| Fan Fiction |
by DorKaBLe
Title: Secret/Blinded Fool
Rate: PG13
Genre: Romance/Angst/Tragedy
Pairing: JaeJoong & Yunho
Minor: Changmin
Theme # 29 - Secret - Part II of My Resentment
Shhh...
Listen.
Can you hear it?
The small beating: Thump Thump...
Let's keep this as a secret shall we?
I'll throw away the key
Keep you hidden and locked safe.
Bury these unbearable feelings within you,
And keep this as a secret.
…
A game. A plain and simple game...of love.
I pulled up my knees to my chest and rested my chin on them as I stared out at the sea. What did he see in him that he didn't see in me? Was one of the reasons because many people respected him for being an intelligent and a well-mannered person? Heh...maybe...I should ask myself, "what did I see in him"?
I couldn't help but chuckle out loud. My chest twisted in an uncomfortable way and throbbed with pain. Maybe, I should have opened my mouth, but then again what was the point in telling someone you loved them when it was obvious they didn't return the same feelings? Heh…it’s okay. The love that I have for him will be a secret.
"Yunho..."
My ears perked up and I turned my head to find my beautiful angel. Grinning, I got up and wiped away the sand that was on my jeans and jogged towards him. Wrapping my arms around him from behind, I rested my chin on his shoulder and closed my eyes. How I missed hugging him, having him in my arms and whisper in his ear. I missed how his curves and body fit perfectly with my own.
“I love you forever…JaeBoo…”
...
You whipped your head around. Strange...you thought you had just heard him whisper those certain words that you wanted to hear at this very moment. But... maybe it was just your imagination. Sighing, you wrapped your arms around yourself and continued to stare out at the sea. You walked until the water touched your feet. Biting onto your lower lip, tears streamed down your cheeks as you dig deep in your pocket jeans and pulled out a black wing shaped necklace. Grabbing the bottle that was next to you, you dropped the shiny necklace in the bottle along with a letter before pushing the cork in to seal the bottle. With all your might, you threw the bottle as far as you can out into the sea.
“Yunho,
The first time I met you, I thought of you as an idiot and especially a fool. You were like a blinded fool who was in love and weird, someone who was always following me around. At the time, I hated you for some reason. And for whatever reason that was, I couldn't figure it out. But, maybe...maybe now I know why I hated you so much. I was in denial... and hiding from the truth.
I have to admit, there was something about you. Deep within me, there was always a tingling feeling whenever you were around me. It was probably because you were usually by my side. There were times where I felt I had a guardian angel and others, it felt like there was a stupid stranger that lived in the same world as I did. Cruel...I was so cruel and harsh towards you, and yet...you were still there for me. Like the rough times while I was dealing with Changmin. Yunnie ah...I hurt you a lot didn't I? The things I did and the things I said like "You're a fake" or something like "You'll never match up to him". Saying, I love Changmin a lot, must have torn you apart. Still...you were always there beside me. Smiling like a regular fool and laughing as if nothing was wrong.
But...I knew. Yunho ah, I knew better. Changmin wasn't just any regular guy. He was your brother, wasn't he? And to have your own childhood love fall for someone who was so close to you, really broke your world. Instead of fighting with your brother, you ended up making a plan to help Changmin and I get together. And by doing so, you decided for us to pretend to be a couple. It was supposedly to be a game to make him jealous. However, somewhere along the game, it had turned to the wrong direction.
Heh, but Yunnie…it’s too late to realize this mistake don’t you think? I’m such a fool…And what hurts the most is that I know...that no matter how hard I cry...these tears, will never be able to bring you back.”
…
*Flash Back*
Whatever that had just happened, you two, were just at the wrong place and especially at the wrong time. Everything...seemed like to move in slow motion. Your eyes, widening and you could feel his hands placing them onto your chest before pushing you away from the place of where he was standing. Before you can do anything, a loud shotgun was heard throughout the place.
It was like a quick flash of white and before you knew it, you were pulled away from his body. You watched as they took him away from you and placed him inside the ambulance before taking off. Feeling something warm against your palm and fingers, you looked down to find his blood.
...
Shhh...
Don't ask any questions.
Let's keep this quiet.
No one will know except for us two.
It's best if this is left forgotten.
I'll throw away the key
Keep you hidden and locked safe.
Bury these unbearable feelings within you,
And just remember this as a secret.
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GAH! Did you guys get that?! If not…then *PULLS HAIR* ask me when you write your comments. But do know that Yunho died [yes he was already dead in the beginning. =o=*|||]. YES I KILL HIM OFF! It’s better if he dies! I hate it when JaeJoong dies! It’s flipping retarded. Well---xDDD I read those tragedies once in a while. ^O^ I’ll like to thank those who commented:
YueYue: Heh you got something else planned for my birthday? XDD! YAY! LOL- anyhow glad you like it. I guess… Anyhow, it doesn’t matter if you suck or not in leaving comments- all I know is that I have some people that reads and likes it then I’m happy to know that. Any other comments will be fine as well. xD I didn’t update soon- so sorry. LOL! Thanks for commenting hun.
EMDA: Unnie! XDDD LOL-it’s beautiful? I guess…heh- anyways please don’t kill me for killing off Yunho. T_T Thanks for commenting. Simba loves you too. =]
peaches: LOL- right, last time was fast but this time it’s S.L.O.W! XD And here’s the sequel for “My Resentment”! Please, please, please don’t boil me alive for killing Yunnie off. XD! I mostly kill Yun off because well like what I wrote earlier, it’s dumb and old seeing the uke guy always dying – and girls XD! Thanks for commenting. =]
fabchicken: PFFT- so what if you didn’t mean it? You expect me to mean it too?! Hmph, and because of you- it took over more than a full moon to update. *Whacks your head*
white&&black: XD You’re a new reader I assume? XD Anyways, yes JaeHo is cute along with the other couples. HOWEVER, JaeHo “fans” can get a little annoying and amen that I’m not a crazy fan over JaeHo that much anymore. XD LMAO – And also, their couple talks, I’ve seen JaeChun only. T___T I hate JaeChun fanfics but I love their clips. ^O^ I only love JaeChun as close brothers. =] No offense to whoever likes JaeChun. I gotta watch the JaeMin one. XDDD I just love JaeMin at the moment! And especially my two little dorky boys, MINSU!
bakA_chAn: LMAO! The stairs are like from a castle huh?! XDDD
O_oStace: HIIIII! It’s STACY! XDD LMAO- my lovely castle? Aish, I don’t think I have the time to show you my castle too. XD LMAO! Haha- thanks for the support hun. I know- I now want to be a writer…or a fashion hairstylist XD But-ah well…parents are being a little meanie head so I can’t really say sharks. XD Love you too and thanks for the comment.
vivian: I am so sorry! T_T I’ll have TBH soon with theme 30! XD! Thanks for commenting!
Callie: Aish- you left winglin. =o=*|| I’ll update MinSu soon. XD! LOL and TBH too. Thanks for the support and commenting! =] ♥
vy: O.O actually- the poster is working pretty well. But thanks for the new link. =] And thanks for the comment! ^O^
Alyssa: O__O you’re a new reader? Aish, I lost count on my new readers! T_T Sorry it took me a long time to update. And also yes this is a collection of JaeHo drabbles/one-shots! ^O^ Glad you like it. Anyhow, thanks for commenting!
Eun Ae: Awww…is it bad if you need help? And honey…what exactly is a furfle? Is it another language for saying waffle? XD!
reyrey: Hey Rey! LMAO- I guess…about the good ideas and quotes. =o=*|| Oh my goodness you only support me because of my long hair!? AH! What kind of a friend are you?! LMAO XDDD JK! Anyways, =] thanks hun. Love you too!
To fake bitches: =o=*|| I am back from the dead and are you jealous? Heh- I bet you are. You guys thought I left for good huh? WELL I AM BACK! So BOO YOU, you stupid waste food good for nothing low life bastards. =o=*|| Next time if you guys are going to blame on someone, make sure you have support to back up in your argument. Because you know at this very moment, your words are crap. Get the hell out of here and go get some fresh air.
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Aish…=o=*||. Let’s hope that the next update will have more pages. xD!
♥ DorKaBLe