| Fan Fiction |
by Zoey
A/N: Thanks to Elnabella at dejavu501.blogspot.com for the wonderful poster and background. Comments are welcome...(please!!). Enjoy reading...
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How could they do this to him?
Don’t they care about his feeling at all?
Does his feeling even matter?
Both of them were his best friends. They were the only people who truly understand him and know him inside and out. The three of them had been the best of friends ever since kindergarten. They were inseparable.
As a child a bond of friendship was formed.
As a teenager a bond of family and brotherhood was formed.
Now as an adult a bond of love was formed.
The confessions came quiet as a shocked and unexpected for him. He had never thought of them in that way before. He had always thought of them as friends and brothers, but never in a romantic way, not once. It seemed as that they both knew what he was feeling and thinking when they had confessed because they both said the exact same thing when they were done.
“I don’t expect you to answer or accept my feeling right now, but please know that I do love you.”
They both had been understanding, giving him time and space. For that he was grateful. He was at loss for words at what he should do, most importantly what he should feel. It didn’t made things easier when neither of them knew that the other also had confessed to him on the very same day. However, the worst was still yet to come, when one peaceful afternoon both of them barged into his house, demanding answer, who did he love, most importantly who would he choose. He was clueless as to how they had found out about each other confession. He was shocked and hurt to care.
“Who do you love?”
“You love me right?”
“You have to choose now.”
“Pick one!”
They screamed at him demanding him to make a choice, to choose who he loves. His mind was spinning, a throbbing headache was beginning to appear on either side of this head. Bringing his hands up to slowly massage his temple, hoping to reduce the pain pounding in his head. He closed his eyes taking a deep breath, counting to ten slowly, he calmly told his two best friends to stop the bickering and yelling. Too wrapped up and lost in their own private argument, they failed to hear him asking them to stop. Finally he couldn’t take it anymore he snapped. Screaming at them to shut it and get out of his house. Shocked at his own outbursts, he calm down and quietly told them to leave and that he need time to sort things out. They both agree and left, giving the one they love time.
How could they expect him to choose?”
Do they not know that they are hurting him?
They never once asked his feeling, but rather demand it.
Does he have to choose? He could never choose between the two of them. He loves them both equally. Both of them were his best friends. They were always there for each other. Jaejoong was his soul, while Junsu was his lifeline. He told Junsu everything. Talking was their connection, he could say everything to Junsu without any embarrassment and discomfort. Whenever he saw Junsu all the problems and troubles would be pouring out of his mouth as if he had no control over it. Junsu would always listen patiently and never ceased to brighten his day. Unlike with Jaejoong, he never told Jaejoong what was troubling him but the man always seem to sense his emotion and have his own weird way to make him feel better. With Jaejoong, it was as words need not to be spoken for them to understand one another. They were different, but they complete him.
Both Junsu and Jaejoong were a part of him. His left half would always belong to Junsu, his lifeline while his right belongs to Jaejoong his soul. Didn’t they know that he can’t choose between the two of them? If he were to choose, no matter who he chosen, one would instantly get hurt. By choosing one over the other mean he would be losing a part of himself along with it. They might think he is selfish, but he didn’t care. He became who he is today because of both Jaejoong and Junsu, without either one of them then Park Yoochun would never exist. They had made him to be who he is today. They complete him both inside and out, and for this very reason his mind is made.
Their patience were running thin when neither Junsu nor Jaejoong had heard from Yoochun in over a week, no visit, no phone call, nothing. Just as their patience were about to run off, they received a letter. A letter from Yoochun telling them to meet at his house tomorrow at 11 am. Both Jaejoong and Junsu arrived at Yoochun’s house in only a matter of minutes apart. They greeted each other and walked up to the front door. Taped to the front door was a piece of paper with Yoochun’s writing on it.
Jaejoong and Junsu,
Use your spare key and come right in. There is a letter on the coffee table in the living room. Please read it, the both of you. It’ll explain everything.
Yoochun
Both did what Yoochun asked, upon walking into Yoochun’s house they noticed how quiet and empty the house felt. Picking up the letter Jaejoong sat on the couch waiting for Junsu to join him, so they could read the letter together. Once the both of them made themselves comfortable enough, Jaejoong open the letter and began to read out loud.
Dear Jae and Su,
If you’re reading this letter, it means that I’m already gone (NO!!! IDIOT I didn’t kill myself!!). I’ve decided to move to America. This is my decision, my choice. I could never choose between either one of you. I have never done such a thing before and I’ll never will. Please understand. I love the both of you too much to hurt either one of you. Jaejoong, you are my soul. Junsu, you are my lifeline. Without either one of you I really have no clue as what to do. So I decided that it’s best if I were the one to leave, to prevent any heartache and pain. I’m dong this because I choose to keep both of you in my heart. Please don’t be angry with each other, let alone blame yourself. It’s not your fault, both of you. I always have both of you in my heart. As I know you always have mine in yours. Both of you will always be a part of me as I’ll always be a part of you.
Love Chunnie
PS: Please take care of each other. Even though I’m not there with you physically I am always in your heart, while the both of you have each other side by side.
Both Junsu and Jaejoong were shocked to say the least. They had always thought Yoochun would eventually choose one of them. Never had they expected him to leave. Junsu broke down, head buried in his hands guilt and regret slowly crept in. Jaejoong was numb, realization what they had done to their best friend sinking in his brain. They never once thought of how he would feel. They never once considered his feeling.
As now they have no one but each other to share their pain. Yoochun, who was their rock, their center was gone, leaving them to take care of each other broken hearts. Quietly Jaejoong took one of Junsu’s hand into his own and gently pulled him into a hug. Yoochun was right, they will always have him in their heart. And beside both Jaejoong and Junsu have each other to mend the other broken hearts. It’s time to heal.
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August 25, 2009
Zoey