Fan Fiction |
by x.shuang.dao.x
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Xuan was gripping her cell so tightly her kunckles were turning white. No, Lun didn't reply. How many times did she have to apologize until Lun forgives her?
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= Look, I had my reasons for leaving. I don't know if you'd still believe me, or even understand, but the reason I'm off is really because of work. I don't promise you'll be safer without me but all I know now is that I'll put you in danger if I stay with you. I'm not even supposed to see you or even be around you. I came back because my previous task was accomplished. Now I've got a new one. I requested not to take it because of you but I wasn't obliged to turn it down. I would have, if I could. But the thing is, I can't.
Even if you don't believe me, I still have to say this. I left because I didn't want to endanger you... and our sons' lives. Because... I still love you. And both of our sons. Do you understand? =
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"A new message is waiting for you in your inbox." A message popped out on the screen. Lun clicked on it, expecting a mail from his boss. But it was one from Xuan instead. Annoyed, Lun shut down his computer and plucked out a file from the stand.
But he couldn't concentrate, for Xuan's words kept echoing in his mind. "Sorry... I had my reasons..." Lun laid down so hard on his chair it gave a loud creak and almost toppled over. He closed his eyes, trying to take a break from the things that were happening to him, but he ended up having images of Xuan in his mind instead. Lun grimaced and opened his eyes.
And he saw Xuan. He blinked a couple of times and shook his head a little, thinking that he was dreaming. But Xuan was really there.
"Lun-" Xuan started, but Lun cut her off before she could even continue.
"Go away, Xuan. I don't want to see you."
"But Lun-"
"Selina Ren Jia Xuan. Do you hear me? I don't want to see you. Go away."
"Lun, listen to me, I have my reasons-"
"Look, I DON'T want to listen to any reasons or whatever. I don't want to hear anything. Now would you just go?" Lun's hand was supporting his forehead as he closed his eyes. His other hand pointed in the direction of the door. "Selina. Please."
Xuan felt lost. She felt like someone just kicked her right in the face and she felt pain. It was so much pain that she couldn't even cry out. With her head down, and oblivious to the surroundings, she ran out of the place.
Lun raised his head slowly as he opened his eyes. Xuan was gone. What did he just do to her? He felt sick. Which guy would do that to the girl he loves?
Regretful and on the verge of crying, Lun stood up and ran after her.
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She pushed her hair behind her ears as she held little Jiafeng's hand and brought him to the dinner table. She looked tired. Jiafeng was obedient and he listened to everything she said. But still, she was tired. Tired of her life. Tired of working. Tired of living.
The only thing in this world that made her stay on was Jiafeng. She had already lost all hopes of her elder son forgiving her. And she didn't want to lose Jiafeng as well. For Jiafeng's sake, she would live on. No matter how hard her life would be. She would do anything. For Jiafeng.
If she had to die now, she wouldn't be happy. Because she had two unfulfilled wishes. One is for her elder son to forgive her. The other, is for Jiafeng to be safe, and happy.
She still hasn't found her elder son. It had been almost 20 years since she left him on his own. He probably won't remember her anyway. So what's the point?
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->shuang.dao
... are lun and xuan not fated to be together..?