| Fan Fiction |
by lilies_009
She smiles for a bit look at the clock beside her and smirk. It’s past 9 am already. She’s already late for her 9am class. But it doesn’t bother Sandy at all. Instead she looks at the ceiling for a while and close her eyes again.
With out anything to do, Sandy ends up thinking of him again….
===== flashback===
6 months ago...
"Let’s just end this now Sandy!" shouted Ervin…
"Wha… what?? What do you mean Erv?" Ask Sandy stuttering
"Let’s break up… our relationship is…. I don’t know… It’s just that I don’t feel like I love you anymore.." Ervin speaking but not looking at Sandy.
"What do you mean?? What do you mean by you don’t love me anymore?? What’s wrong with me? Did I do something wrong? Please Ervin, let’s talk… please Im begging you…" Sandy crying
"Nothing’s wrong with you Sandy… I just need time to be alone… by myself… just… let’s just end this now…." Ervin talking sadly but firmly.
"If you want time to be alone for awhile I’ll give it to you… but let’s not break up….please… I don’t think I can live with out you…please Erv.."
Sandy was so desperate that she gets down on her knees while still holding Ervin’s hands. She feels so weak yet her heart is beating faster and louder thus making her feel the hurt more. She is hoping that whatever she says will make Ervin change his mind.
"I… I’ll do anything; I won’t see my friends, I… I’ll give up dancing if that’s what you want… please… Ervin please don’t leave me…Still crying
Ervin grabs Sandy’s hand and help her stand up. He looks at Sandy and Said:
"Listen carefully… this is not your fault at all Sonny… there’s nothing wrong with you.. in fact you’re just a perfect girl. But you see… I need time to just be alone… to live my life even with out you… I’m going to Canada next week…I’ll continue my studies there..." Ervin speaking slowly
"Where??? You’re going where??" Sandy shouted while grabbing Ervin’s arm.
"I’m going to Canada… I’ll study there and…….
Ervin did not finish what he was going to say when he felt someone slap her. It was Kendra.
"You really dare to say such lies Ervin??" Kendra angrily faces him.
"What do you mean you’re going alone?? Or you actually mean you’re going with Eayra?? Huh??"
Sandy was so shock that she fell on her knees again. Staring blankly on the floor. It hurt her so much that her body became so numb…
====End of flash back=====
"Sandy??? are you awake? Let’s eat breakfast…"her Nanny calling her..
"I’m not eating breakfast today Nana… tell mom I’ll eat outside…"
Sandy prepares to leave for school. Although fully awake, her heart isn’t. How she wishes that it will stop beating. She holds her left chest where her heart is and slowly pushes it.
She wonders when will it stop hurting.
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Jae was telling his group to work hard and finish all the photo shoots today, for them to get the 3 days off that they wanted. This year was a busy year for DBSK. Jae was hoping to drive around the city tomorrow. To buy something for himself and play around with his group mates. Although it’s been a lucky year for them career wise, Jae was feeling empty. He feels like there something missing…
At that moment, Jae seems to realize that there’s something wrong with his life. HE sat next to Xiah and silently sits there for about 10 minutes. He’s been doing everything to keep his and his group career up. All they do since their pre-debut days was practice, dance, sing, concert, meet fans, practice, appear on tv, and photo shoot. He’s been thinking hard, yes, it does satisfy him doing all these but a part of him was missing.
"Hyung…. You’re think deep…right?" Xiah ask
"Oh… not really.. Just thinking of something to do tomorrow…" Jae replies
"Hey hyung…" Xiah calling Jae’s attention "I know if you’re thinking of something important… you always play with you’re pinky ring. And now you’ve been playing with it for the past 10 minutes."
"Well…I’ve been thinking… although it seems that I’m quite satisfied with our career, and my family is ok and happy… I feel like there’s something missing… like.. I don’t know…" letting out a sigh
Micky throwing Jae a pillow on his head… "Get a girlfriend will you! That solves your missing thing…" grinning cutely at his Hyung
"Well hey! I’m not like you.." grinning back at Micky… "you on the other hand finds girlfriends anywhere.."
That makes the group laugh out loud!!
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Jae just got back to their apartment; he then went into his room, lay down on his bed, scroll and listens to the music on his ipod, and stares blankly on the ceiling. He feels so gloomy that without realizing it, he plays the mellow song in his playlist, making him more restless and emotional. He’s thinking of what Micky told him earlier that day.
Maybe Micky was right.. He should get a girlfriend. Maybe it is the missing part of his life. Maybe, by having one he will feel complete and satisfied.
Just then yunho enters the room and found Jae looking at the ceiling expressionless.
"Hey, your thinking again huh?" ?asked Yunho
"Yah.. Seems like it…" Jae murmured
"Ohh… you’re thinking of the “missing part of my life thing” again huh???" teasing Jae who seems to be coldly responding to him.
Seeing Jae not really paying attention to him made him think that maybe Jae is really having a problem.
"Ohh… stop it already… If you’re thinking of looking for a serious girlfriend, please don’t… as what most people says… Love comes in the most unexpected place and time… You see… don’t bother yourself of thinking too much.. come on!… we’re still young Jae… wake up! You used to be confident and a little arrogant to some people. Thinking about these things are sooo not you Jae……." Yunho patting his friends shoulder and leaving his room.
Yunho is right. He’s still too young to think about these things… his friend is right… He needs to get a hold of himself and act the way he should act..
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A/n LOl Jae being emo and all... another chap coming