| Fan Fiction |
by shattered teardrops
With a sense of madness playing along the lines of his eyes and expressed by the mischievous contours of his lips, Yi Jung took my hand and without words, he began leading me to walk down the familiar stairs of Namsan, the exact same set of stairs I walked down alone without him chasing me four years ago.
Although I’m quite flattered that he returned to Korea without a girl in his arms this time, I’m still in doubt as to whether he really changed his ways and whether he really gave up his playboy ways. Reforming a playboy isn’t that easy, you know… Especially if he was by the name So Yi Jung and he belonged to the infamous F4.
He took a few and unhurried steps down the stairs, with me shortly following behind him as he held my hand much to my delight and at the same time embarrassment. He just came back from Sweden three days ago and already jokingly invited me to his wedding where he said, I happen to be the bride.
Of course, I didn’t take his joke seriously. I mean, come on, why would I? Well, it would be really nice if he meant it, but then again, it’s So Yi Jung we’re talking about here, the renowned and infamous Casanova of the F4.
“Sunbae- Um… I mean, Yi Jung-ah… Why are we here?” I asked for I, myself am unsure why we were here in the first place.
With my hand still in his, he stopped walking and turned to look at me with a small smile playing on his lips. “Ga Eul-yang, do you remember the last time we were here?” He asked looking straight into my eyes.
Of course. How could I forget? That was the time when I gave up chasing him for I’ve already tried my best. I smiled in response and spoke. “Hmm… I think it was when I told you that I’ve already done my best to make you like me…”
“That’s right…” His smile momentarily waned as he looked at me but he spoke again. “You walked away from me that time, right?”
“And might I add that you didn’t chase me.” I teased but of course, I could not deny the fact that I was really hurt at that time.
“So, at that time, you wanted me to chase you?” He asked, conceding to my own teasing.
I rolled my eyes. “Can we not talk about that?” Honestly, it was more of the fact that I was embarrassed to admit that I wanted him to chase me when I walked away from him. Yes, I really, really wanted him to chase me… But he didn’t, right? I’m still thankful that after four years, we’ve remained in contact though.
I tried to walk past ahead of him and walk ahead in order to avoid touching on the subject of our conversation but he easily tugged my hand back and pulled me towards him. His sudden tug at my hand surprised me and caused me to spring forth backward and trip on the stairs. The result? Of all places, my face landed unto his chest.
Embarrassed and all, I tried my best to quickly regain my composure and pry myself away from him because honestly, I could feel my heart hammering wildly inside my chest. “Um… Mianhaeyo…” I softly said and tried to step away, but I realized that I couldn’t because I was trapped in between his arms.
“But remember, I gave you a hint about my secret right? My secret about my Jagiya… Do you remember?” He asked.
I could feel my cheeks flushing as I noticed how close we were standing against each other. “I-I… Uh… Yes, of course I remember… How could I forget?” I tried to smile but I knew that it all came out awkwardly. Dammit So Yi Jung, what are you doing to me?
Slowly, he released me from his firm hold and stood straight in front of me. “This time it’s my turn, Ga Eul…” He began with a serious expression painted on his charming face. ‘What could it be this time? How come he’s so serious?’ I could not help but mentally ask myself.
“I feel that in the four years of being in Sweden and away from you, I’ve done my best to remain faithful and think only of you, and no one else…” He said.
Confusion clouded my thoughts. ‘What is he saying?’ I asked myself. He… He only thought of me while he was in Sweden? Does that mean that he never dated anyone while he was there? He remained faithful only to me? Albeit unbelievable, this was what his words conveyed to me… And I caught myself in disbelief. Was So Yi Jung telling me that I made him change his ways as a philanderer? Did he really change for me? Does that mean… that he loves me?
“Ga Eul, thank you for letting me do my best… I’ve really learned a lot and I’ve also thought of the things I’ve done in the past that now, I deeply regret… Right now, I think that I’ve done my best and I think it’s time to move on…”
“Sun… bae? What do you mean?” I asked, pleading for clarification of his words. Was he telling me that he grew tired of being faithful to me for four years? Was he giving me up now just like I gave up chasing him four years ago? Aniyo… Yi Jung-sunbae, are you really leaving me now?
He momentarily smiled and I was all the more confused. “I’ve told you to stop calling me Sunbae, didn’t I? We’re no longer students now. You should really learn to call me by my first name because it’ll be weird if you kept calling me Sunbae even though we’re not co-leagues at work or anything anymore, right?” He said with a fond expression on his face.
“Mianhae… I guess I got used to calling you Sunbae… Well then, let me repeat my question. What do you mean, Yi Jung?” I asked again. This time, I was hoping he’d out rightly answer my question and not speak in riddles. I waited for four years just to be with you, not for you to tell me that you grew tired of being faithful to me.
His smile vanished again. “Like I said, I’ve done my best and I think it’s time to move on, Ga Eul…” He looked into my eyes and I saw nothing but unuttered seriousness behind charming face. Still, with the answer he gave me, I didn’t know what to think of. I didn’t have a clue as to what he really meant. Can’t he just tell me honestly what he wanted to happen? Because all this suspense is literally ratting my nerves out. God forbid that he break up with me… Oh please… Please don’t let him be tired of me…
“I still don’t understand…” I honestly spoke out.
He took a deep breath and looked into my eyes. “I guess, this time it’s my turn to tell you that I’ve already done my best… Just like how you told me that you’ve done your best four years ago, Ga Eul…” He said meaningfully. “I really don’t know how to openly say this because…” He momentarily paused and smiled slightly. “With those other girls before, I never had to do this… because you know, they knew where they stand… They knew that they were just my girls… but not anything serious…” He stuttered hesitantly.
Oh, my God… Was he really going to leave me? With those other girls, he never had to break up with them because they knew from the beginning that they were nothing serious. But now… since it’s been four years and far too long, he had to cleanly leave me, is that it? I could feel my heart being pierced little by little as I tried to foresee what he was about to say next. I waited for him for four years and now that he’s back, I can’t afford him to just leave me… I really can’t…
“What I’m saying is… Marry me, Ga Eul…”
He was asking me to marry him… Oh… Wait. WHAT?!
My eyes widened in surprise in awe as I looked at him. “M-Mworagu?!” I asked, my head and heart still in unuttered disarray. “You’re not planning to leave me?” I blurted out in my confusion and this earned me nothing but a light chuckle from Yi Jung who was already smiling charmingly at me.
“Why would you think that I’m planning to leave you?” He asked.
My cheeks flushing and all, I tried to grope for words to properly express my thoughts and found myself stuttering. “W-Well… Four years ago, I gave up on you because I feel that I’ve done my best… And now, you’re telling me that you’ve done your best… And that you need to move on…” I paused to look at him and found him laughing at me instead. “And you said… You said that you didn’t know how to do this because you never had to do this with the other girls in the past because they knew that they were nothing serious… So I assumed that you’re talking about a break up because…”
I never finished what I wanted to say because Yi Jung suddenly took my hand in his with one hand and hushed me by putting his other hand on my lips. He looked at me with a deeply amused smile and spoke. “What I meant about moving on is moving into the next stage in our relationship… And what I meant about not knowing how to do this is… Not knowing how to propose... because I’ve never done this with the other girls from my past because they were all nothing serious… I was never planning to leave you… I only thought of you for four years and wish that we could be together… Now that we’re already together, do you think I would want to leave you?”
“So you’re not planning to leave me?” I asked.
“No, I’m not planning on leaving you anytime soon and I doubt that I would ever think of such a thing…” He cupped my chin with his free hand and forced me to look into his eyes. “So… Chu Ga Eul, my ring has been given to you four years in advance. You’ve also worn it for four years already… But it’s only now that I’m asking you this question…” He took a brief pause and held both m hands with both of his, then stared lovingly into my eyes.
“Chu Ga Eul, will you marry me?” He asked.
I bet you could already guess what my answer is. =D
-FIN-