One Life, One Time, One Chance, One Love[COMPLETE]
by katvangsta
Chapter 9
My Lucky Stars
“Gui Gui,” Grandma began, “please don’t continue to hold grudges like that.” I looked at her, changing my gaze from the night sky, to look at her. “Huh?” I asked in confusion. “Gui Gui,” she began again, “I may be very old, but I still have a brain. And it will stay with me, until I am no longer here. I know you still have grudges against your parents. Not to mention, I can tell, from that look on your face, that you also have some ‘LOVE’ problems.” I walked over to Grandma, and took her hand. “Grandma,” I began, “how can you still know me so well? How can you STILL know what truly bothers me to the core, with just one glance. How can you look into my eyes, after I've cried them out, and STILL say they shine? How do you do that? How can you forget the past...when it seems like it all happened yesterday.” My eyes welled up with tears. “Gui Gui,” she replied, “I really can't answer your question...you will find true love one day...and you will love them, as much as you love everyone you care about. Even more than those two people who you still love so much. Your true love will understand you, more than anyone else...even me. That true love, of yours, will be able to answer what you just asked me.” “Ke shi (but),” I began. She went on, “I KNOW you have some difficulties in love right now... but I want to give you advice, and I urge you to follow them. Gui Gui, do as your heart desires, love who you love, and don’t be afraid to regret that love. Follow your heart, pursue your dreams.” I nodded, “Wo zhi dao. Xie xie ni.” The tears were SO close to pouring out now, but I didn’t want to cry. Not after the advice Grandma had just given me..., so I held in the tears, and forced it back. Then Grandma got up, and walked out to the balcony. “Come on,” she began, “follow me for a second, I want to show you something.” I got up and followed her. She led me to my balcony, to the telescope my Grandpa had given me last year, before he passed away. I stood next to her as she looked into the telescope. Then she adjusted it, so it faced the midnight sky. Then she motioned for me to go look. I peered into the telescope. “What do you see?” she asked me. “Two...stars,” I answered. Grandma smiled, “Not just ANY two star. Its resembles them...there are times when they shine brightly, as if they’re smiling down on us. And other times, when they appear faintly in the sky...blinking only every now and then, as if they’re crying with us too-as if they’re hurting with us.” I smiled as I looked at the two stars, “Grandma...do you miss them too?” She laughed, “Of course. We’ll both bear the pain together.” I nodded, “We always have been.”
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I woke up early to see Grandma off, but she had already left. I walked out, onto the balcony, and looked into the telescope. The two stars had disappeared...it was nowhere to be seen. Light stretched across the morning sky. I sat in a chair, at the edge of the balcony...looking at the world...up and down. “Why did you guys leave me?” I asked the sky, as if the stars were still there, “why couldn’t you just stay with me...?” I decided to name the two stars My Lucky Stars.
After I got ready, I set off to school, REALLY early in the morning. With the world half asleep...it seemed so lonely. “Will it all end like this one day?” I thought, “...ME all by myself...walking the earth alone. Why do I live in such a lonely world? Or...is it just how I feel on the inside...?” I forgot to look where I was walking, and ran into someone. I ignored it, and continued to walk. “Gui Gui!” someone called out. I turned around and saw Aaron. “Aiyo,” I thought, “why him...?” I looked at my hands...they weren't warm... “Aren't you cold?” Aaron asked. “So that’s why,” I thought, “its only 35 degrees outside...my hands are probably numb.” I shook my head to answer Aaron’s answer, and continued walking. Aaron still stood in the same spot. “Aren't you coming?” I asked him, “are you trying to ditch the first day of lab?” “Do I seem like that kind of person?” Aaron asked as he ran up beside me. I ignored him, but continued to walk. Those two words ‘True Love’ repeated itself in my head. “Gui Gui,” Aaron said to break the sudden silence. I looked at him, “Hm?” “Why are your grades so good?” he asked. I cracked up with laughter, “There’s something called STUDYING.” “Aiyo,” he began, “I know THAT! I meant...why are you so smart?” “How am I smart?” I asked. “Good grades,” Aaron began, “fluent English...fluent Taiwanese... How do you do that? How do you maintain such good grades and all? What inspires you?” I looked at the ground as I continued to walk. “The past,” I began, “The future...the pain...the consequences...the rewards...my loved ones....those who believe in me.” Aaron nodded, “Oh.” “And you?” I questioned him, “what about you? What inspires you? What inspired you to get this far?” Aaron smiled, a fake smile, then he said, “When I was small...i had a childhood friend. She stayed with me, laughed with me, we shared each others thoughts. She’d know what was on my mind, I’d know what was on her’s.” He got quiet... “And...?” I asked, “what happened between you two?” “We...” he began, “We got separated. Just when I was about to confess my feelings for her, she was forced to move to America with her family. And I stayed here in Taiwan.” He stopped to ponder, then began again, “I think...i think she forgot me by now...” “Wei!” I yelled at him as I grabbed his shirtsleeve, and he turned around. “Yea?” he asked. Then...i don’t know what came over me. It all happened so fast...