| Fan Fiction |
by Joesline
Gulping down the saliva, my eyes vividly wandered in space. Uncertain of his answer as my doubts exist. He might ended up telling me he would choose his wife like the shows you would see, a married man choose his family over the woman he had outside. I might be just one of them, the woman of his outside affair. He would apologies to me and decided to go back to his wife in the end.
"You know that... I texted her something when you asked for a break-up that day."
I looked up, feeling curious and surprised what he was saying. Within a few seconds, he took out his phone and showed me the message that he had texted her.
[I am sorry but I might be giving up on everything if she decided to leave me now.]
"W-What you mean by... giving up?" My eyes wandered back to his face, trying my best to read what his expression was telling.
"I am going to leave her and the sons." He looked down, feeling pain and in guilt like he was doing something terrible.
Yes, he was doing something not right to give up his family.
"Even if I am going to leave you?" I frowned, unable to understand such answer that he gave me.
He would leave her even if I decided to give up on him? He would still choose to be on his own even if I had decided to leave him and his family alone?
He nodded, still in silence of something that he was about to say.
"So... I wouldn't choose her even there is a choice."
I blinked my eyes, unable to believe what he was saying. I breathed in deeply as I found my eyes staring at him widely in disbelief. My eyebrow frowned at his answer. This was a sentence more than just choosing me over her but telling me that she is no longer inside his heart even I was now not here to exist in his life.
"B-But why? She is your wife." I couldn't stop myself from asking.
It doesn't make any sense. That person is his wife and had bore him two sons is someone now seems insignificant to him. How could that even happen? What had gone wrong?
He chuckled, "Wife?"
Looking at him, I saw a hidden feeling beneath that smile. The expression shown a past that he had gone through which he had lived terribly, or maybe in pain for quite a some time.
"Maybe she is just my 'wife' and nothing else than that." He looked at the faraway spot, coldly. For the first time I have known him for so long did I seen him looking as cold as an ice. He was wearing an expression of a stranger outside the matter of his marriage. It was as if he doesn't belong to the marriage at all.
"Wait... Your father seen me as your... girlfriend?" I recalled the first time I would smile and greet his parents that had came all the way from Malaysia to visit him and his second younger sister here. His wife was not with them.
"And they like you." His smile turned back with warmth that was cuddling his eyes as he looked at me, feeling happy again of what he was saying.
"Yes... and you are married." Confusion sunk me deeper as I figured nothing that was making any sense.
He laughed further like he had just heard a joke from me.
This wasn't making any sense. Everything seems to be on the wrong track. So many questions were flooding inside my mind.
What is going on?
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