| Fan Fiction |
by Erii
I took a deep breath before I stepped into the kitchen. Not meeting the eyes of anyone, I made my away around the table and found a place at the table where I wouldn’t have to meet Onew’s eyes. It was quite obvious that Onew had been paying for the food cause as far as I could remember; we had never been able to eat a breakfast like that here at home before.
My mom placed some fried rice down in front of me, but I didn’t look up at her to smile like I always did. They lied to me, and after all, after me coming back, they didn’t even gather courage to talk to me and explain. Nothing… Just like Onew. I could understand him, but not them! I finished the food quite quickly and then finally after pouring down a glass with water I was ready to look up.
«I’m leaving…» I couldn’t even say anything before Kan had stood up so quickly that the chair fell over on the floor.
«Leaving?! Where?! How?! They are searching for you... You can’t leave me behind. Not again!»
«How would you like to study music in the UK?» I looked at him with a small smile luring on my face.
«What?»
So Onew did listen after all. Just seconds ago he looked far too busy eating to even listen to what I had to say.
«Jonghyun and Taemin said they’ll help me. Jonghyun always gives the boys everything they’ve earned during their time at the bar when they… I don’t know.. When they get to go. You didn’t know? I knew, but I didn’t accept the money cause I thought I had…» I stopped again, and realized what I just said wouldn’t really make sense.
«Jonghyun will fake me some papers. Kinda easy since I don’t have anyone, and then they’ll take me and Kan with them on their honeymoon and help us settle over there. I just… I just want to get back to how I used to be. I changed so much, and I hate what I’ve become!»
Now that was the truth. I changed. And I had been thinking. Thinking quite much! I had realized it would be easier. Much easier if I could start all over somewhere else. Find back to the old me, and then.. When I was back to what I used to be, or a more mature version of what I used to be. Then I could come back. If there really was something to get back to.
«Hyung…?» Yejun looked at me from the other side of the table, and for some reason he reminded me of Taemin. I let Taemin down, now I was letting the one I had always been thinking of as my little brother down.
«You’re taking me with you?» Kan stared at me and I could swear I saw stars in his eyes. I just nodded my head.
«Key, we need to talk!» Suddenly Onew had pulled me out of the kitchen, but I didn’t do any resistance.
«I guess you have to find me in London to finish your revenge..» I whispered and kept my gaze at his feet.
«Revenge… I don’t get it!»
«Mr. perfect… Ehm… Will you take care of my family? Related or not, I don’t care. I could send you the money, all you have to do is to…»
«You really care about them, don’t you?»
«I guess…»
«The best hyung as far as I’ve heard. I’d like to meet that kind of Key… Even though I liked the cute and innocent Key as well!»
«I… I’m sorry!»
Why was he so nice to me? He was always nice. Even after everything I did to him. Why didn’t I just hold onto him? Why didn’t I just trust him, and fight to keep him mine? Why was I tricked so easily?
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«No second thoughts?»
«Nope..» A lie. I wanted to return. Wanted to be by Onew’s side, but… right now I had no right to stay by his side. I wouldn’t change back then. I would only hang onto him, relying everything on him, but no. I needed to wake up, get myself together before I could start to fight for his love again. Cause I had no doubts about that. Onew was the only one I wanted!
«Then… Why aren’t you boarding the plane?»
«Huh?» I looked up and saw that we were the only persons last by the gate. I just smiled sheepishly and followed Jonghyun into the plane. Kan and Taemin was already seated and they were talking together, smiling. Taemin happy about the fact that he was actually able to talk to my family. In fact, my only family.
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As time went by, I guess I changed. I went to night classes to study economics and during the day I was having part time jobs. Kan went to school to study music and at nights he went to get dancing courses. London was different from what I was used to, and the culture different, but I now had a clue why they called London the melting pot. So many cultures at one place.
«Hyung~! Tell me again why I’m doing this?!» Kan came into the apartment and threw everything he was holding down right in front of the door before he more or less fainted on the couch.
«Because you want to become famous…?» I went and picked up the stuff he had dropped in front of the door.
«Yeah, but why… why do I have to learn jazz ballet!?»
«Because you learn different types, guess jazz ballet is a part of…»
«I already know… Why do you always answer when I ask stupid questions?»
«Because…»
«I was joking, hyung! Ah~ I’m starving!»
«Nonono! You’re on a diet. Now finish your music piece and go to bed!»
«Are you trying to kill me?! I need…»
«You need to finish the song!»
«I hate composing… I wanna sing!»
Kan just pouted as he disappeared to his room. I smiled and looked at the calendar on the wall. It had been 5 months already. 5 months since I saw Onew. I don’t know what I expected, but I had expected something. Maybe a letter, a phone call, a visit. I had even hoped he would come and get me back, but no… Nothing. Maybe he forgot about me?
«Aww.. You’re thinking about him again, aren’t you?» I looked up and spotted Kan grinning in his door.
«Yah, you~ What are you…»
«It’s called “an apple”… It’s healthy!»
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I was cleaning the table in the small coffee shop as I saw someone I had been avoiding for weeks. Almost crawling under the table I was more or less praying for him to just pass.
«I can see you, you know…» My head flew up and I pretended to be shocked.
«I just… I found a coin!» I held up a coin and smiled brightly.
«Where is Kan?»
«Uh… I don’t know!»
«Aww… You always say that!» The boy pouted and sat down by the table I just cleaned. «When do you think he’ll call me? I’ve been waiting. He promised me he would go out with me if I composed a song for him, and I did, so…»
Right now I just wanted to kill Kan for putting me in this position. He had told me, and yes, he had put me in the position where I had to be the one to disappoint Leeu and tell him that Kan already had his eyes on someone else and just used the poor boy for his composing skills.
«He’s just busy. School, and dance practice… It’s all a bit hard you see…» Why couldn’t I just tell him the truth?
«Aww, that’s bad! My dad said he knew a good company back in Korea that was having auditions, searching for singers. I told him about Kan, and he said it was just what they were looking for…»
«Really?!» Leeu just nodded his head as an answer and I started thinking. If Kan was accepted it meant we were going back to Korea. That meant…
«Let me give you my number, okay? I’ll call you to meet up with me and Kan later!»
Leeu was all smiles and he handed me his phone. Was I selling my brother like this? Nah, he was the one that wanted to become famous. The fact that Leeu was able to help him on his way was just a good thing, right?
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«I hate you for doing this!»
I just smiled as I shrugged my shoulders.
«Why that annoying pink dude? I have to give in my piece of music tomorrow… Do I look finished?»
«You’ll thank me later..»
«You just wait… What would you say if I pulled you out on a date with that Alex guy?»
«You wouldn’t dare! He’s disgusting!»
«Then you should know what I feel… oh my god, he’s here…» Kan turned his face away and pretended like he was busy texting someone on his phone.
«Hello Kan!» Kan made a face before he faced Leeu and forced a smile. «Did you tell him yet?» Leeu asked Key and Key shook his head.
«Don’t tell me you sold me away!» Kan seemed to be thinking about the worst things that could happen. Wasn’t his brother on his side?!
«Sold…? I don’t get what you’re talking about, but there was actually someone that gave away your name, so…»
«What?» Now Key seemed to be interested as well. This was something he had been missing out on.
«Yeah.. My dad started holding the auditions in Korea, and then this guy flew all the way from here to Korea and then back here to ask me if I could talk to my dad about getting Kan into the group!»
«Someone…. What did he look like!?» Key had turned all pale and he was holding onto the water glass so hard it was almost breaking.
«Don’t remember… He had a nice smile though!»
«Nice smile...» Key seemed to disappear into his own thoughts.
«Wait, wait… Are you saying that I might be able to get famous through that group? If I get in…?»
Leeu just nodded his head and smiled.
«You have to have an audition though, but your chance is bigger than the rest!»
«Leeu, if I get in I’ll….»
«Save it!» Leeu stopped him before he was able to say anything more. «Just because I pretend to be stupid and immature, doesn’t mean that I actually am!»
Kan sat back and furrowed his eyebrows. Even though Key only knew half of the truth, it was all Leeu’s fault that he had gotten top grades. He had been focusing too much on dancing and vocal training, as for homework and other school subjects. Leeu had done it all for him, and why? All because a mistake he did when he was at a party with some friends, he didn’t mean to take the other ones virginity, nor to make him fall for him, but what was done was done…
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«You still think it’s Onew, don’t you?»
«I know it’s him!»
«You’ll be so disappointed if it actually was Jonghyun or Taemin, you know that, right?»
«I know…» Key looked up at the moon and sighed. If it had been Onew that meant he had been here. He had been so close, but again he didn’t come to see them.
«Hyung… You know you’ve changed. Don’t you think you’re ready to go back?»
«Why would he still want me? He didn’t even call even though I left my number with huge numbers on the refrigerator…»
«Because he waited for your call first?» Kan grabbed Key and turned him around putting his hand in Key’s pocket, taking out the card he knew Key was always holding around in his pocket. Onew’s number.
«Be a man… Call him, ask him if it was him. Tell him to meet us at the airport. I don’t know… Maybe he’s still here. Ask him to accompany us..»
«Okay, I’ll call him!» Key just took the card back and started walking again. He had gone through what he was going to say if he called Onew a hundred times. He just… hadn’t done it yet.
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After counting to ten he finally pressed the button and took the phone up to his ear, his heart pounding like wild in his chest.
«Hello?» His voice was so soft. Monotone, but soft. Key opened his mouth to say something, but he had no idea what to say.
«Hello…?» A few seconds passed by. “say something Key!” He yelled inside his head.
«DON’T HANG UP!» Finally he managed to say something.
«Key?»
«Don’t… don’t hang up..»
«I won’t, Key, I won’t!»
«You didn’t call me, not once…» The things he had been practicing to say, it was all forgotten now. He had no idea what to say.
«You needed more time, I gave you time. Wasn’t that why you left to begin with?»
«I guess… But, it was you, right?»
«Hm?»
«Who told Leeu to talk to his dad about Kan…»
«Maybe…»
«How did you know about Leeu?»
Onew suddenly laughed.
«Key, did you really think I’d stay back in Korea when you were all alone in London?»
«You… You’ve been here all the time?!»
«I promised to take care of your family… I’ve visited them once in a while, but still…»
«Why… Why didn’t you tell me!?»
«I like watching you from afar. You seemed happy on your own… As for Leeu. It’s kinda hard to not know who he is when he’s the one that has done all of Kan’s assignments, and Kan is paying him back by letting Leeu pay for their dates…»
«Dates?»
«Seems like you two have some things to talk about… Don’t be too hard on him though! I’ll see you around Key…»
«Wait!»
The line went dead and Key lowered the phone. The last part of the conversation was already forgotten. Onew was here… He was here in London, all because of him!
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A/N: This chapter was also written before I left Norway. So Leeu was planned to appear all the time, so it was kinda funny that some of you mentioned him ^^
And, yes… seems like I have all of the love I need from you, my readers! (Why am I complaining?!) xD
Anyway, you have no idea how happy I was when I saw that I still got comments even though I’ve been gone for so long~
This fic won’t end just yet… I spent an entire extremely boring “Chinese character” class to figure out the plot before the end… Not too good, but I gues… It’s okay xD
I don’t really have time to answer the comment replies, but you guys have no idea how much I appreciate them, especially now~ (Even though this host family is much better!)
About the Yoo SeungHo question, I just wanted to know cause I had no idea who he was before someone pointed him out in my “ex-school” (and well, he became my friend, mostly because his best friend fell for me T_T )
Anyway… One last question! It’s kind of important!
I have the entire plot ready for a new Fan Fiction, and I’m like burning to write it! So when this FanFic end I’ll start uploading that one, but my question is… (since I wrote the plot for a DBSK FF) Should I write it as a SHINee FanFic? And will you guys read it even though I will/might be updating slow?
Looove ♥