| Fan Fiction |
by lilies_009
My Babe,
I’m sorry……
I’m sorry… but I need to do this… I know I may not see you again… it will be a hard blow for me… for us… but we need to let each other go… even if I’m hurting… I know this will hurt you as well…. I’m sorry……
But know this….We can be as far as to the ends of the world… but my thoughts will always be coming back to you…. like a homing pigeon…
Again and again… I told you I love you… but never will able to describe my loneliness and pain I feel when my thoughts are with you… the thoughts of leaving you… of having you not around…---never will I ever to make you know how much I will miss you…
With all the things that’s been going on… I can truthfully say that all the memories… of being with you… of kissing you…. of hugging you… mean more than all of it….
Believe me… I tried hard… I tried hard of thinking ways to just solve all this…and just be with you…
However… I cannot afford to commit into a relationship and see everyone else suffer because of me…our relationship indeed is like a Naked Flower… as it blooms into full beauty it makes other things around it less noticeable…less beautiful… now… I’m satisfied…. Being able to spend these past months with you…
I want you to be happy…. Less worries… less troubles…I don’t expect you to forgive me… nonetheless i’ll always be loving you… supporting you…watching you…. from a far…
I’m sorry….
I love you…
With all of me…
Loving you… till the end… your Babe Always,
Sonny
He is somehow lost for words….
“So much for loving me till the end huh… Sandy???..” he ask himself….
“You never meant anything that you wrote here!!...” As he crumples it and throws it away… the paper rolled helplessly under his bed….
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“Jae… manager called…” as Yunho knocks on Jae’s door… “we need to go for our general check up…. Be ready after an hour… our appointment is at 8….”
He moaned at Yunho… acknowledging that he heard and he’s up already…
He slightly stretches his back and stared at his window…. It’s a brand new day…. time for me to just forget… and start a fresh….
He acknowledges the fact that he and Sandy are over…. No more waiting… no more longing…. No more lingering…
“She has her own life now… she seems to be happy with her husband…. And kid… I…. I should be happy for her…. she has moved on… I need to do the same….”
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“Mommy.. can I just go and play outside?? I will not go far… I promise….” Jaedy lovingly pleaded her mother…
“Ok… but just outside the room ok….? Daddy Lander will get mad if you play around with out me or him..”
“Ok mom… I’ll just be outside….” Jaedy looks at the doctor…. And smiles at him…. “uncle doctor…. Please make my mommy’s eyes ok….”
The doctor nodded at her… Jaedy then happily skips towards the door and exits the room…
“You’ve got a nice daughter Sandy.. and she’s very pretty and intelligent….”
“Yeah.. she is…. Doctor… ???..”
“Yes?? What is it???..”
“What does my daughter look like…. ? does she looks like me???..”
“Honestly???..”
“Yeah…?/..”
“No…. she doesn’t look like you… maybe she ‘s more like her father….” the doctor laugh…
Sandy smile… Lander never told her how Jaedy looks…. He always said she looks like her…. but she’s happy… Maybe Jaedy looks exactly like Jae… she smiled as she imagines Jaedy’s face… “ahhhh that’s why she’s is very pretty…”
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As Jae waited for his turn… he sat outside the room and rests his back in the bench…. he was wearing his cap and sunglasses…. He actually felt tired and stressed out that the he leaned his head on the wall and closed his eyes….
He was in the middle of thinking things when he felt someone tagged his Jacket…
“Ajhussi… why are you sleeping there??? Are you sick???..” Jeady innocently ask him…
“No…. I’m just tired….” He smiled at the cute girl in front of her…
“You’re not sick??? Then why are you in here???..”
“ I’m here for my eyes check up….” Jae explained to her brightly.
“Ohhh… just like my mommy….” The little girl looked at him…. he somehow feels like the girl looks so familiar to him…
“How old are you??? why are you here alone???..”
“I’m three years old… and I’m not alone… my mommy is in her doctor’s clinic… he was checking my mommy’s eyes… and I’m waiting for my other Daddy too.. he went out to get something for mom…”
“Ahhh ok….”
“Ajhussi…. You look like my Daddy….” Jaedy’s voice became louder…
“What???..” Jae laugh at the girls comment…
“Well… I saw my uncle yesterday…. He was my Dad’s friend… he looks really cool…and handsome” she cutely hugs herself… which makes Jae wanted to grab and hold her… “but I think my Dad is more cooler and more handsome…. I saw a lot of pictures of him… my Mommy kept a lot of his pictures… I think my Dad is really famous….”
“Really???…. that’s good you met hid friend….” He felt amused by the girl’s ability to talk…. He just laughs at her…
A nurse came and calls Jaedy….
“You’re mommy is looking for you deedee…. She’s been worried…”
“Ok… bye ajhussi… you really looked like my Dad….” As she hugged the nurse that picks her up…
“Bye… nice meeting you…”. as Jae waves at her…. he laughs as he remembers what the little girl said… “I look like his daddy???..” He was then called inside… he happily went in… somehow he feels happy….
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A/n.. aww who can resist little Jaedy huh... she's just too cute for me... imagine her with JJ's face?? isn't she so adorable?? haha