| Fan Fiction |
by Joesline
Holidays was never a hard effort for me even I had boyfriends back in the past and I'll be away for holidays with my family. It's my first time finding a holiday trip would be so tiring to go through. Mum and Dad would be upset if they know how I was feeling as they had spent a bomb for the trip expenses. Hence, I shouldn't be too rash over my decisions even though I had thought of walking to the counter and request for the plane ticket that will bring me back to Singapore, back to where he is. Even it will have to cost me all my savings for that, I would be able to do that but... I can't be selfish of my own cause. My parents are loves to me as well and hence the more I shouldn't do it.
At the last third day of the trip, my mood was speeding through high speed as it crashes it with the craziness inside my head. It's the seventh day, the last three day I'll be in the China and soon I will be going back to Singapore, in his hugs and cuddles. I would shout a million times in his ears that I love him so, so much. As we flew to Beijing, taking the second flight and reached a new place, my curiosity grew towards the totally different town of China. We moved our luggage up to the bus as I found myself the seat behind with my family. I loved that coziness that I got. It's nice.
We went to many places and what I loved most was the luxurious hotel I was settled in for the remaining three days. I remembered back all the breakfast buffets that I had in Malaysia Marriott. It's nice to recall the good old times and I love how the bed is keeping me to sleep soundly.
As usual, I scribbled down letters of feelings but still, I didn't want to put in more of my missing. It's still rumbling strong inside my heart but now that I have his support, I will be doing fine with facing it all by myself here.
Wait for me... I'll be back soon.
I imagined all the stuffs we will do and everything that we will say to one another. I keep looking at the pictures I had taken as I examined it all one by one, hoping to choose a few good ones to give it as a gift to him. He said of not wanting anything from me as souvenirs but my photos that he can see it in his laptop when he misses me as well.
How can I thank god that he brought me such a wonderful guy of whom I would do anything just to stay by his side? Even it will have to go all the way out, I would know that he's worth the keeping. He is worth for everything.
I looked out at the bus as I was being left alone here with my aunt and uncle whom shared the same perception of the tomb that the tour package had included of inauspicious place. Beijing's emperor's tomb, it is as majestic as its forbidden city. Underneath this piece of land as it buried a total of thirteen emperors. Such history is meant to keep it well for us to remember just like him would be keep it well with me to remember.
Like a natural action, I figured myself with the phone as I sent a text message telling him of this extraordinary place I am now in. Like expected but glad to see that from him, he was as excited as I was. He is as curious as always having that big heart to share every single detail with me.
I texted a few times before I went catching my short nap. I do think of him even eyes were shut tightly for a good rest. Yawning off as my mind was slowly adjusting to a resting mode.
Good night, and I hope you can visit me at least in my dreams. All right?
Eyes couldn't see any darkness anymore... my dreams were flying towards me. The unconsciousness knocked me slowly.
Within a few voices heard, I was awakened by a silly smile on my brother's face. He was laughing with everyone like they have done something so funny. I rubbed my eyes, hoping that this will do the trick to bring me back to reality.
I miss him again. Sighing at my silliness, I took out my phone to browse through the ever-familiar photos that I had been seeing it for the past seven days. The first few shots we had took back at Singapore on the valentine day. It's memorable and sweet. We spend twenty-four hours on February fourteen together; we were each other's valentines. And that the photos were like a drug that eases my addiction of missing him, I couldn't live without my phone now even for a minute. The new drug is here and I want to live with it, it will keep me strong as the addiction grows deeply inside.
Can it be many lifetimes that I could spend with him? If ever we could walk onto marriage, my life will be left without any regrets. The only thing I had ever hoped for was finding someone whom can walk into my heart and be the husband I would call to last with till wrinkles would shown and we would still calling love to each other.
I asked quietly under my breath hoping no one would hear me out, 'Will you want me like I wanted you? That word to last?'
I smiled as I got my own answer from the messages that he texted me all the while.
He would because he loves me too.
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