Fan Fiction |
by manggang_hilaw
XY’s POV: Oh God! He must truly love her. I thought I was prepared for this but I didn’t know it could hurt this much. No matter. His willingness to share with me his pain is enough. I will have to content myself with this. I will take his advice and go back to Canada and try to forget him. I will pull myself together and I will survive. But for now, I’ll just stay here in his arms and pretend it is me he loves. (She then closed her eyes and put her arm around Ximen’s waist and wished with all her might that he doesn’t push her away.)
Ximen’s POV: Why am I showing my weakness to her? I should push her away. I’m part of F4. We are strong men. So why do I find myself drawing her even closer. Why am I drawing strength from her arms? I should push her away. She might be foolish enough to think she now has a chance to be my girlfriend…. (An image of both of then lying in bed at the hotel flashed back through his mind. Of Xiao You’s head resting on his shoulder. He remembered the feel of her tears soaking his shirt and just as he felt a squeezing somewhere in the vicinity of his heart then…he felt them again now. And this frightened him.) No. I should not be feeling this. Push her away Ximen. You can’t let yourself feel this way about her. (But his arm just tightened on her shoulders) Why are you having a hard time pushing her away?
Xiao You, unaware of Ximen’s turmoil, tightened her hold on his waist. And just like that, Ximen’s internal struggle ended. They both made no sound as Ximen turned her so that she was facing him. She didn’t want to look at his face for fear of seeing his love for Xiaogen reflected in his eyes, so she kept her head down. He didn’t want to look at her face for fear that she would see his confusion reflected on his face, so he kept his gaze towards the billboard. Both of them were so lost in their own thoughts that they didn’t realize how tightly they were holding on to each other as the sun slowly rose up into the sky.