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by shining star
I wandered the streets by myself on a Thursday evening, my head filled with so many thoughts, thoughts that I can’t resolve, thoughts that makes me furious. The fact that Raymond lied to me is so hard to get off my mind, I sense something is wrong, but what? All day I would question myself but in return, I get nothing back. I feel so lost, so insecure knowing that Raymond lied to me. I thought that I can fool myself with the truth, but honestly, I just can’t. The truth will always be reveal no matter how much you try to run away from it. Maybe I should just confront Ray and ask him about it instead of being here wondering and assuming things that I’m still so uncertain of. But I’m also scared, so afraid that the truth might hurt and will separate the both of us. I think I know what the truth might be since I have evidences. He lying to me is not the only clue, but there are others too. Like weeks ago, I smelled fragrances of a lady on his jacket and inside the jacket was a lip mark and apparently it belongs to a woman. I remember being so furious at the moment, but I bit my lips and told myself that I am only thinking of things and that’s it. Raymond can never possibly do that sort of thing to me, he will never hurt me. But the more I try to cover for him, the more it reveals. I really don’t know what to do.
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Raymond’s POV
While working at the company, there was a knock on my door. “Come in.” I called out and there stood Shirley, looking very confident and bright. I was hoping for good news than bad.
“Hey Shirley, what brings you here today?” I asked her with a smile.
She cheerfully smiled back at me then took a seat right across from me, “I’ll be leaving Hong Kong soon.”
“Leaving already?” I asked her, “I thought that you’re going to stay for another week.”
“Well, I just realized how I miss California so much, I need to go back.” Shirley replied. “Going to Hong Kong was more of a place for me to take all my anger and sorrows away, but thanks to you who have helped me through all the bad time, I’m able to recover and think straight now. I must go back to California and work things out back there, and dump my boyfriend since he’s a jerk.”
I laughed, “I see. Well, when will you be leaving?”
“My flight leaves in another two hours, I just want to come here to say goodbye.” Shirley responded. “Oh and before I leave, can you do me one last favor?”
“Anything.” I answered. “Anything that’s possible.”
“Do you mind taking some time out of your work to take a walk with me out at the harbor or something?” She asked me.
“Umm…sure.” I replied. I then told my boss that I’ll be taking an hour off or so to go with Shirley out to the harbor. One side of me am glad that she’ll be leaving because then no one will bother me anymore and Qian wouldn’t get suspicious, on the other hand, I’m quite sad to have her leave because she is a very nice girl who isn’t afraid of anything, someone extraordinary that I’ve met in my life and I’m glad that I’ve met her.
We walked around the harbor with a cool and nice gentle breeze blowing our way. I can feel Shirley’s long hair brushed against my face. “Sorry.” She would apologize whenever her hair hits my face. We then stopped walking and look out into the big sea.
“I don’t know when the next time I’ll be coming back to Hong Kong.” Shirley suddenly said.
I weakly smiled, “You miss it?”
“Sort of.” Shirley replied. “Although I wasn’t raised here, but after all, this is the place where I was born. And then there’s you…someone that I can never forget.”
I smiled at her again and faced her, “I can never forget you either.”
Suddenly Shirley’s eyes began to grow teary, she was crying. “If only we can go back time, I would never choose to leave you. How could I’ve been so stupid? The perfect man in the whole world’s been right in front of my face but I never realized it. Why is that when we lose something then we learn to treasure it more?”
“Life is like that.” I replied. “You never know how important something is to you until you lose it, but when you finally realize that, it’s all just too late.”
Shirley tried to hold her tears back; I can see it from her eyes. She then looked out toward the sea again to let the breeze blow against her soft face, “I’ll miss you Raymond, and I don’t think that I can ever find a guy who’s better than you anymore.”
“Don’t speak so highly of me, I’m not as good as you think I am.” I responded. “I’m sure there are many great guys out there, even better that I am.”
Shirley smiled as she wiped her tears away, “Can I ask of you for one last favor?”
“If it’s possible then I will definitely do it.” I answered.
“It’s not something that you’d like to do, but for me, I hope that you will, for just one last time…” She said, hope filling up in her eyes.
“What is it?” I asked curiously.
Before I know it, Shirley had leaned in and planted a kiss right on my lips. She closed her eyes and gently kissed me, but did not let go. I was hesitating and wanted to let her go, but at the same time I didn’t want to be so aggressive to push her out.
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Li Qian’s POV
My eyes widened up in surprise to what I am seeing right through my eyes. It was Raymond kissing another girl. Sorrowful and yet angry tears came rushing down my eyes, pouring out like a stream. I couldn’t bear to look at this anymore, so I turned the opposite direction and walked away with my hand covering my mouth, crying. I can’t believe that Raymond is cheating on me, something that I never thought he would do. I’ve been suspicious about it, but never did I think that my wild thoughts would come true. It was all real, and this time, I’ve witnessed it with my own eyes. I took the taxi home and just went inside my room crying more and more. It hurts so much to see what I’ve saw, and what hurts more is that he has to lie to me over and over again. I rather have him tell me that he’s cheating on me than having me figuring out by myself. I didn’t know what to do, break up with Raymond or pretend that I didn’t see anything? I was confused.
I rested in bed the whole night. I was leaning against my pillow on my bed, and holding another pillow in the meanwhile. I was thinking, thinking what to do now. I don’t want to lose Raymond, and I don’t bear to tell him that I want a break him right in front of him, but what he’s done to me has hurt me so much that I don’t think I can ever get myself back up again. Raymond’s been the biggest impact in my life, and he’s someone very important to me, someone that I love so dearly, but yet he’s also the person who brings me the most pain. Suddenly, my cell phone which is on the table next to my bed started to ring. I looked at it and it was a call from Raymond. I wanted to pick it up and yet I don’t. It kept ringing and ringing and I couldn’t stand it anymore, I had to pick it up.
“Hello?” I said.
“Hey.” Raymond replied, “Are you okay? Your voice sounds like you just cried, is everything okay?”
“I’m fine.” I lied, “I’m just not feeling too well.” And by that, I mean I’m not feeling well mentally, but apparently Raymond thinks the other way.
“Oh, I’m sorry…” Raymond answered, “Want me to come over to see how you are?”
“If you want to.” I said.
“Okay, I’ll be there in fifteen minutes, remember to wait for me.”
“I will.” I responded and then hung up.
After hanging up with Raymond, I put my cell phone onto the table then buried my face into the pillow with fury and confusion, not knowing what to do.
Exactly fifteen minutes later, Raymond came with a bowl of hot congee. I walked over to get the door. “Hey, come in.” I said as I opened the door, and he walked inside as I closed the door from behind.
“Here, I bought you some congee from the store that you like.” Raymond said as he walked into the kitchen to wash the spoon. I looked at him as he does so, every step he takes I would look at him oddly, but he still hasn’t noticed my expression yet.
“Come and eat before it gets cold.” Raymond urged me.
I smiled lightly and walked over to him, “Can you feed me?”
“Feed you?” Raymond asked in disbelief, “Well since you’re sick, I’ll feed you.”
I smiled at him as he fed me the first spoon of congee that tasted so good. I was enjoying this moment with only me and him. I looked at him as he fed me one by one, and he would sometimes blow on the congee too, afraid that it might burn my tongue. I smiled to myself in seeing how sweet he is.
“Raymond?” I suddenly said.
“Yeah?” Raymond asked as he was still blowing onto the congee.
“I have something that I want to tell you.” I told him.
“Yeah, sure go ahead.” Raymond replied as he had his attention on me.
“I…I…I…” I muttered, slightly stuttering and hesitating to tell him what I wanted to say. I sighed heavily, “Do you want to go on a small vacation?”
“Is that what you wanted to tell me all this time?” he asked.
“Yeah…” I replied, scratching my head.
Raymond laughed, “Only that and you were stuttering. Well, sure, if you want to go then I can take like a day or two off for a small vacation with you.”
“One day will do.” I said.
“One day?” He asked, “Are you sure you don’t want more?”
“I’m sure.” I replied
“Okay then, I’ll make arrangements and I’ll tell you when it’s settled okay?” He asked
“Okay.” I replied with a weak smile.
“Where do you want to go anyways?” He asked
“I heard of a place in Hong Kong, it’s like an island and people from other places usually go there for vacation. I don’t want to go too far, so I guess that’s the best place to stay then.” I answered.
“I see.” Raymond replied. “Sounds great.”
We talked for a little bit more and it was time for Raymond to go. For the whole night, I did not tell him about what I saw earlier today, I was too afraid to tell him and I just can’t.
“Well, I guess this is good bye.” Raymond said as he stood at the door. “Good night, sleep tight; don’t let the bed bugs bite.”
I smiled as he kissed me on the forehead, “You too.” I replied then wrapped my arms around him as I hugged him tight into my embrace. I closed my eyes and didn’t want this moment to end. It felt like it was our last hug or something, I didn’t know why, but it just does.
“Why are you hugging me so tightly?” Raymond asked, “You want to suffocate me?”
“Yes, I want to suffocate you till death.” I replied as I hugged him tighter.
“Two can play that game.” Raymond said laughing as he hugged me tightly too. “Give up yet?”
I shook my head and just leaned my head against his warm body as a tear drop came running down my cheeks, “Don’t let go.”
“Never.” Raymond whispered into my ears as we both just stood there holding onto each other.
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I had time today so I thought that I'd update :) yay me! So, how's this chapter? I'm sorry to make things so depressing for RQ. Hehe, I think I might end this story soon, so yeah. :) I'm still thinking of what to say for RL :\ I will think of something soon! Comments please!!