Fan Fiction

Tears From My Heart (Completed)

by Hainexazien

Chapter 9

It Would Only Lead To More Tears.

Months had flew by since that day, and it was me and Le Cai's third month anniversary today. I woke up early, and dressed myself, in my favorite clothes. Throughout these few months, I noticed Le Cai seemed to be more interested in Mei Qi, and seemed like he doesn't hate her as much anymore. My phone rang, and I got up from my bed to pick it up on the table.
"Hello?" I answered, I was in a good mood, and my voice was really high.
"Hi, Miss, this is from the hospital, Dr. Choi wants to talk to you about your report." The nurse said. Her voice was soft, and quiet.
"Um... from my body check?"
"Yes, Dr. Choi wants to talk to you about it." I had done my annual body check at the hospital a month ago, and after I had done it, I forgot about it.
"Oh... sure, I'll come by soon when I have time."
"Miss, you should come as soon as you can."
"Oh... Alright. Thank-you." She hung up. Why would I have to go as soon as I can? Was there something wrong with my body? I ignored it though, and decided to push it back in my schedule. Today was my date with Le Cai. Just then, I heard a knock on the door.
"Li Xin... " Le Cai started, when he got in. "Sorry, I'm going to have to cancel the date tonight, I've got something important to do, I'm sorry."
"It's okay... " I said, "There's always going to a next month."
"I'm really sorry," He apologized again.
"It's okay. Go now, isn't there something important for you to do?" I asked, I pushed him toward the door.
"Alright. I'll see you later?" He asked.
"Yup." I said, and pushed him out the door.

I was a bit disappointed, that Le Cai had things to do, and couldn't go on the date, but I understood. He had important things to do. I decided to check my report with the doctor, since the nurse told me to "Go Soon." I grabbed my jacket, took my bag, and left.

It wasn't long before I reached the hospital, it was white, with a big 'HOSPITAL' labeled in the front. I walked through the glass doors, and inside.
"It's not good news." Dr. Choi said as he looked through my report. "I'm suspecting you have a brain tumor."
"A brain tumor?"
"Yes, but it's just my prediction, we're going to do a check up just in case."
"Yes sir." I replied, and left. I couldn't believe it, a brain tumor. I shook my head, no, it wasn't, it was just a prediction, it won't come true. Even though I told myself this, I still couldn't hold in the tears, and cried. I called Wen Jun.
"Wen Jun?" I asked when he finally answered the call.
"Yes?" He asked.
"I... I might have a brain tumor."
"What?" Wen Jun shouted in disbelief. "Why do you say that?"
"My body check report...My doctor thinks I have brain tumor."
"Did you tell Le Cai?"
"He has something important to do, I can't call him. I don't want him to worry either."
"Where are you?"
"The hospital."
"I'll come pick you up, stay there." He hung up. I didn't want Le Cai worried, he's doing something important now, I can't bother him. Wen Jun arrived not long after. He took me to his home, and sat me down at the sofa. "Are you okay?"
"Wen Jun.... I don't know what I'm supposed to do..." I said.. I could feel my voice shaking, I was scared.
"It's all going to be fine, this is only the doctor's prediction right?"
"Yes, but...."
"It's okay... don't worry about it... You should get some rest." He helped me upstairs to my room, and left me in there alone. Should I tell Le Cai? I asked myself. No, I decided that I would stay at Wen Jun's for the time being, till the report comes out, I won't tell Le Cai about this. He couldn't do anything about it anyways, why make him worry? I ran downstairs, and told Wen Jun to take me to Le Cai's place.
"No, you should get some rest."
"I'll get some rest when I come back, please, just take me there." I pleaded.
"Alright, but you have to promise me you're going to rest when we get back."
"Okay." We jumped into the car, and left.

The sky was dark by the time we arrived, and the light's of Le Cai's home seemed to have light up the sky a bit, the lights in the windows still brightly lit.
"Wait for me here." I told Wen Jun, and walked toward the house. It was when I was almost at the door, when I saw Mei Qi.
"Li Xin, please, can you promise me something?" She asked, her voice was soft, and quiet, almost as if she was afraid I'd refuse.
"What is it?"
"I.... Can you leave Le Cai?"
"What?"
"Please...I really need him, please."
"I..." I knew that Le Cai might have had feelings for Mei Qi, but am I able to let go? Then I remembered the possibility of the brain tumor... I thought about it for a long moment, and decided, I didn't want Le Cai to worry, or become his burden. I decide to let go. "I will... but you have to promise me, you won't become his burden okay?" She nodded her head, and together we walked toward the house. I packed all my belongings into my suitcase, and left. I was at the front door again, when I bumped into Le Cai.
"Where are you going?" He asked.
"I'm leaving." I answered.
"What? Why?"
"I'm going with Wen Jun, goodbye." He took hold of my arm, and held me so that I couldn't move.
"Why?"
"You know... Le Cai, A person told me something three months ago. He said that I fell in love with someone, and that person wasn't him. He said he'd wait for me. Right now, I'm telling the same thing. You fell in love with Mei Qi, though you may not have noticed it, but I'm not going to wait for you. I shook off his hand, and walked away toward Wen Jun's car. I didn't turn around, my eyes full of tears, because I don't know how I would react if I did, I wouldn't even know whether or not I could control myself.

"Are you okay?" Wen Jun asked as he passed me a handkerchief.
"I'm going to be fine..." I lied, tears were still streaming down my face.
"You just moved out, it's only temporary, you're going to move back aren't you?"
"No, I broke up with him. I'm not going back."
"Why?" Wen Jun asked in disbelief.
"Mei Qi... she asked me to leave him...."
"And you left him because of that?"
"No, that's only one of the reasons... there's always the possibility of the brain tumor..."
"That's just a prediction... it might not be true..."
"You won't understand, I don't want to become a burden to him..." It was silent for a long moment,
"Let's go home." He said, and drove off. We didn't talk for the rest of the ride.

I skipped school for the next few days, I went to the hospital for the check-up's and tests. Wen Jun came with me.
"How is it?" Wen Jun asked Dr. Choi when the results for the tests came out.
"It doesn't seem there is anything, you seem perfectly healthy." Dr. Choi said, surprised.
"But the report..." I asked.
"Let me check..." He looked through his messed files, and after about two minutes, he took out a report. "Hmm... doesn't seem like there's a problem... the nurse must have given me the wrong report the other day... so terribly sorry." I sat there, dazed. So about the burden I thought I would become, wasn't true... I felt so hopeless, how could I be like this? My eyes filled with tears, but I stopped them from falling out. Soon after, Wen Jun pulled me out of the hospital, and into his car.
"Where are you bringing me?" I asked.
"School." He answered, and started driving. I glanced down at my cellphone on my hand, and saw the time, one o'clock.
"Isn't it going to end soon? Why should we go?"
"Don't you want to see some friends? You've skipped so much days, we probably have a mountain of homework by now." I didn't reply, I didn't know so much about seeing my friends. "Oh! I forgot to tell you, I'll be going to England next week for studies."
"England? Studies?" I asked in confusion.
"Yeah, managing the company, take care of yourself alright? Or would you like to come with me?" I thought about it for a second, and then replied:
"Is it okay if I come with you?" He looked surprised.
"Serious?" I nodded. "Okay."

The reason I didn't want to come to school was because I didn't want to see Le cai and Mei Qi, nor answer any questions about Le Cai and my relationship with each other. Generally, I didn't want to answer any questions at all. I prayed as we reached school that we wouldn't see Mei Qi and Le Cai, but those prayers never came true. In fact, they were the first people we met when we got to school. Mei Qi was clinging on to Le Cai, but Le Cai seemed as if he was ignoring her, and looked the other way.
"Hey!" He said, his face lit up, and started walking towards us. "How come you guys weren't here for the past few days."
"We..." I started, but I didn't want to continue.
"Mei Qi, you want to go on a walk with me? We could probably stop by at the cafe at school, for something to drink." Wen Jun offered, Mei Qi nodded, and quietly followed Wen Jun. As soon as they left, Le Cai and I walked to the far side of the courtyard, and sat down on a park bench. We walked in silence.
"So... how are you and Mei Qi doing?" I asked, trying to break the silence.
"Why would you think that?" He asked angrily, "There's nothing between Mei Qi and I!"
"Le Cai, maybe you just don't know it yet, I can see it through your actions. Mei Qi went from a girl you hated, shouting at her every single time you saw her, to a girl you just seem so interested in..."
"I don't like her!" He protested.
"Le Cai... You think I really want to give you up? Let you go? I did this because I know very well, even if I don't give you up today, there will be one day, where I'd have to give you up. You like her, and I can't stop that. Maybe it's just fate. Maybe it's just fate that I met you, though I won't be with you. I'm going to England with Wen Jun." He looked up, his face all troubled. "Le Cai, maybe today, I might be more important than Mei Qi in your heart, or maybe equally important, but I know one day, she's going to more important." Tears filled my eyes again. "Good-bye, Tan Le Cai." I walked away, tears streaming my face, I couldn't stop them, so I just let them fall.
"When are you coming back?" He shouted, when I was about ten meters away from him.
"I don't know." I replied, without turning around, and continued walking. I cried all the way back to the school gates, people stopping to look at me cry, and then going again. Wen Jun was there, Mei Qi was no where in sight.
"Are you okay?" Wen Jun asked as he reached into his pocket and grabbed his handkerchief, and wiped my tears. I didn't answer, because even I didn't know whether I was okay or not. I just knew that I didn't want to face any part of my relationship with Le Cai, because I know that would only lead to more tears.