Fan Fiction |
by shining star
Raymond has been acting very weirdly nowadays and I’m beginning to feel that he’s keeping something from me. Sure, he is nice to me and would always do whatever I ask him to, but I find that as a problem. He’s hiding something from me, I can sense it, but I just don’t know what. I’m beginning to wonder if he’s done something really bad and that explains why he’s been so nice to me, or is it that I’m over thinking this? I hate to think like this, but all the things that Raymond does lead me to that thought and I just can’t help but think like that. Sigh, I don’t know what to do.
I then decided to call Raymond to talk about this. I cannot just ignore this.
“Hello?” Raymond said.
“Hey Ray, it’s Qian here.” I replied.
“Hey, do you need anything?” Raymond asked, sounding a bit occupied. “Because I’m kind of busy right now.”
“Oh, if you’re busy then I won’t bother you.” I said sadly, disappointed because I won’t be able to tell him what I wanted to say.
“Sorry honey, but I’ll make it up to you okay?” Raymond asked, trying to cheer me up. “How does that sound?”
“Sounds great.” I replied unenthusiastically “I’ll talk to you later.”
I sighed heavily to myself and then hung up the phone. And yet I still have to wait. When will this be solved?
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Raymond’s POV
I felt bad for rejecting Qian, but seriously I had work to do. While working, my cell phone rang once again. Feeling disturbed and annoyed, I picked up the phone anyways. It was Shirley. Should I pick it up or not? The phone kept on ringing so I just had to pick it up.
“Hello?” I said into the phone.
I then heard a pitiful crying voice of Shirley, “Raymond, I feel so terrible…”
“What’s wrong Shirley?” I asked caringly “Are you okay?”
“Everyone is ignoring me, I feel so alone and scared.” Shirley replied in a cracking voice. “I can’t stand this anymore Ray, no one likes me anymore.”
“Of course not, I think they’re only joking with you, don’t take it too seriously.” I comforted.
“No!” Shirley shouted angrily “They all hate me, I know it. They always say that I ruin other people’s relationships, always blaming me as the third party. I really don’t’ mean to do that, they all just got the wrong idea, no one understands…”
“Just ignore what they say, as long as you know that it’s not true then that’s all that matters.” I replied.
“Do you believe me Ray?” Shirley asked. “Do you believe that I’m not the third party?”
“Of course I believe you, we’re good friends right?” I asked her, trying to remind her that we are only friends and nothing more.
“Good friends?” Shirley asked as she hiccupped “Friends…right…”
“Shirley, are you sure you’re okay?” I asked, worried that she might be in some sort of trouble. “You sound so drunk, are you at your hotel?”
“Come to the hotel to find me Ray, I want to talk to you.” Shirley said as she hiccupped some more.
“I don’t think I can, I still have a lot of work to do.” I responded.
“The other people ignored me and now even my good friend is ignoring me too!!” Shirley yelled as she cried. “I might as well just die.”
“Don’t say that, it’s not something good to say.” I told her. “Fine, I’ll come over to see how you are.”
“Are you telling the truth?” Shirley asked, with a hint of hope in her voice. “Are you really going to come and visit me?”
“Yes, I am.” I replied. “You have to believe me.”
“Don’t lie to me Ray…” She said.
“I’ll be there in the next fifteen minutes.” I replied “Wait for me there.”
“See you there.” Shirley said in satisfaction as she hung up.
Sigh, I can’t believe I’m doing this, but Shirley sounds really bad, if I ignore her then she might do things that harm herself. Believe me; Shirley can do anything that she said she’ll do. She’s a very risk taking and daring girl.
I finally got to her hotel, and I knocked on her room for awhile, but still I heard no response from her. I kept on knocking and knocking and at the same time I was worried, worried that she’s doing something to harm herself. I kept knocking and called out her name and finally she opened the door. Her hair was all messy and her cheeks were red, obviously she has been drinking.
“Raymond, you came!” Shirley said happily as she dragged me inside the hotel.
“Are you okay?” I asked her as we walked inside.
“Perfect.” Shirley said as she took the whole brandy bottle and gulped it down.
I was surprised how she can manage to gulp all that alcohol into her body. I then grabbed the bottle always from her, “That’s enough Shirley. Drinking is not going to solve anything.”
“Give it to me!!” Shirley shouted, “At least it can help me forget about all the bad things that are happening to me!”
“Shirley, what is your problem?” I asked her “If you have a problem then you must face it, not run away from it like this. Whatever problem you’re going through I promise that I’ll help you solve it okay? Just don’t hurt yourself.”
Shirley began to wept, “I’m really tired Raymond, tired of all the stress I’m going through from work and when I go home, I still have to face my family who puts so much pressure on me. I want to find friends to comfort me, but they all think I’m a bad person and would never help me. Even my boyfriend is beginning to be afraid of me and he wanted to break up with me. They all think I seduce guys, but what I really want is just someone to care for me and love me, is that so much to ask for?”
I patted her back, “I’m sorry…I never knew that you’ve been through so much.”
“I’m so tired of pretending that I’m okay, so tired of gulping down all my true feelings and act strong in front of people.” Shirley said as she leaned her head onto my shoulder, crying into it.
I felt so sorry for her, she’s been through so much that I never even realized. “Don’t worry, no matter what, you still have me.”
She then lifted her head back up and faced me, her eyes filled with pitiful tears “But you already have a girlfriend…I don’t stand a chance anymore.”
“We can’t be lovers but we can be good friends now right?” I asked her.
“But I don’t only want to be friends with you Raymond.” Shirley said. “Out of all the guys I’ve dated, you are the nicest one who has always considered my feelings, you’re the only one who truly loves me, and I can’t lose you.”
“Shirley…” I said “Like you said before, I already have a girlfriend. Our dating period is over, but I just want to let you know that even if we’re not together anymore, I’ll still care for you as much as when we were still dating.”
“You will?” Shirley asked.
“Of course.” I replied.
Shirley sighed, “Thank you Ray, what you’re doing really means a lot to me.”
“No problem.” I said as I gave her a comforting smile.
Suddenly my cell phone rang. “Qian calling…” I then realized that I’ve been with Shirley for about two hours already. I then picked up the phone, “Hello?”
“Hey Ray, where are you at?” Qian asked
“Umm…” I said, trying to think of a reason, “I’m with Ron.”
“Oh, for what?” Qian asked curiously
“He’s umm…not feeling so well and he needs someone to take care of him so I’m just doing my job here.” I said, lying.
“Oh I see.” Qian answered “Want me to come over to help?”
“No!” I replied shouting, “I mean…its okay. We’ll be fine.”
“Okay then, but if you ever need some help then you can call me anytime.” Qian said.
“Alright, thanks.” I said “Oh and I’m sorry that I can’t go with you, I owe you dinner okay?”
I heard Qian chuckling, “Sure, dinner’s fine. Well you better get back taking care of Ron, I’ll call you later.”
“Okay, bye…” I said as I hung up.
“Was that your girlfriend?” Shirley suddenly asked.
I smiled weakly at her and replied, “Yeah.”
“You know, you really didn’t have to lie to her. We didn’t do anything wrong.” Shirley told me.
“I know, but my girlfriend is very sensitive, I’m afraid that if I told her that I’m with you all this time then she’ll think otherwise and she’ll be sad, I don’t want her to get the wrong idea.”
Shirley smiled, “You really love her now don’t you?”
I nodded and smiled.
“Well, I think you better get back to her then, she might be worried.” Shirley said.
“Are you sure you don’t need me anymore?” I asked.
Shirley smiled, “I’m sure of it.”
“Alright then.” I replied as I stood up and walked to the door. “Remember to get a lot of rest, and no more drinking okay?”
“I know” Shirley responded laughing, “Thanks for comforting me, I really appreciated it.”
“No problem.” I said. “Well, I’ll be going now. Take care.” With that, I closed the door and walked away. I sighed in relief that nothing happened between us.
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Qian’s POV
Sigh, I’m wondering how Ron’s doing right now. Being sick is something terrible. I then took out my cell phone and called him, wondering if he’s okay.
“Hey Qian what’s up?” Ron asked.
“Are you okay now Ron?” I asked him, “Well you probably are because you sound very energetic.”
“Of course I’m okay.” Ron replied “Why wouldn’t I be?”
“Well, aren’t you sick?” I asked him, feeling a bit confused.
“Sick?” Ron asked back, “Who says I’m sick?”
“I called Raymond and he told me that he’s at home with you to take care of you since you’re sick.” I answered, getting very confused. Can Raymond possibly lie to me?”
“Okay, first off, Raymond’s not even at home and second, I’m not sick at all.” Ron answered. “Are you sure you didn’t hear him wrongly or anything?”
“So he hasn’t been at home all this time?” I asked
“Nope.” Ron replied. “I’ve been at home with Leila all this time and Raymond’s not home at all.”
I was beginning to get suspicious, “Okay, well thanks Ron. I’ll talk to you later, bye.”
So Raymond did lie to me, but why does he have to do that? I feel so insecure with him now, these days he’s been acting so weird. I can’t tell if he’s telling the truth or not anymore, the thought saddens and at the same time disappoints me. As I sat there in deep thoughts, my cell phone rang. It was Raymond.
“Hey Qian.” Raymond said.
“Hey, is Ron okay now?” I asked him, giving him a chance to tell me the truth.
“Yeah, Ron’s fine now.” He replied “That guy is hard to take care of, so picky in everything.”
And yet he disappoints me again. I gave him a chance to tell me the truth, but he just blew it. But I’m not going to question him about this because I’m really tired. I seriously do not want to know what he’s been doing when he lied to me. Maybe it’s not such a big problem as I think it is.
“Okay, it’s good that he’s feeling better then.” I said.
“Yeah…” Raymond replied “Anyways, have you eaten yet?”
“I had cup noodles and that’s it.” I replied.
“Aww…cup noodles only?” Raymond asked. “I’ll treat you to sushi tomorrow okay?”
“If you like.” I responded carelessly.
“Are you okay?” Ray asked, “You sound so unhappy.”
“Nothing.” I said. “People in this world are so unpredictable at times and it bothers me so much when I never know what they are really feeling or thinking. I feel so insecure.”
“Is everything okay?” Raymond asked, “Why all of a sudden you’re thinking about this?”
“No reason.” I replied, trying to brush the thought away. “Just a random thought, no need to go on talking about it.”
“Okay, but if you have something on your mind then remember to tell me.” He said “Don’t keep your feelings to yourself.”
I smiled weakly to myself. Hiding my feelings is exactly what I’m doing right now. “Don’t worry, I won’t.”
I don’t know what I’m doing right now is right or not. I’m trying to ignore the fact that he had lied to me. Is it because I’m afraid to know the truth or is just simply because I’m too afraid to confess to him? I think I’m more of afraid to know the truth. I’m afraid that the truth will hurt me and I’ll lose Raymond which I cannot risk to do. Raymond and I been through so much and I cannot bear to just lose him so quickly. I’m too afraid to. So that’s why I chose to be fooled forever than to know the truth. I’m too weak to handle it. Weather this decision I’m making is good or bad, I’m just going to keep it as for now. Who knows what the future for Raymond and I will be, all I care about is what’s going on right now in the present between us. As long as he choose to stay with me and love me, then I can just forget about what he’s done and live with it. I might be foolish, but that’s the way it is.
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Wow, it's been so long since the last time I've updated. Due to all the school work I've been having, I didn't have time to update so please forgive me. Anyhow, reason why I haven't been writing alot about RL is because I dont know what else to write about them. :\ I'll try to think of something and when I do, I will post it! :) Sorry to RL fans. Well, please comment me, thanks!