| Fan Fiction |
by SeventhStar
He is my driver. The one that I knew I should avoid to get more involve in my personal life because I knew exactly who I deal with. A driver. With those arrogant and dominated feeling wanna be. Who always think that woman like a car, which they could control and steered in any direction that they want.
I used to be a woman like that. I ever was being steered by a blind and stupid love. He controlled me. He steered my direction of life. I didn’t want to be just like the road car that can be trashed whenever it broken.
I wanted to be like Formula One car. Formula One car is a car that couldn’t move backward. Could you believe that? Yup… Formula one car is the kind of car when something wrong with the electronic system on it, it will stop and nothing you can do about it. There was something wrong with my heart. I stopped my desire to love and being loved. Even this weakness was the most bothering problem in Formula One car… but this car had a special advance. No matter how broke the chassis of the car…. The driver inside it will stay alive. Because surround the driver there were some barriers that avoid driver for being extremely hurt.
You saw in ordinary car, the car broke, so did the driver in it. Totally different with Formula One car. That’s the reason why I wanted to be like a Formula One car. No matter how broke I was in the inside, I wanted people around me still stay safe. I wanted someone in my heart stay safe. That someone was my daughter, Hana.
The other reason why I didn’t want to get involve in any Love Race Journey because I knew if I had it… Hana could be hurt. Hana will never accept any other man in my life except her beloved daughter. Just like she couldn’t accept any other woman in Baron’s life except me. I couldn’t imagine how she will deal with the fact I have a boyfriend. She was just four years old. She will not accept the fact that after divorcement that means her mother and father are free people. Able to struggle for their new love.
She was too young for it. I didn’t ready and I thought Hana will never ready. I didn’t want to her more. It was enough she had to face my divorce with Baron. It was enough she had to deal with the fact that their parents couldn’t stay with her together just what she used to be in the past. Just like a driver of Formula One car. If there was a significant changing in the car, it could ruin the performance of the driver it self. It will be dangerous if the changing didn’t being expected by the driver… The car will hurt the driver. Because the driver didn’t understand how the car work with the sudden changing.
And Wu Ji Zun… Chun. He was so young. Younger than me. 22 years old and still had a great future ahead him. He had a girlfriend and I thought he was a very responsible young man since he planned to do serious relationship with his girlfriend from what I saw in the ring that he planned to give to her girlfriend. For a 22 years old man… how many other man that you can find like him? Not many and I didn’t want to ruin his life. I had a daughter and moreover I was his race engineer. What will people say about our relationship?
The biggest reason I was so confuses was… Perhaps it just me that feeling nervous. Perhaps that kiss meant nothing to him. I’m a woman and he is a man and it was not weird if there was some tension and desire of sexuality between us. Perhaps it just me who was thinking too much until I cried in front of him.
I attracted to him. I had to admit it. The way he was getting along with my daughter, the way he respected me, the way he laughed into my jokes and the way he was being patient with all my stubbornness and selfishness. I never got that even from Baron.
Just if… just if we had not met in this kind of situation. Why… a simple kiss could make me in confuse like this?
I needed help. I needed Selina’s help.
I immediately called Selina. Selina was my best friend. We were like the sky and the earth. So different to each other. She was a secretary and so feminine. Definitely different with me. But just like love…. Friendship (my mother said it to me) came in unexpected way too. Even we barely met each other and didn’t communicate since a long time ago. I knew she will be there for me. Whenever I need her.
“Hello.” I could hear her voice. A same voice that I heard a couple months ago. Still a sweet and a full attention voice.
“It’s me Ella.”
“I knew you are…if its not you I will not wake up for just answered the call in the middle of the night like this.”
I smiled.
“I knew you are smiling there.”
I surprised and said “How do you know?”
“I just knew.”
I laughed with her. Selina was one of persons that could make me laugh in the middle of my sadness. The other person was my daughter of course. If I had to explain our relationship and our friendship story… it will end in so many chapters. Too many things that we encountered together and that made communication between us didn’t need any physical contact anymore.
“So what’s your problem Elle?”
“I thought I didn’t need to say that I’m in trouble isn’t it? “
“What else the reason you call me Mrs Race Engineer Who was Busy to maintain and manage Formula One Team in the fastest side of world on earth?”
“Hey.. could you give me a shorter called name please?”
She giggled there. I could imagine her cute face when she giggled. Even she didn’t near me. I never forgot her expression and face. One of the reason why I seldom called her was I will miss her more if I heard her voice. Weird isn’t it?
“Come on Elle, tell me what’s your problem…” She insisted me. I knew I had to tell her immediately.
I told the whole story from the beginning till the end.
“He is a special one Ella.”
“Sorry?”
“Yes he is. Because he could distract your mind until like this, he must be the special one. I still remembered when you told me about Mr B a few years ago, you didn’t excite like this.”
“Selina… please don’t add an oil in a fire! I barely know him Sel. He is younger, he is my driver, I have Hana…. He has a girlfriend… He has a great future… He is….”
“Elle… you never changed don’t you? That’s what I hate at the same time also I love from you. You always put the other behalf before your self. Now the problem is not him. Its you…. How about you? How do you feel about this? Do you like him?”
I didn’t answer her. I still didn’t know the answer though.
“I knew you are still there Elle.”
“Sel… the problem is I don’t know about my feeling. I’m afraid Sel. I’m afraid this exciting fuel will burn the broken engine in my heart. I’m afraid to get burn once again Sel. I’m afraid Hana will be the victim again because of my personal life problem Sel.”
“Or… He could be the mechanics Elle… who can fix the broken engine or even an engineer like Matsumoto who always able to renew the new spec of the car. Including the engine.”
“Sel… since when you are able to connect my life with automotive thingy?”
“Since when I had became your friend Elle? More than 15 years and that was not a short time.”
“My suggestion Elle. It’s the problem that only can be solved by your self. I always here to support you. If you are not ready so it’s fine. Just forget the kiss and sleep. Two months later when you meet him again…. Pretend nothing happened between you two.”
“I don’t know Sel. I thought I will forget the kiss. Pretend nothing happened. Do you think its okay?”
“I always support you Elle. But I just want to tell my opinion Elle. Is that okay?”
“Go ahead then.”
“You will miss a big deal here. From your story…. I knew he is the rate one Elle.,.. Just if I could meet him and I could give you the best solution.”
“I don’t know Sel…. But I think this is not the right time for me to think about love. I still have Hana. I worried her more than anything.”
“Just remember what I say…. Sometimes…. You have to consider your own feeling Elle.”
“I know Sel. I even not sure about my feeling. You know me right? If I’m not sure about something… I will…”
“Leave it for the sake of everything. So typical of engineer.”
“Ha ha… Good night Sel. Have a nice dream…”
“I hope I can meet your Chun in my dream so I could give my score to him.”
“Sel!”
“Good night dearie.” Selina closed the conversation.
I closed my eyes and prayed… hope the confused feeling that I felt now just a temporary feeling and I will forget it completely in the morning.
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[Author’s Note]: Do you want Ella forget it? Ha ha… Just watch a K-drama last night till the morning… lol… And I’m falling in love with the story until I almost forget about this FF… lol. A Mom and Three Dads *the title of the serie*. If you have time…. Watch this. Soooo funny and I thought It will be perfect if Ella and Fei Lun Hai play in this series…. I imagine that in the entire of the series though lol. I hope you can comment so I didn’t forget to update this story,,,, lol
[Comment’s Reply]: I really appreciate the comments. I’m quite shocking again when I see the comments… lol
- Valentina: Gak mau ah…. Bisa mabok gw….. ha ha ha
- Jowyn: Yeah… it’s a good thing for a moment but I made it looks like it will be worse for the next step of the relationship.
Ps: Have you received my email?
- Jasmine: wow… seemed like people quite shocked with Chun’s move… ha ha…Me too not excited but this is Chun first movie… ha ha. And I kind a eager to see him doing kungfu… lol.
Ps: Just bought a new laptop so…. Hiks.. my cd that contained my YM messenger installer… I left it on my other home *the home where I live near my university… so couldn’t chat immediately.. lol*
- risha165: owww…. Ha ha. Just in time I gave up to catch silent reader… you came to comment lol. No its not a bit slow… It just so slow… I admit it.. ha ha. You can continue become silent reader I don’t mind at least I know you are there and read my FF ^^
- aggy: iya ni…. Soalnya emang idenya dah ke plot di pikiran gw… Cuma suka males aja ngetiknya
- xiaoXue: males ah xue…. Wkwkwkwkwk
- soutsada7: No problem dearie… lol… You are back!! In winglin too… lol.
- Mixieer: hello dearie,,, nice to see you again. LOL… grammar…. I’m afraid with that word… Ha ha. I will learn in a future.
- Charycvbjs: you come again… lol… here the update ^^
- Lindy: yeah… and that will be a problem
- Fr3AkiShFaY: Are you CE fan too? Lol.. Sorry… I’m just too demanding. Fot a bad writer and demanding like me… I’m so ashamed lah… ha ha. Really… Bernie Ecclestone should hire me as F1 ambassador.. ha ha. And about Hana… she is just too lovely… I also love her character so muchhh… lol. Actually I made it in a slow flow because… I wanted to tell the step how they could be falling in love to each other. Because for me… falling in love is not a sudden thing. There is a process in it and regarding the situation that Ella faced… it will not be easy lol. Critics also welcome here lol
- Ixie: You are welcome dearie.. seemed like everyone hyped because of the kiss.. lol