| Fan Fiction |
by Chandra
Alec knew it was a nightmare for Tavia to have found out about her half sister. And so was he to discover that Ruby’s another daughter was still alive. The thing he agonized most was that Ruby might return to Jimmy and reunite with him for Rain now existed. Despite the panic in his heart, Alec truly worried about Ruby’s condition more than anything. His friend Rick had divulged that Ruby was physically getting worst than ever.
And now was not the time to worsen Ruby’s health with Tavia’s constant disturbance of her newfound discovery. It was also not the right moment to suspect Ruby’s unfaithful affair. Thus, Alec longed for his daughter to understand the situation and not to bother Ruby about Rain.
“Tavia, I know you are upset at your mother right now, but don’t you realize that your confusion and disappointment in her might jeopardize her state of being?”
Tavia was taken aback by her father’s words. Didn’t he even bore the slightest anger when he learned that Ruby had deceived him all this time? Hadn’t he even been envious of her heart belonging to another man? Oh how much had Tavia sympathized her father.
Tavia nodded her head embarrassingly as she comprehended the tantrum she threw a while ago in her mother’s hospital room.
“But dad, how can you be so calm when mom has done you wrong? How can you’re not jealous knowing the fact that you’re not the only man she loves?”
Tavia raged in bewilder as she studied her father’s feature. He looked serene and subtle, as if there was nothing in this world to trouble his soul. Perhaps, only Ruby’s wellbeing, and nothing else mattered. Tavia thought as she waited for her father’s reaction.
“Having married to Ruby is the luckiest thing I have ever done in my life. And now there are you, I consider myself the happiest person.” Alec replied, his eyes seemed far away, reflecting his deepest and innermost sentiment of contentment aloud to his daughter.
“Ruby has chosen to love me, grow old with me, and be faithful to me all these years, how can I doubt her heart?”
Tavia marveled at the sight of her father’s earnest face.
Abruptly, she felt queasy and her stomach unsettled. She didn’t know why, but she had been nauseous lately. All of a sudden, she gagged roughly, yet nothing came out of her mouth. Fatigue soon conquered her body and there was dizziness inside her head.
“What’s wrong, Tavia?” Alec was immediately concerned as he pulled her into the lobby and accommodated her onto the chair.
“I don’t know what has gotten to me, but I feel tired, headache, and always want to vomit.” Feeling so much better after sitting on the bench, Tavia wondered what was wrong with her body.
As Alec analyzed Tavia’s description, his heart beat rapidly. “For God’s sake, I think you’re pregnant.”
“When Ruby had you, she was going through the same thing.”
“Pregnant? It can’t be!”
Tavia got out of the chair and took a step backward, mutely shaking her head and covering her face in shame as though to deny the newfound information he had stated. This cannot happen to her. She thought only these things would happen in TV drama or movie. Shock began to filter through her body and darkness seemed to envelope her whole being. Her mind had almost stopped. She would be remembering this dreadful moment forever of the disappointment and frustration in his eyes. She felt the wrench in her gut, and with the unmistakable certainty she knew that nothing would be the same again.
Fury suddenly consumed his mind and now he wanted to know the bastard who did this to Tavia. This was not the daughter Alec had known of. This was not his daughter who unexpectedly got herself pregnant. It must be someone else’s doing and Tavia was probably forced against her own will. Alec convinced himself for he refused to believe that this was his daughter who had done the foolish act.
“Who is it?”
Tavia closed her lips tighter, unwilling to reveal anything to him.
It was at that moment that Alec began to realize that he no longer understood Tavia, and that she no longer understood him. A gulf had opened between them and he no longer knew how to bridge it. Once again, he searched for practical solutions as most fathers did. Conversation. Finding out why his daughter had done the thing she wasn’t supposed to do. He had supposed that she was mature enough to do whatever she pleased. But he was wrong.
“If you don’t tell me the father of the child, Tavia, I will find out myself. And he’s going to suffer like hell.” Alec insisted, the words both a threat and a promise, unmistakable steel underlying the silk of his voice.
Somehow, her father did not appear to be gentle and loving anymore. Instead, he seemed to wear a mask of a madman, losing his sanity.
Soon, Tavia’s fists flailed ineffectually at her sides, and already she was dissolving into tears. She backed away from her father, reluctant to expose the man who made her pregnant. Suddenly her eyes filled, blurred, and then overflowed with the advent of her dreadful grief and humiliation. Tavia didn’t fear her father. She never thought that she would bring such disgrace to her family and now Alec Su had to witness his daughter’s shameful act. The fact that she wasn’t married. And she was too young to carry a child in her stomach.
The horrible feeling of being trapped in a nightmare was back, wrapping itself around her more and more tightly until it was almost suffocating. She was disgracing herself and her family. She had never done anything before in her life to infuriate her father, and now she did the worst thing ever.
“Is it Ron?” Tavia only shook her head in indignity. “Then it must be Bosco Wong. He did this to you, wasn’t he?”
Tavia was vaguely aware of him, tightening his hand roughly on her wrist as he pulled her along with him. Her mind was in chaos, and she was too exhausted, too flabbergasted, to know where her father was taking her.
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Sitting in the wheelchair, Ruby gazed out through the big picture window at the street outside the hospital building. It was bleak out there. Fall had all but surrendered to winter. The trees stuck up like bones from the gray ground. Tiny figures no longer meandered but hurried, bundled against the cold, as they rushed toward their destinations.
Ruby envied them and their anonymous lives. They possessed purpose, the precious thing she had once had. Purpose had been something she had taken for granted, but now she was adrift, at the rudder no more, lost and without a compass. And the circulation was drifting with her.
Even though she had known about Rain’s existence, she was not able to make the decision herself. How can she ask Rain to forgive her and accept her when she had a family with Tavia and Alec? Now, she was lost and helpless like an abandoned ship in the middle of an ocean, not knowing which direction to steer forward.
Ruby heard the door creak, and thought that it might be Alec checking on her. She turned her head and surprisingly saw him. His expression was of anticipation and curiosity. He looked down at her as if he would find the answer to the dilemma in her face.
“Oh, Jimmy,” she said, and she fell into his arms. He held her tight, as if shoring up a dam that might burst and shower him with such sorrow. It was a hug of love and helplessness.
“Oh, Ruby. I don’t know if I am mad at you for keeping Rain away from me over those years or overjoyed that I have a daughter I’d never known existed.”
‘I’m sorry Jimmy. I’m a terrible mother to our daughter. I didn’t know about her up until now.”
The familiar ache returned to her stomach; the moistness to her eyes.
Ruby was torn in two at the most crucial moment of her life. She could see the concern in his eyes. He did not know she was going to say any more than she did. His future hung in the balance like hers.
“Ruby,” He apprehensively spoke. That familiar voice, that so well known inflection. “Rain needs us now. She’s in a critical condition.”
Jimmy acknowledged that he didn’t have to interrogate Ruby about Rain’s identity. She probably had found out the same time as him. Perhaps, her other daughter Tavia must have given her stress about Rain’s existence because Ruby looked fatigued. And Jimmy presumed that it was Rick’s responsibility and the doctor must have stolen the Rain away from Ruby.
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Jimmy threaded his hand into hers, and she squeezed it back. Ruby took a deep breath and let out a sigh of anticipation and anxiety. She was going to see the daughter that she hadn’t seen for twenty years already.
She resembled the great plane that was wrapped around them, hurtling through space unto the unknown. It was scary and exciting, invigorating and nerve-racking. It was called living.
Nonetheless, Ruby had to be strong. She had to be brave. Then, and only then, would, she have the courage to face Rain. Soon, she will see Rain and ask her daughter for forgiveness.
“Jimmy, I’m nervous. What if she hates me and does not want to accept me as her mother?”
Ruby turned around in wheelchair to face him. She was afraid that Rain would not forgive and forget the mother who had deserted her for twenty years.
Jimmy continued heading toward the direction of Rain’s room. “Don’t think too much. Rain will understand what you have gone through.”
His so very recent misery was gone as if it had never been. Jimmy had forgotten the years of suffer. He was too joyful to worry about anything else. After endless nights of torture, he finally found happiness. He was going to reunite with Ruby and Rain, a daughter he never knew living.
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After the door closed behind them, the silence stretched for several minutes, and then Bosco said, “Why did you deceive Rain? Why are you hurting her and never told her about her identity all this time?”
Raymond’s face was set; the bruises on his nose were purple and his expression angry-looking.
“You heard me. You ruined her life. Why? Why do you keep those secrets from her until now?”
“Because I love her. I never thought that I would fall in love with her,” Raymond answered, the words sorrowful and his voice very soft.
Suddenly, stunned by Raymond’s divulgence, Bosco resisted the urge to punch Raymond. If he loved Rain, then why did he bring all those heartaches to her? Didn’t even know that Rain had loved him as well. But Bosco was not going to disclose that to Raymond.
As for Raymond, he realized his foolishness for telling another man about his feeling. And that man should not be Bosco Wong. As a matter of fact, he not only hated the man, he resented him with all his heart. Bosco Wong had physically attacked him the other day when he wasn’t alerted and even dared to take the girl he loved away from him. How can he not loath the guy?
However, now was not the moment for settlement and he was aware that violence cannot solve the grudge he held for Bosco. Thus, Raymond Lam came here to discuss about the surgery, and it concerned Rain Li.
“My visit to your office is not to tell you about my feelings for Rain. But I have something to notify you.”
Raymond snickered at Bosco Wong, eagerly expecting the interest forming on Bosco’s face. “Tavia told me about your revenge on her father.”
Bosco stared at the egotistical fool, speculating what the hell was Raymond’s intention. Despite his scornfulness, Bosco sat still.
“Well, I assume that you are going to make him suffer through his wife’s illness because the ones matter the most to Alec Su are his wife and his daughter. But I know you’re not going to hurt Tavia.”
Bosco cannot take his silence anymore. That was it. Raymond Lam had gone too far with this tactics of his, and Bosco didn’t give a damn about his scheme.
“Whatever I’m doing does not matter to you.” Bosco was boiling in rage as he spat at Raymond.
Yet, the man seemed to enjoy the sight even more. “Don’t you think it’s a bit disgusting of you to do, especially, to an ill patient? Besides, she’s the mother of your lover. Isn’t that too awful?”
Shame immediately engulfed Bosco as he sat back in his leather chair. No matter how much he wanted Alec Su to experience the pains of loved ones as Bosco had suffered, he knew it was unpleasantly dreadful and heartless to torment Tavia’s mother as well.
Raymond smiled wickedly to himself as he learned his words impacted Bosco heavily.
“But as you said before, this is none of my business, so I won’t interfere. But I have to inform you that the kidney donor is no one else but Ruby’s own daughter Rain Li.”
As soon as Raymond finished, Bosco felt as if the man dropped a bomb on him, nearly shaking him that he almost fell out of his chair.
Bosco heard the echo of Raymond’s words running through his ears, and wondered if everything he felt was branded on his forehead like neon.
And then things got even worst, as the door immediately slammed opened, and two figures entered the room. One was pulling while the other was dragged along.
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Chandra
12/31/07
A Preview for Upcoming Chapters
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“What about Rain? Who is she to you that you’re so protective of her?”
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“So what are you saying? That I don’t know the father of the baby?”
“I didn’t mean that. I just don’t want to be the victim here. Tavia, you have been through a lot of emotions since your mother’s illness and family’s matters. You might confuse with me and Bosco.”
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“I’m sorry.” Ruby responded. “I cannot ask for your mercy. I can only blame myself.”
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Hey Everyone!!! I hope someone is still reading and please let me know how is this chapter? I’m sorry that it takes so long. HAPPY NEW YEAR, everybody!
Few things I would like to share with you guys, if you are interested:
Tavia and Raymond hold hands at TVB Award Show on November 2007
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Vpoa7Hro4oc
Tavia’s petition: if you like Tavia to be paired with Raymond, Ron, or Bosco, please do sign.
http://www.petitiononline.com/yeungyi/petition-sign.html