| Fan Fiction |
by <3 Jae
He gave me a small nod. I didn’t think that I would meet anyone else with this kind of ability. But, although, I felt a little better, it still won’t convince the orphanage staff.
“You know…talking to me, it will really lower your reputation at the school.”
“I don’t really care. There’s too much attention, especially those fan girls that chase me around everywhere. Can you believe that they wait outside the toilets for me to come out?”
I laughed and glanced at the fan girls. They seemed to be in a huddle, plotting about my death. Having JaeJoong as a friend seemed to have its advantages; I mean, if the fangirls tried to kill me, he would probably just jump in front of me and shield me from their terrifying rages. Actually…like that was going to happen…
“JaeJoong ah, do you live alone then, since your parents are…”
“No, I live with my auntie, my mother’s sister, but she is the exact opposite of my mother. My mother was the kindest woman on earth so you could guess the personality of my auntie.”
A fangirl walked up to us; glaring at me.
“JaeJoong oppa, do you want to sit with us? You don’t have to sit with her…”
She had emphasised the “her” in a tone which suggested that she didn’t like me very much. Well, it was pretty obvious anyways.
“No, I’m fine. I don’t mind sitting with her.”
She glared at me once again and stormed back towards her group.
“This will cause you a lot of trouble, won’t it?”
“Yea probably…”
“You’ve always got me…”
I laughed.
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…and I always did. We were…literally, boyfriend and girlfriend. JaeJoong was beside my side for the rest of my high school life; until graduation. While singing on stage as a performance, two men were talking to the principal and kept pointing at him and asking questions. I was too far to hear them. After the performance, the two men approached JaeJoong. They spoke for a while and then went off; with JaeJoong.
“JaeJoong ah!”
The men stopped and turned around.
“Who’s this?”
“She’s my girlfriend.”
At the mention of the word “girlfriend” the two men looked at each other and explained something to JaeJoong.
“She can come along…if she wishes…”
I went along with them; soon afterwards, the limo arrived at the SM headquarters. I’ve heard of SM Entertainment. They had some of the most popular Korean singers; BoA, THE TRAX, Super Junior and Jang Ri In.
They told me to wait in the foyer. I didn’t know what was going on at the time. After about 30 minutes, JaeJoong came out.
“What did they want?”
“I’m joining a band called DBSK, Rising Gods of the East.”
I couldn’t be happier; JaeJoong always loved to sing. Before, his voice wasn’t exactly the best but over time, he practiced a lot and now, his voice seems to melt away the coldest ice. I guess our relationship was one of those rare ones that started at high school and managed to continue to university.
“Congratulations!”
Something seemed to be bothering JaeJoong; a lot.
“JaeJoong ah, what’s wrong?”
“Nothing…”
I was slightly hurt that he couldn’t confide in me but there must be a reason. Now, I lived with JaeJoong’s auntie. The orphanage had kicked me out when they found out that I was dating JaeJoong. Number one rule of the orphanage was: No dating is allowed. Frankly, I thought that that was a stupid rule. JaeJoong’s auntie seemed happier that I was there to help with the household chores. JaeJoong told me that she might have taken a liking to me and that was good.
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“JaeJoong ah, you make the best food!”
JaeJoong had suggested that we go on a picnic. I thought this was quite strange as he never exactly liked picnics before and JaeJoong was occasionally busy because SM wanted him to practice. Today was just one of those days when JaeJoong had free time and so he took me out. He knew that I love picnics a lot, but I never suggested it because I knew that JaeJoong didn’t like picnics.
“Bomi ah… I have something for you…”
Here, he put his hand into his pocket and took out a small box. Inside was a small bracelet with the words “Missing you” on it.
“JaeJoong ah…it’s beautiful…thank you!”
I leaned over to kiss him on the cheeks lightly. Still, there was an unsettling thing about JaeJoong. He seemed more…anti-social.
“JaeJoong ah…what’s wrong?”
“Nothing!”
Every time I asked him that, his answer was always “nothing”. Something is really bothering him but I didn’t want to spoil the picnic so I left the question until later.
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“JaeJoong ah…you’ve been really distance nowadays, please tell me what’s wrong?”
He turned off the TV and looked at me. His eyes seemed to be keeping a big secret; a secret that he longed to tell. He took my hands.
“When I signed the contract for DBSK, they told me that…”
He trailed off.
“They told you what?”
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“They told me that…I wasn’t allowed to be in relationships.”
I snatched my hand away.
“You’re joking!”
“Bomi ah, I would never say something like this if it wasn’t the truth.”
“But did you know before you signed the contract?”
“Yes…”
“So, you want to break up!”
“I don’t want to! I HAVE to!”
“WHY? BECAUSE THEN YOU CAN BECOME A SINGER WHILE I JUST STAY HERE, CRYING MY HEART OUT!?”
“Bomi, I don’t want to hurt you. You know it’s my dream to become a singer…”
“AND YOU KNOW IT’S MY DREAM TO BE WITH YOU!”
“Bomi ah…”
He reached for my wrist but I recoiled. Now I know why he gave me that bracelet.
“JUST LEAVE ME ALONE!”
I ran upstairs.
How could he?
Ending a six year relationship just because of some stupid band…
Why was SM so mean?
Was it wrong for celebrities to have girlfriends/boyfriends?
I felt tears of pain slid down my face and hitting the stone cold floor.
“BOMI AH!”
He was pounding on my bedroom door.
I tried to shut out the sounds but I couldn’t.
“JUST LEAVE ME ALONE! GO TO YOUR STUPID DBSK AND LEAVE ME TO ROT!”
I couldn’t understand why JaeJoong signed the contract with them
“You are everything in my life.”
If I was everything, then why did he dump me for something else?
For once, I felt loved while in his arms, while beside him.
I had forgotten my past when I was with him.
He seemed to shut out all the sad emotions and let the good emotions flow in.
But when it was all over, the sad emotions poured in like a tap was open; like my heart was open.
No; my heart was broken.
Kim JaeJoong.
I hate you.