| Fan Fiction |
by SeventhStar
I have sent the email to him. I was glad that today Matsumoto said the CEO of Honda has arranged a meeting to discuss in Japan so I had a reason to not meet with him in next month. Did I forget about the kiss? No I didn’t. I just couldn’t forget about the kiss. That’s why I immediately emailed him when I got “the good news” from Matsumoto. Why I had to avoid him and glad when I had the chance I don’t know. I was just afraid how I have to act in front of him. Before that kiss I always act as his race engineer or his friend.
I looked at my baby. She slept in my bed tonight. Sometimes there was time when she afraid to sleep alone. Is it an impact from my divorcement? I also didn’t know.
I turned my laptop off and laid my body beside Hana. I looked at her face carefully. Hana still so young but she had life that not as usual as any kids in her age. She rejected to go to school. She always followed me whenever I worked. I knew the reason behind these. She was afraid to lose me after she loose her dad. Because the only place that she could meet me and Baron at the same place was in the circuit. I had forced her to go to school but she always had any ideas to reject it. She learned how to read and write by her self and now I thought her ability at the same level like elementary school’s students.
But I also knew that school was not just about learning formal education. It could build up the informal skill like how to interact with your friends. I thought that was more important than the formal education that she will get from school. That was the reason why I always tried to convince her to go to school.
Sometimes I regretted my life. Sometimes I thought what if I didn’t become a race engineer. Perhaps I will not lose my husband. He will not cheat on me when I busy with my work. I could give my full attention to him. Just like other driver’s wives. Who wait at home or sometimes come with her husband in race to support him. I couldn’t be like that. I was there always in races with him. It was going smoothly when I still in one team with him. But since he moved to Ferrari team, everything started to change. I couldn’t talk freely about my team because Honda team is a competitor for Ferrari team.
I am a selfish person. Yes I am. I couldn’t leave my passion as a race engineer for the sake of my family. I just couldn’t. If I could perhaps everything that I had in my life was different. Perhaps I could accompany my daughter every morning at the bus stop to wait for her school bus.
“Hana…. Could you forgive me to become a selfish mother? You never knew how many times I thank to God because I have you here. You are the only one that could remind my self that I am a woman. I am a mother and I have to fight for my life for you.”
I fixed the blanket on her body and slept beside her. Thank God I still have her beside me. I didn’t have to think about anything. I didn’t have to bother with Chun’s kiss. I will forget about it for sure. Just look at Hana and I knew I have to forget him. For Hana.
In the next morning as usual I prepared breakfast for Hana since my mother went to visit my aunt in China.
“Dearie… have you taken a bath?” I asked Hana who came down from the upstairs.
“Of course Mommy. You will never let me have my breakfast if I have not yet taken a bath.” She smiled happily and sat on the chair.
I poured milk in her piggy glass, her favorite glass because it had a pig picture on it and particularly… it was a pink glass. Pink is her favorite color.
“Oh I forgot! Could you take a newspaper in the gate darling? I forgot to take it in the morning.”
“Okay Mommy.”
Then she walked to the door to get the newspaper. A minute after that I heard her scream. I immediately rushed into her.
“Why are you screaming?”
“Mommy… someone strange in the gate and sit there!” She pointed to a guy that sat on the gate. He wore a cap and it covered his face.
Hana hide behind me while said “Could he is a burglar or thief?”
“Wait here dearie, I want to bring a racket or something so I could hit him if he is a real thief.”
“No Mommy! I’m afraid. I will follow you to bring the racket.”
I just could think about racket since that the only one thing that I thought we have here that can hit someone. This neighborhood actually was pretty safe. I never heard any thief came into this neighborhood. But this guy…. Who was this guy? Better be prepared for the worst.
I took the badminton racket that hanging in the wall. At that time I just hoped that we had a tennis racket because it will be heavier and could hit the thief better than badminton racket.
I prepared to hit him, but before that I took his cap so I could see clearly this thief. Surprisingly it was Chun! Damn!
“Wu Ji Zun! What are you doing here!” I screamed.
Hana heard my scream and she immediately rushed beside me. Before that she decided to waited in the home and sat near the phone so she could call the police immediately if the strange man really a thief.
“What? Is he my prince?” Hana sat in front of Chun and looked at him carefully. “Oh My!! He is really my prince!”
Chun opened his eyes slowly and he seemed quite shocked with me and Hana that stood in front of him. “What the hell that racket for?”
“To hit you! I almost hit you because I thought you were a thief! What are you doing here and why did you sleep in front of my gate?” I screamed louder than before.
He stood and his expression changed from a confused one into more serious expression. “I need to talk to you about….”
Then he turned his face and looked at Hana. He stopped his sentence for a while and he repeated it again. “About… we both knew what this is about.”
“Is that a secret?” Hana asked him with her puppy eyes. I knew exactly what her puppy eyes meant. She just a little girl that always curious about everything surround her. She will never let someone have a secret without she know about that.
“It’s about work honey.” I explained to Hana but I looked straightly into Chun’s eyes as a sign that he didn’t need to explain anything to Hana.
“Mommy… let us invites Prince to have a breakfast with us. He must be hungry!”
Before I could give answer to her, Hana had grabbed Chun’s hand and brought him into our dining room. I just sighed and followed them.
When I arrived in the dining room, I saw Hana had prepared the additional plate and glass for him. I smiled when I saw that. My daughter just a special one. I saw Chun and he also smiled while paid attention to Hana’s action. Sometimes he laughed when he saw Hana had difficulties to placed the plate in the table. Those smile and laugh that he had… I mesmerized by them. So genuine and sincere.
“Mommy.. We are ready! Give us the omelet.” Hana had sat on the chair.
I brought the omelet. It was a rice omelet. Lucky I made for 4 portions. So I didn’t have to cook anymore.
I kept silent while eating and I saw Hana and Chun chatted happily. Chun seemed like always success to bring Hana in a happy mood. I even felt there was a special bond between them which I didn’t know what.
“I want more.” Chun handed his plate to me. What the hell he was thinking.
“Mommy.. my prince want another portion. Give him please.”
I gave the last portion of rice omelet to him. “For sure you have a big appetite.”
“It is a healthy food. It will be good for my stamina since I slept on the outside from 2 am.”
I shocked when I heard that. “ You are what! Are you crazy?”
“Yes… I’m crazy in….” He didn’t continue his sentence but he had smirk in her face.
I didn’t know but I was blushing when I realized the last word of his cut sentence.
“Mommy you are blushing. Why?” Hana asked me.
“Continue your eat dearie. And I’m not blushing.” I told her in a firm voice but Hana and Chun laughed when I said that.
“No need to be laugh.” I said once again and they quiet suddenly but still with the smile in their face.
After we finished the breakfast I told Hana to wait me in the upstairs because I didn’t want her to involve in our conversation.
First she didn’t want to follow my instruction but after Chun promised he will take Hana a walk after he talked to me then finally she agreed.
“About that kiss isn’t it? You want to talk about the kiss. You don’t have to explain anything. We made mistake and I didn’t want to remind about the kiss anymore. I knew it just a temporary feeling and….”
“Could you stop talking and hear me first. We are not in the position as a race engineer and the driver now.” I didn’t know why but I felt like I have to listen him.
“What do you think is wrong. I was thinking in these couple of days and I thought over and over again. My kiss that night is not an ordinary kiss. I couldn’t forget about it. I thought I love you. When I received your email yesterday, I couldn’t think straight anymore. I’m afraid that you try to avoid me.”
“No I don’t. I really will have a meeting with Honda CEO.”
“Please don’t cut my sentence. Even if what you said in the email is true, I want you to know that I feel so sad when I knew that I will not meet you until 3 months. I felt so empty until I decided. This is a sincere feeling. I enjoyed my time with you. I want to know you more.”
“But I couldn’t accept your feeling. Whether it’s true or not. I just couldn’t. My situation right now didn’t allow me to accept your feeling. Your situation now also didn’t make everything became easier.”
“About what? Our status as driver and race engineer? I thought you were married with your driver right. You are a free woman. I’m a free man. Its simple.”
“You have a girlfriend. I have a daughter. You are younger than me. It’s not that simple.”
“I will break my relationship with my girlfriend. I just realized she was not the one that I’m looking for. I love your daughter.”
“See. You even didn’t loyal with your girlfriend. How if you found a better one than me after this. You will leave me then.”
“I will not. I know you are the one.” He said in firmly tone that made me believe every single of his words.
“So the problem is me. I couldn’t accept any love except my love to my daughter and friend. I’m not ready for any love from any men.”
“I will wait until you ready.”
“I will never ready. Hana will never accept another man than his father in her life.”
“How do you know you will never ready? I even didn’t start my move yet. Just wait and see.”
He stood from the chair and moved to Hana’s room in the upstairs. I just sat there. I didn’t know what I have to say. He has every right to make a move. I just have to prepare to not being moved by his move. I have to lock my heart with my key. I will keep my key carefully until he desperate to find the key and give up to open my heart.
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[Author’s Note]: Chun has pressed the gear 4… lol…. What do you think about this chapter huh? Lol…. Actually I’m so demanding author so I really hope to read your comments…. Ha ha :P And oh yeah… are you girls didn’t want to try watch F1? Lol… Tonight (7 pm Indonesia time and 12 am British time) there will be Silverstone Grand Prix… *pray hard for ferrari lol* Just watch if you want to have a picture of this sport ^^
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