probably should be asking you the question by now.” Raymond said
“Oh no, I wasn’t bored.” I replied “It was…different from the things that you’d usually say, but I actually like the serious you. You sound very sincere and mature.”
Raymond chuckled softly at my compliment then said “Really? Well, I think I should be more like this then.”
I smiled then replied “Okay, I think you should get back to the question now.”
“Oh right. Here goes.” Raymond gave out a sigh then continued “This may sound really corny but I’m going to say it anyways because it’s something that I’ve wanted to tell you, and just to let you know, all of the feelings I have for you are all true. You have to trust me because there’s never once in my life that I’ve lied to you before.”
Gosh, he’s going to make me cry any second now, but I must hang on until he’s finished.
He then placed his hand on mine then held it tightly “Qian, I want you to be a part of my life, to go through all the happiness and sorrows with me, because without you going through it, I don’t think I can last. You were always there for me whenever I needed you, and I hope that you will continue to be there for me in the future, and I will be there for you. I know that I never actually considered your feelings before, but I will if you give me a chance to prove it to you. I won’t let you hide your feelings for me anymore; we will go through it together okay?”
Alright, I couldn’t help it anymore. His words had mend into my head and soften my heart. I then embraced my arms around him, and held him tightly as ever. The moment that I’ve been waiting for, the moment that I thought will never exist. This is all too good to be true, it could be a dream for all I know. But I didn’t care if it was a dream or not, I’m just so happy right now. I then could feel Raymond’s arm wrapped around my waist, he was holding on tightly too. I know that this feeling is true, it really is.
“Don’t lie to me Raymond Lam.” I said still holding onto him with tears falling from my eyes
“Don’t worry.” Raymond replied “I won’t lie to you.”
I smiled to myself and just lied on Ray’s shoulder, enjoying this lovely moment. Raymond and I are finally together, something so unexpected. From the time I like him till now, I know for a fact that he will never choose me to be his girlfriend, but you really can never assume things until they actually come. The truth is, the impossible can turn into something possible, just like a fairy tale. It was all so amazing.
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Ray and Qian are finally together! ^^ hehehe, hope ya guys enjoyed that chapter. Remember to give comments! Thanks! :)