| Fan Fiction |
by Luna
“Oppa...” you growled in your sleep. Your face frowned and you have a cold sweats. Yunho was about to go to you when he heard you growled again. “Oppa... Jae oppa...”
And Yunho immediately stop.
*Why are you able to break my heart even in your sleep?*
As Yunho gently closed the door and walked out from the house, he thought he heard his ownn heart made a big crack sound. And he really was a broken-hearted boy.
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“Changminnie, where are they, do you think?” Junsu put his legs up to his chest. Beside him, Yoochun were playing the piano to reduce his worriness over their two eldest hyungs.
“I don’t know, Junsu.” Changmin shoved another mouthful of ramen into his mouth. “Maybe they’re in fight or maybe they just don’t meet each other,”
“Chun, where do you think is ______?” Junsu turned to Yoochun who were now playing their song Love In The Ice piano version.
“Junsu, everything is still a mystery until one of them or better both of them come back home,” he said while his pretty fingers still tapping on the white and dark tutes. Junsu pouted. He really didn’t like this situation. He didn’t like it when Yunho and Jaejoong have fight. Unlike their old days, now their fight seemed so much more serious and seemed like it would never end. And it happened because of love. They just happened to love a same person. Junsu let out a deep sigh. He then buried his face to the space between his legs and his chest and let his arms wrapped around it.
*People says that love is beautiful. Why all I can see is so much hurt?*
Yunho turned on his cellphone.
12 missed calls. Five from their manager and the other from Yoochun, Junsu and Changmin. And 3 new messages.
From: Manager hyung
You punk, where are you? I better see the two of you at home tomorrow morning before I beat the shit out of you.
Yunho clicked on his tongue and opened the second message.
[From: Food monster
Hyung, this is Junsu. My phone battery is low so I use Minnie’s. Hyung, where are you know? We are so worried. Yoochun can’t stop playing the piano and Minnie can’t stop eating. We are waiting for the both of you to come home. Still can’t calling Jaejoong hyung.]
Yunho then opened the last message.
[From: Food monster
Yunho hyung, it’s Yoochun. When will you come back? We’re so damn worried about Jaejoong hyung. He’s suffered too, you know that hyung?]
Yunho clenched his jaw. He was going to reply the message. His slender finger pressed the buttons fast. He quite surprised to him self. He was not the type of fast texter. Jaejoong was. He’s the slow one. He quickly pressedd the green button and the message successfully sent.
[From: Uknow hyungie
Junsu, Yoochun, I’m sorry I can’t go home soon. There’s something I got to do. Please take care your dongsaeng, don’t let him eating too much.]
On the other place, Junsu smiled bitterly as he read the leader’s message.
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Jaejoong stumbly walked to the car and searched his bottle of whiskey that he had abondened. After he found it, he closed the door harshly, slided down his body and lied his feet in front of the car. He gulped down the drink and looked up to the sky. The sky was clear and beautiful. Many stars appeared. Jaejoong smiled bitterly to find it was so ironic to himself.
“You’re so saddening, Jaejoong...” he said to him self. “You said you’ll protect her. YOU PROMISED YOU’LL PROTECT HER, JAEJOONG!!” he screamed. But in a second, he laughed. “BUT YOU FUCKING LIED, JAEJOONG! YOU ALMOST RAPED HER! And now she hate you... too fucking hate you...” Jaejoong laughed so hard, so hard that he felt his tears flowing down. The more he laughed, the more tears spilled out and he found himself crying. He didn’t even know when he started to cry. The next minute, Jaejoong only could hear his own sobs. He thanked that no one was here so he could cried his heart out. Jaejoong never cried this hard before in his life. Not even when his relatives died. He was crying for himself. For the stupidity, for the lost of hope. He lifted his free hand up to his face and covered his eyes with the back of his palm. But no matter how he wanted to stop, the tears always came out again and again. Jaejoong cuckled ironically as he realized that he could cry this much. He didn’t know it before.
“Fuck, Jaejoong. Stop crying. You’re a man! Fuck.” He cursed him self. He shot another whiskey. The content spilled from the corner of his mouth running down to his jaw. He was about to take another gulp when someone grabbed his collar harshly. Jaejoong turned his face immediately and saw Yunho with so much anger in his face.
“Y-yunho...” Jaejoong stuttered. He never expect Yunho to come.
“Surprised, Jaejoong?” Yunho smirked devilishly. He lifted up his left fist and landed the punch right on Jaejoong face. Jaejoong fell to the ground. He touched the bleeding cut on his lips and winced slightly. Yunho grabbed his collar again as he forced him to stand up.
“That’s for her, Jaejoong, for every tears she shed tonight.” Yunho coldly said as he gave the older male in front of him another big punch. But this time Yunho grabbed him tightly so Jaejoong wouldn’t fall again.
“And that’s for you, the stupid you,” Jaejoong could feel his head started to feel dizzy. But he kept still while Yunho treated him like a punch bag. But Jaejoong him self knew that he deserved it after all. The ache on his face was nothing compared the ache inside him or even compared to you. He gritted his teeth.
“And this is for the damn whiskey,” Yunho said as he gave the last punch on his cheek. He threw the helpless Jaejoong to the ground. Jaejoong landed his body on his back. He coughed and spit out some blood from his mouth. He tried to stretch his jaw but stopped when he felt a stinging feeling.
“Y-yunho, listen...” Jaejoong crawled to the car as he tried to stand up but failed. He felt so much dizzy because of the drinks he had and the punches of course and added with the aches on his face, he found it so hard to even took a step forward. He swung his foot forward and he failed. He stumbled to the ground. Jaejoong groaned.
Soon, Yunho ran towards him and held Jaejoong’s body as he helped him to stand up. However, no matter how stupid Jaejoong was, he was still his bestfriend and Yuno couldn’t ignore that fact. So he wrapped his right hand to Jaejoong’s waist and put his hand on his shoulder and helped him walked towards his car.
“Yunho... I’m sorry,” Jaejoong mumbled. Yunho looked at Jaejoong and he couldn’t help but felt pity towards the man.
“Don’t apologize to me, Jae. You should apologize to her,” Yunho said. He put Jaejoong to the passenger’s seat and buckled his seatbelt. Then he sat on the driver’s seat and started the engine. Before he drove the car away, he could still hear Jaejoong murmured,
“But she doesn’t even want to see me...”
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Jaejoong opened his eyes as he felt the sunshine heated his body. He grunted and touched his dizzy forehead.
“Hangover, hyung?” Yoochun sat on the bed beside him. Jaejoong didn’t even bother to answer. He just gave a quick smile.
“I’ll leave for breakfast,” Yoochun stood up and walked to the door. Before sprang it open, he turned to Jaejoong. “Hyung, I understand if you don’t want to talk about it. But just in case you want to, just talk. We’ll be here. Me, Junsu, and Changmin.” He smiled and closed the door. Jaejoong clumsily walked to the bathroom. He brushed his teeth and washed his face. After dried his face with towel, he looked at the mirror and stared at himself. His hair was messy, his pale was paler than usual and he has this bloodshot on his eyes he was a total mess. Jaejoong combed his hair with a finger and changed his clothes. He put a worn jeans and a white wife beater and was going to having breakfast. But a picture of Yunho popped in his mind and he stopped walking.
*Is Yunho there?* Jaejoong’s ears searched for a deep manly voice from noisy sounds that came up from dinning room. Jaejoong didn’t have any idea what would Yunho do if he saw Jaejoong or more spesifically, what would Jaejoong himself do? Everyone must been expected him to talk but he didn’t like to do it now. Jaejoong really wanted to avoid everyone and go back to his bed but he couldn’t ignore the growling sounds that came from his empty stomach. So with a deep sigh and heavy steps, he approached the dinning table that occupied four handsome young men on each seats.
“Morning, Hyung!” the ever cheerful dolphin boy greeted him with a warm smile. Jaejoong smiled him back. Although he didn’t say it, he felt thankful to Junsu. His smile always makes him felt warm. Jaejoong sat beside Yoochun, obviously avoided Yunho who seat on the corner. Breakfast time which usually noisy with them bickering each other, this time went silent. Everybody seemed composed even Yunho. He didn’t even bother to give Jaejoong glare which he expected that the taller would give him except the first glare when Jaejoong showed up. Jaejoong kept shifting uncomfortably on his chair. He knew sooner or later, he must told the other members about what happen. Well, the bruises on his face wasn’t easly ignored. Changmin helped him bringing the dirty dishes to the water sink.
“Let me do it,” Changmin said when Jaejoong was about to wash them.
“It’s alright. I must have something to do,” Jaejoong said then Changmin leaving with his mumbling about being a good dongsaeng with mouth full with snacks he stole from the fridge. Jaejoong smiled at Changmin and returned to concetrate at his work. He was brushing the sponge on the plate when he heard someone’s steps.
“Jaejoong,” Yunho said with a deep voice. Jaejoong stopped but he didn’t turned around. His back still facing the other man. “Do you know how was her condition when I found her last night? Terrible Jae... I was so hurting to see her like that. Then I sent her home, I tugged her to sleep. I caressed her and soothed her to calm down when she was having a nightmares last night. And do you know what the funny was? She said your name, Jaejoong. She said your name even while I was the one who beside her that time. Do you know how hurt it was?”
Guilty rushed over Jaejoong as his body became slightly tremble. He apparentally caused so much sadness. Did it would be better if he giving up from this mess? Yunho was a good man for her. A really good one indeed.
“I isn’t trying to make you feeling guilty, Jaejoong,” Yunho said like he could read his mind. “I just want to tell someone about my feeling and you’re the best one to understand it,”
*But it give so much hurt to me, do you even understand that?* Jaejoong felt a pang in his heart.
“But so you know, I won’t take any advantages of this situation. No matter how much I want to, but I won’t. I want our competition to be fair,” Jaejoong still froze in his state. He could hear Yunho steps walked away before he stopped to say something that had forgotten. “I must be regret this after I said this but apologize to her, Jae. Before everything becomes too late.” Yunho stated and moved walked away.
Jaejoong exhaled soundly and put the plate harhly on the water sink. He gripped the water sink’s side tightly. *The problem is, does she even want to see me?*
You looked at your self at the mirror and somehow felt disgusted. Even though it was Jaejoong who did it, but it felt so wrong in that situation. Jaejoong was drunk, and in his drunken state of mind, he tried to take advantages on you. Truthfully, maybe it’s okay with you if you do that ‘thing’ with Jaejoong in the name of love. Both of you were adults tough. But you only saw lust, only lust in his eyes that times. And you couldn’t have sex with someone who would forget it after they wake up in the morning.
You touched the red marks on your neck and shoulders featherly. Some of them were slightly blue instead of red, remembering you how rough Jaejoong at that time. Your hand ran down to your arms. They have a blue mark on each arms. Maybe they were caused because of the too tight gripped of Jaejoong. You felt a familiar stinging feeling in your nose. You looked up to stop the tears from falling and tried to forget everything.
*But why does it feel so hard?*
Three straight minutes you spent to forgive Jaejoong when you felt tears again rolling down as you realized something.
*Look, what have you make me. Last night you almost raped me and yet here, I’m still trying to understand...* you thought as another tears rolled down...
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As lazy ass as I’m here... I’m really sorry for the long update.
I always try to write everday but everytime I always end up with one or two short pharagraphs.
Mmm... the vote is till open, and until now, the result is even!
2:2 for Jae and Yun.
And I love your comment as much as I love YunJae!
With a Numerous State of Love,
Dong Bang Shin Ki, I Love you,
Luna