| Fan Fiction |
by Joesline
I hugged him tightly the moment I saw his face when he had exited his way out of the building. We felt happy, felt safe that we are back into each other arms again.
"You know I miss you?" I looked up at him, feeling the tears that were cuddling my eyes in signs of happiness.
"I know, and I miss you too."
It's just that simple words he said teared me off so much. He patted on my head gently, giving me comfort, feeling guilty that he made me cry. He is just so silly like he is. He is just being so sweet and caring to me like he had been. Nothing's change, we still love one another a lot even we are apart for ten days.
After re-uniting, after feeling loved so much with him around. My days were so exciting, everyday I am always hoping that the daytime would end soon and it will be nighttime to see him again. He had to work so he was only being able to see me during the night. I would love the time flew off fast so that I could see him during the night very, very soon. As my life filled with him and love, I didn't feel the fixed time of my weeks. I would always got up happily from bed to work and would wait for that nine hours to pass in the office and soon, I could see him till late night. Till our eyes were worn off so heavy for sleep before we would part and see one another again the following night.
This is blissful. Everything that is happening for us is blissful. I would have seen his parents, his sister and they are happy with me around him. Life is so perfect and marriage would come by knocking at our door. I could imagine my happiness if I were to call him my husband. And its just seven more months am I an adult to decide marriage for myself. At that point of time, I would say 'I do' to him and exchange the rings calling one another husband and wife.
Looking at the date of the calendar, I felt happy with him around and I counted how many days I could still felt happy and excited to see him around. Because another two weeks later would be his turn to be gone back to his hometown in Malaysia to visit his family. This meant that I would not be seeing him for that period of time; my life would turn gloomy without colors filling me up. It'll be black and white for me.
That very first day he texted me so much just before he got onto the bus that would drive him back to his hometown. It'll be long eight hours for him seating in the bus. I replied him as fast as I could even I was in the office doing my work stuff. I didn't want to miss a chance, holding on the incoming message of him. I want to be there with him until the last minute we would be separate apart for days.
[I'll be back in four days later. I won't be away for too long. Miss you so much, dearest.]
It'll be four days later he will be back in my arms. It will only be four days and I will be able to face it. However, I was wrong. Terribly wrong. I had dreaded for him even he was gone for the first day and how much can I face for the other three days.
Looking at the pictures we had took during the valentine day, remembering the moments we had at the beach... I miss him.
I calculated what I would be doing during the days he would be at his hometown. First and Second day, I would be working in the office. Third day, I would be at home doing nothing because it's a Saturday. Forth day, I would be going to my colleague’s new apartment with the rest.
A-And... I will see him SOON!
I tell myself, convincing myself to be strong even though I knew there was a part of me knowing how much I would miss him.
And I did, I was planning to buy a midnight ticket to his hometown right after the second day when I got the other two days not working. He even got so excited, asking me when would my bus be leaving here. He would come to the bus terminal and fetch me to his house. He's missing me just as much as I do.
But I didn't go.
I calculated the risk taken and that I had to direct my other colleagues to my colleague’s new apartment on the forth day, I had to say no to my desire. I texted him as I felt upset of not going because it will mean that I had to endure that two more days without him around.
My life was a blank just as I expected. I woke up real late like in the late afternoon. Lazily, I washed myself up before I would surf the net for the whole day. Washing my laundry, clearing up the mess in my room and watching some super boring show to let time pass. It's eleven and I'll be meeting my favorite cousin with the rest of my colleagues to my colleague’s new apartment for her housewarming the following day after I would wake up in the afternoon on the forth day. I should be excited of the gathering but I didn't felt much excitement flooding me. I looked at the messages he would send me during his visit at there as I lay on my bed quietly to get some sleep.
It's tiring to look happy in front of others when I didn't feel like doing anything. I smiled, laughed with others. I tried to let myself enjoying with the crowds when I don't. I know I was missing him but I shouldn't be pouring cold water on others like that. Besides, I wouldn't need to be in the office the following day when he will be back.
He's coming back tomorrow. I will have the whole day hugging him tight.
I consoled myself again and... it still doesn't work much.
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