| Fan Fiction |
by lilies_009
Jaejoong woke up with a terrible hangover. He knew he wasn’t supposed to drink, he promised her not to but he did anyway thinking it was the only way to just forget a little bit. He end up finishing a whole bottle of whiskey last night. He was in anguish after sending Dara home and has no idea of how to deal with her mood swings anymore. One minute she’s happy and then then next minute she will cry in pain.
He saw his phone blinked a sign that meant someone have sent him a message. He excitedly opens and read it seeing it was from his girl.
~MyBabyDee~
“Hi, don’t pick me up today. I think I’ll be driving my car. thanks though… see you around…~Dara”
He was disappointed and angry of course. There’s definitely something that made Dara grew distant. He was angry at her for not telling him what’s wrong… he’s angry at himself too.. for doing something that might hurt her…
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“Dara!” Jaejoong called seeing her already seating on her desk and just like yesterday she was staring blankly on her books looking like she has been thinking of things.
“We need to talk baby” Jaejoong tried to pull her to stand up but the latter just remained seated. Eyes cold and emotionless, justa staring at him straight in the eyes.
“The class is about to start Jaejoong let’s talk after…. Ok?”
She saw him heave a deep breath as if retraining himself to cuss something out. His eyes looks at him wearingly as if pleading for a moment, for an explanation “why are you acting like this Dara? you’ve been this way since yesterday. I told you to wait for me in the parking lot but you didn’t wait at all. Please can you just tell me what’s wrong”. his voice rose in despair as it echoed throughout their classroom, enough to get everyone’s attention.
“Let’s talk after class, God Jaejoong why do you need to make a scene here” she hissed in between her gritted teeth which only made the guy even more angrier.
He was breathing heavily trying to suppress his anger, closing his eyes “Fine! after class, we talk” he walks away from her and sat on his own chair but eyes remained at her seemingly cold grilfriend
Finally being able to breath, Dara felt her forehead and rested it against her right palm. Hating the stinging pain in her heart caused by how she treated Jaejoong. Self guilt was eating her up but her insecurities were winning over her.
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After class Jaejoong and Dara waited for everybody to leave. He hated waiting but he needed to talk to her… he wanted th talk badly that he almost hated the seconds that seemed to tick so slow. Jaejoong didn’t want her to be mad at him for too long, he’s been going crazy thinking of the possible reason of why he is being treated by Dara that way.
Dara on the other hand doesn’t know what to tell him. She was the one who was feeling all insecure and doubtful but she can’t just accept the fact that for weeks, Jaejoong hasn’t even gave her what she really wanted. Consider it shallow, but was it that hard to say those words to her? She believes that when one does loves the other, words such as I love you’s just comes out naturally.
Now Dara wasn’t sure anymore whether they are just physically attracted to each other or in love. She wanted to tell him that she loves him but she was scared of rejection. Like him, she was as well afraid of commitment but was willing to give it a try just as long as Jaejoong loves her back. But what makes him so afraid of saying it to her? Does he not loves her enough?
When they found themselves alone in the room, Jaejoong finally walked towards her and held her two hands with his.
“Babe, please tell me what’s wrong?” his shoulders became heavy, slouching in front of her, eyes locking with her. But she did not answer at all. She doesn’t know where to start and what to tell him.
“Dara! I have done so much for you. I have done so many things that I haven’t done with a lot of girls. I don’t even know how to deal with your mood swings anymore. You are the one who kept bossing me around. Everything you say I always follow.. what else do you want from me?” Jaejoong frustratingly huffed as he stood up and turned his back on her.
Dara was dumbfounded. She stared at his back wanting to grab and slap him for what he just said.
“Is that so? Well then THANK YOU Jaejoong. I know I have to be grateful for all the things you’ve did for me?” she smiled bitterly when Jaejoong turned around to face him.
“Really thank you so much Kim Jaejoong”
“Dara… I…” Jaejoong wanted to slap himself for even allowing himself to say such words. “I …”
“No Jae.joong. You meant everything you said. I boss you around right? Fine, if I am such a bother to you. Then you don’t have to do anything from now on.” She started picking up all her things, too eager to leave.
Jaejoong turned silent. He wasn’t exactly expecting that their talk would end up that way.
“Dara you know I didn’t mean it that way” he started to wrap his arms around her. Tightening it against her, not wanting to just let her go just like that.
“So what exactly do you mean by that then?” She pushed him away, glaring at him. And Jaejoong just couldn’t speak much. He didn’t know what to say. Dara waited for him to say something. To at least tell her that he was sure happy to do those things for her because he loves her that much. But he didn’t. No matter what Kim Jaejoong didn’t.
“Do you actually love me Jae..? like honestly? Because right now aside from our daily sweetness and whatever you call it! I think you just needed me for sex!” She started to walk away towards the door.
But just when she was about to finally stepped out of the door she stopped, wiped away the tears in her face and locked her sad eyes on the boy she loves dearly…
“You can’t even say the fucking I love you Jaejoong. Now ask yourself what you did wrong? You fuck me then ask me to dress up like I was some kind of a prostitute. Don’t even try to tell me that words now Jae because I don’t need it!”
She hissed then left, slamming the door behind her. Jaejoong was still standing frozen into the ground. Totally dumbfounded with what happened. He crumbled to the seat behind him as he felt his knees became weak. All he wanted was to talk, to solve everything but it end up worse than what he expected it to be.
Hiding his face behind his two palm he tightly grasp his hair and lightly puling it out of frustration
“Of course I love you Dara. Do I need to tell you that word for you to feel it? But I’m not used to saying that word…. I thought you understand Dara”
He tremble as he finally cried… continuesly wiping the tears away from his face. “I love you more that words could say Dara”
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Sohee smiled, she stared at Jaejoong who was somehow frozen to his feet…
“that’s it Sohee, this is the right time.” she happily walked away………..