| Fan Fiction |
by Kaytina
"I.. er... umm.." I started but really I was just buying some time to think. Think just a little more. I know that what my answer is will either hurt him, or me. Calvin and I only met during school but we got closer since.
I liked him but not in that way. It's the same way I liked Jiro and Chun. Kind of like a brother, Aaron I liked as a... Well I don't really know. Let's just say he's different. I looked at Calvin again.
His face was patient but I knew he couldn't wait. I took another breath and said, "er.. Sure Calvin." "Great, I'll call you tonight!" He said as he left to tell the others the good news.
I didn't know why I said what I did. I guess I couldn't stand seeing disappointment in his face. I knew for sure that I didn't like him more then a brother but it's to late to turn back.
I didn't want him to feel bad, the feeling of rejection. Even if it meant I would be sad, I want to see him smile. I want that for all my friends. Sometimes being nice was hard.
I gave a sigh and turned around and walked back to the cafeteria. I couldn't help but think on my way there. Will I regret my decision? Will it just hurt us both?
Once again questions ran through my head. Why is my life so confusing? Ever since my parents died, I knew i had to be strong. Live through life and just enjoy it.
I kept reminding myself not to look back on the past, knowing that it will only make me feel worse. If there's one thing I learned in life its.
Everything happens for a reason, maybe feelings for him will start once I get to know him better. Maybe, just maybe, he was the one for me.
I wasn't sure if it's true. Because at this moment, the one that seems so right for me was Aaron. Even if he seems so perfect for me, doesn't mean he's the one.
If only he wasn't a player. That of course, was only and "If." I knew I can change him. Maybe someday I will, but not now.
Not while I'm with Calvin. I thought it over. If I could change Aaron, I wouldn't. It's not my decision, it's his. He could be who he wants to be.
If he wants to be a player, why would it matter to me. It's not like I would have a chance with him player or not.
All this thinking was making my head hurt. This is worse then studying.
Aaron's POV
The thing I wanted to tell her was that I respected her decision, no matter what it was. As Long as it made her happy, I'm happy.
I walked up to the cafeteria and heard the good news. Depending which side your on. I felt happy for him, I truly did.
Just somewhere inside of me I was disappointed. I wish I could him, but I'm not. I sneaked a look at Hebe, she smiled but it didn't seem like a real smile.
It was a forced smile. I knew that she said yes to make him happy, and maybe he will make her happy.
The day ended quickly. Faster then I thought. I never thought of it, but soon we would graduate.
Leave high school, and I would never see Hebe or any of them again.
I had to enjoy the time we had together, even if we meet each other after graduation, nothing would be the same. It will never be the same.
Sometimes I wish time would slow down. Let me really enjoy the good things in life. Let me enjoy the last year I have with my friends.
The last year where it will still be like this. Before it all changes and we go our separate ways. I remember first coming to this high school.
I thought graduation was so far away. It feels like just a year but soon I'll be out of here. No more walking through the school hallway with my friends.
No more looking at Hebe in class. Why is it passing by so fast?
Hebe's POV
I kept thinking about my answer all day. Wondering if it was the right choice. Wondering if I did the right thing.
I decided to get some advice. From someone I love, and always will. So after school I went to the cemetery where my parents were buried.
"Mom, dad, I really miss you. I feel like every thing's different without you, a whole new world that I'm just starting to discover.
I wish I knew this day was coming, so I would be prepared, but who is really prepared for death? In ways your still with me.
I miss your hugs mom, and you jokes dad. We were never rich, but we were a good family. I wish I enjoyed the time we had together.
Before I knew it, it's over. I never really said good-bye. I never wanted to, and maybe I will someday but not now, I'm not ready to say good-bye.
Not ready for change. Not ready for everything to be different from the way they are. I'm sick of change. Why couldn't you guys stay?
Once again, everything happens for a reason, I'll just have to wait for that reason." I took a look at my watch, I'm going to be late for work!
"I'll come visit soon, I love you." I quickly ran away after that.
When I got home from work my phone rang. I picked it up and remembered Calvin was suppose to call.
"Hey Hebe, I was wondering what day are you free?" I was sure it was Calvin's voice so I replied "This Saturday."
"Great, I'll pick you up at 2 am!" He said and hung up. It was a date. My first date.
It feels like someone pressed the fast forwards bottom for my life. Not so long ago I had my first kiss. Soon, I'd have my first date.
Maybe, just maybe I would soon have my first boyfriend. "Maybe" it seems as if I've been using it a lot lately, and I knew the reason.
The reason was that no one knew what is going to come in the future.
The future, I was curious about it but I didn't want to think ahead any farther then tomorrow. The past, was something I tried not to think about.
I don't want to forget my past. I had a wonderful past, and a loving family. Every time I think of my parents, only good things came to mind.
That was just how nice they are. Maybe I got that from them. Every time I thought about the past, I regretted going back to the present.
If I knew things would turn out the way they did, I would enjoy every minute I had with them, every second.
After my quick dinner I went in my room to finish my homework and catching up on a bit of studying. Then I went to bed.
I woke up the next morning and the first thing I thought of was, "what day is it today?" So I went to check my calender.
It was Friday today, which meant tomorrow I'll be going on my first date. I got ready for school, ate breakfast and left.
When I got to school, Calvin was by my locker. "Hey!" He greeted with a smile. "Hello there." I replied.
"Umm.. since we have the same class want to walk there together?" He asked. "Oh okay." I replied and we left.
We slowly walked down the halls, next to each other. After a few minutes he grabbed my hand and held it. It was different from holding Aaron's hand.
Not like it was a bad different, just different. I didn't feel that special feeling. I gave out a sigh as we reached class.
Everyone was staring and most were whispering. I could barely hear what they said. I listen closer and I could hear them say,
"Hebe Tian's holding Calvin's hand, didn't she hold Aaron's a few days ago?" A girl said.
"She's hitting on all the hot guys at our school, her best friends have the other two." another replied.
"What a player, doesn't she have any feelings? I guess she's kinda pretty but I don't like her attitude."
Those whispers were heard everywhere. I tried to ignore them but I couldn't. By lunch, I finally lost it.
"Excuse me but what were you saying about me?" I asked a girl who just walked my whispering.
"Nothing." She said in a flat tone. "I think I heard something." I replied. "Nothing." She said again.
"Well if you did say something I think you should just mind your own business and shut up." I replied.
She rolled her eyes at me and walked away. I did the same. Selina and Ella both looked at me shocked.
"What happened Hebe?" Selina asked while Ella said, "Good job Hebe! Way to go!" I looked at them confused.
"Nothings wrong, I just got annoyed." I replied, and sat down to eat my lunch. It got silent the whole day. Somehow I didn't like the silence.
I could feel them glaring at me in all directions. Why is life so hard? School ended and I went to work.
Calvin offered me a ride but I decided to walk and get some fresh air. Right when my last job ended my phone rang.
"HELLO HEBE!" A familiar voice said. "Hi!" I tried to sound enthusiastic.
"Remember our date tomorrow, I have something I need to ask you! See you tomorrow!" He said. "Oh! GREAT! BYE!" I said and we hung up.
I tried to sound happy, but it might have come up fake sounding.
I went to make some dinner, I could sleep in tomorrow so I took my time making dinner, having a real dinner rather then something quick like instant noodles.
After a nice long yummy dinner, I went and got ready for bed. After, I went and finished all my homework. It was late, or early.
Since it was already 2 am. Morning. I laid in bed and tried to sleep but couldn't. I was scared about what was going to happen today.
He said he wanted to ask me something, but what? I turned on my lamp and read a book for half an hour before finally falling to sleep.
Tomorrow is going to be a big day, whether I like it or not.
Aaron's POV
Hebe and Calvin were holding hands every chance they got. I tried not getting bothered by it but I did.
I wish I could hold her hands again. Wishing I was Calvin. I gave a big sigh, today was such a strange day.
I even heard Hebe talk back to some girl. Life seems so different with her here. A good different. The day ended quickly.
I left my eyes on Hebe and Calvin all day. He seemed happy, but she didn't. Maybe she doesn't like him that way. That doesn't make sense.
If she didn't like him, why'd she say yes? I'm so confused, but I'm sure Hebe doesn't look as happy as she suppose to be.
The day ended quickly. I went home and sat in my room thinking. Time passed so fast that in what seems to be an hour, it was dinner time.
Selina called us down for dinner and we ate. Her cooking isn't as good as Hebe's but still good. We ate in silence and I went back to my room.
I got started on my homework, half way but didn't finish. Then I went to bed, I didn't notice I was asleep until I woke up and it was morning.
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Updated: February 7th at 4:07 pm