| Fan Fiction |
by SeventhStar
I looked into TV. It broadcasted sport news. The headline still on the speculation about Wu Ji Zun will move to Ferrari or not because until today he still didn’t decide whether he choose to stay on Petronas-Honda or move to Ferrari.
“That silly boy. That was a certain choice that he had.” I whispered while prepared breakfast for Baron. We lived in England for the sake of Baron’s treatment. I smiled even I just could see his face from TV. Chun’s face.
“What did you just say Ella?” Baron asked me. Now he could walk by “the new leg” after he got a surgery 2 months ago. He still looked struggled though.
I helped him immediately. “What did I say to you? Never get off from your by bed by your own. You have to call me first.”
“I didn’t want to be a cry baby Ella. You helped me a lot in these past 6 months. Even Hana had to move here and leaved her friends in Taiwan.”
“It is okay, you need your daughter.” I helped him to sit on the chair.
Baron smiled at me and said. “Ella… what was making you smile a while ago?”
“Smile?”
“Yeah…. I saw you smile when you were watching TV.”
“Oh… Nothing.” Then I wanted to help him eat by feeding him but he rejected it.
Baron shook his head and said “I have to try to be independent Ella. How do I live if you leave me someday and I even couldn’t eat by my own hand?”
I sat beside her and looked at into his eyes. “Baron, do you think I will leave you?” I never thought I will leave him. Not when he still in his struggling. I didn’t re-married with him yet but I just wanted to beside him. I wanted to accompany him to through the difficult time in his life. He needed me. He needed Hana. I will never could leave him.
“Ella… because for me… your smile is everything.”
I didn’t understand with what he meant. “I always smile right?”
Baron smiled at me and said. “You always smile everyday Ella…. and it really made my day. But the smile when you watched Formula One videos in your laptop yesterday and also the smile that I saw when you were watching TV this morning are different.”
“What was different with my smile?” I asked anxiously.
“There is a love in your smile and eyes when you watched last season video in your laptop last night. I showed how much you still love Formula One… and you gave up your career for me Ella? I don’t think I deserve it. I have ever gave up you for the sake of my career.”
I couldn’t say anything. What he said was true. I was still in love with Formula One. I missed the atmosphere of Formula One. I missed this winter moment, when I prepared the team to face the next season.
“Ella… there is also love in your smile when you saw him on TV right? You missed him isn’t it? At that night when you called his name when I tried to hug you, I knew you love him. It just my selfishness that received your sympathy. I thought, it was time to let you go Ella.”
“Baron…. I….”
He looked into my eyes and stood by his own. I wanted to help him, but he reject it. “Ella, for the first time in my life, let me be a man. I always hurt you and I wouldn’t hurt you again by my selfishness because I use your sympathy to make you by my side. Ella… looked into my eyes. Do you still love me?”
I looked into his eyes. I could feel pain in his eyes and it really hurt me. My tears dropped without me notifying this.
“Ella… it is a simple question, do you love me? If you love me, I will let you by my side.”
I didn’t answer him. My tears kept dropping.
“Your tears and silent is an answer for me Ella.”
I hugged him. I hugged him like I couldn’t hug him again in the future. “What about Hana? She used into the situation where we together in this place.”
“Hana is a smart girl. I believe she could understand.”
I thought to my self. What about Chun? Will he still accept me? After my brutally action when I left him for Baron? He also will had a future bright career in Ferrari and will it make him change?
I was sitting in front of my laptop. I almost typed my email id and my password to see my email inbox. For all these 6 months, I really scared to open my email. I really hope there will be an email from Chun but what if didn’t? What if he really forgets about me? That was the real reason why I didn’t open my email address for more than 6 months.
Hana opened my room and with teddy bear in her hand she said. “Mom… Is it true we will move to Taiwan again and will not leave with Daddy?”
I lifted her up into my lap. “Yes…. Unfortunately dearie.”
“Will you marry with my Prince?”
I thought she already forgot about Chun. But she didn’t. Somehow it really made me relief. “I don’t know dearie. I just….”
“didn’t love Daddy right. That’s what Daddy told me. He said you didn’t love him anymore that’s why we have to move on.”
“Dearie…. I really wanted to take care of your Daddy but he rejected it. He want to be independent. Do you think I’m cruel?”
Hana hugged me and said. “No you are not. You are the best Mommy ever. You take care of Daddy even I know he hurt you in the past and you give me 6 months to fill a complete family once again. I love you so much Mom, I’m so happy living with you and Daddy but… I will be happier if you smile more, just like when we spent time together with Prince. Mommy… I miss your smiles and laughs.”
I cried in Hana’s hug. I never knew that my daughter could be a very understanding daughter. She was my pearl and jewel. “But dearie… Perhaps I also couldn’t be with your Prince. We didn’t meet for a long time and I don’t know he still like me or not.”
“How can! He will always love you and like you. He promised to me that he will not let you cry”
I smiled to him. World is not as simple as Hana thought. Then after a goodnight kiss, she slept on her own room.
I decided to open my email. Even I didn’t hope that there will be email from him. Surprised to see… there are a lot of emails. Almost 200 emails from him.
The entries:
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Ella… I know you will not open this email address again because you are not Petronas-Honda race engineer anymore, but I will email you everyday just to remain my self that there is a woman that I love ever own this email address. That I love for… FOREVER.
Ella… I will send one email everyday to you… I just want you to know that I love you. I just really hope someday you can love me too even it’s almost impossible.
Ella… how’s Baron doing? I really feel sad that Formula One lose a great driver like him. But in my deepest heart and most sincere feeling, I feel sad that losing a great driver like him also mean lose my woman and my race engineer.
and his last email:
Ella… I’m in London now. McLaren-Mercedes also want to contract me. But since the beginning I never consider them. I have made a decision. I will sign the contract for Ferrari. I’m sorry I couldn’t help Petronas-Honda anymore. I know it is your dream to make Asian Team become a stronger team. You want to develop team also drivers from Asia, but as a driver I also have a dream. I want to be World Champion Driver and Ferrari could help me. How I wish that you still here…. discuss about my decision. How I wish that… we can face each other as a rival in next season. Your team versus my team.
Your strategy versus my ability driving.
How I wish you could accompany me this night to Fiorano, Italy. I really nervous when I remember I will sign a contract that will change my life forever. I really wish you are here and comfort me, even though I knew it still impossible.
Ella…. I wish if you read this email, if you still have a slight of feeling to me, you can come to the London International Airport tonight. I will have a flight at 12 am.
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Oh My God! Why I never open my email! I looked at the clock. It almost 10 pm. I immediately grabbed my car key and rushed to the airport. I have decided. I have decided to start my love engine at the time when he found a key to open my heart. He had fixed my engine and even changed my engine into a brand new one.
I never thought I will feel this kind of feeling again after I divorce with Baron. I thought I will never encounter again the high feeling when you are falling in love. Six months ago, when I started my love relationship with him. Everyday was a surprise for me. I surprised when I saw his little action could makes me smile and laugh.
I remembered when he got fans for the first time, there is a slight of silly jealousy feeling in my heart that make him laugh.
The time that we spent together with Hana… I also couldn’t forget it. How he could become a best friend for Hana and also a best friend for me. How he could learn as a formula one driver very well and really make me proud.
He really succeeds to turn my engine on. To open my heart. This time… it was not him that should be struggle to get my love. It was me that should come to him. To struggle for my love.
I ran into the airport and looked for him. And there he was. He stood while watched his watch. It seemed like he was waiting for someone. He was waiting for me.
I hugged him and he hugged me tightly…. seemed didn’t want to let me go. “Ella… Are you here for me?”
‘Of course. You said you need your race engineer opinion about your decision to move to Ferrari right?”
He laughed and said “But you are not a race engineer anymore!”
“I could apply again, since beside your emails… I also received a lot of emails from Matsumoto, Jensen, David…. even Honda CEO. They want me back. And I’m glad if I can back.”
“You just love F1 too much don’t you?”
“And I just love you too much too….”
His eyes become so bright “Sorry! I didn’t hear what you just say.”
“I love you….” I screamed
He covered my mouth with his mouth to prevent me for scream even louder and it will embarrassed both of us. “I thought I forget how your taste is Ella…. But I think your lips as sweet as before.”
“And I thought… you forget how to kiss me… it seemed like you are still as professional as before. Do you have a practice with other women?” I teased him.
“I didn’t dare my Majesty.”
Then we burst into laugh.
“Chun… I support you to move into Ferrari. Don’t worry about Petronas-Honda. Small team will always be there to support rookies. A big driver should have a big team too. That’s how Formula One works. Every team has their own function. I will be there to develop Asian drivers and car manufacture. And you will be there to make Asia proud that they have another driver in a big team. Perhaps you could be the first World Champion Driver from Asia. I ever being selfish once when Baron move to Ferrari without telling me. But you are different with him. Don’t be worry. As long as you didn’t cheat and blind with famous and money… I still could bear with you….”
He hugged me tighter.”How about Hana… is she okay?”
“She said she will punch you if you make me cry!”
“She still as adorable as ever.”
“She is my daughter remember?”
“And soon to be my daughter.”
I poked his chest and said. “Hey… I never knew you will marry me. I just said that I love you and that not mean I will marry you right?”
He giggled and said. “Just see….”
Yeah… we never knew what will happen in future… Perhaps I could marry him or perhaps not. Too many problems between us I also didn’t sure we could handle it or not. But one thing is for sure now… I started my love engine…. for him and even sometimes this engine could be broken…. but he always can be my mechanical engineer… who always there to fix it.
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[Author’s Note]: Hey girls… I didn’t mean to be cruel with you…. ha ha… If the story is completed I will put COMPLETED note right… lol…. I didn’t want to tell you anything…. just click the NEXT BUTTON to read THE EPILOGUE