| Fan Fiction |
by lilies_009
Jaejoong woke up when he felt someone shaking him. His necks hurts as he lay down on the floor of his pad he doesn’t remember sleeping there at all. He opened his eyes and looked at who dare disturbed him when he was obviously still sleepy. He frowned seeing Changmin standing beside him with his arms crossed and a disgusted pout.
“What do you want…. I’m still sleeping…. I want to sleep the whole day….” He stubbornly pushed Changmin’s feet away from his face.
“Hyung… what are you doing sleeping on the floor? And come on you have to go to school. it’s been two months can’t you get over it already?” Changmin sounded so worried as he knelt infront of the older one to take a better look at his friends face.
“Leave me alone Max! Please… leave. I need to change that darn code… you always come barging in here… acting like a mother and all…”
“Hyung come on and get dress. Your Dad called me, he’s been informed by the school” He pays your school fees you know”Changmin grabbed Jaejoong’s wrist and pulled him up earning a grunt from the older one.
“Do I look like I care Max? Do I look like I fucking care?’ Jaejoong shouted, he pulled his hands away from the taller man’s grasp and dragged him self to his bedroom,lay down again in his bed covering his head with a pillow.
But Changmin was far from giving up. He followed Jaejoong into his bedroom and pushed him off his bed with his right foot, which made Jaejoong fell on his back on the floor.\
“YA SHIM CHANGMIN!” He stood up and cam face to face with the frowning Changmin “You want me to kill you??? he shouted at him feverishly but it didn’t affect the other guy
“Okay kill me because honestly hyung? I don’t fucking care anymore. I’ll drag you to school even if I’m half dead. Come on! you want to beat me? Fine… beat me then.. or rather.. kill me!”
Changmin took the remaining space between them, challenging the older guy to do what he threatened him to do. All his patience for Jaejoong already ran out. He can no longer just watch and let him waste his life again. He has been like that for almost three months now. And all he ever did was to drink at night and get home drunk.
“If you won’t go to school I’ll let the other guys drag you there as well so you better fix your self or I’ll call them” Changmin was angry and frustrated and defying Jaejoong was his way of doing it.
“Fine I’ll go! Just stop the nagging. God you are like my father!” He turned his back on his friend and walked towards his washroom.
Changmin smiled triumphantly
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Changmin, Yoochun, and Jaejoong was hanging out in the parking lot just talking. Yoochon was happy to see Jaejoong in school. He was still the pretty face that he used to be the scars from the night Teddy striked on him was almost invisible already. Although quiet a few can actually tell that he is in a lot of stress and anguish, his friends are one of those.
“Hey.. you ok now Jae? Yoochun asked
“Yeah… a bit you? still with Sohee? I’m telling you man drop her…” Jaejoong frowned on him. He haven;t forgotten how the girl was part of how he lost Dara. If it weren’t for the bitch he would have a better chance to explain everything to her.
“Relax dude I already did, and who ever said I was serious about her?” Yoochun chuckled “I got my self a good girl you know” The long haired guy grinned making Jaejoong raised an eyebrow
“Good then. Nothing good will come from her. I swear, If I could just kill her i will” Jaejoong hissed
“Hyung stop it. I told you to just forget about it ok?” Changmin scowled at him
“Yeah… I know” He shrugged “Where Yunho and Junsu by the way?” Jaejoong asked, he wasn’t able to see the two guys for days now. Though he would only see them at the club for a while before the two would left.
“Oh Yunho flew to Paris a few days ago, he said he missed someone, he’ll come back today though. And Junsu… well he’s planning something out… about opening an new coffee shop near the school, he’s busy”
Jaejoong just nodded. He looked around the parking lot and felt uncomfortable. Just standing there makes him jumpy. He was sitting on the hood of his car while Yoochun and Changmin were standing beside him.
They were in the middle of talking when a black and white stripe chevy camaro pass by them. They all looked with amazement as they kept their eyes frozen at the car.
A light blonde girl step out from it, she slammed the door lightly with her behind. She leaned back on her car and lit her cigarette, pulling her phone off her bag, flipped it and smirked realizing the stares she’s getting. She flicked her hair while talking with someone on the phone. Her short skirt riding up to her legs as she slightly bow to fix the strap of her sandals, earning a lot of gasps from the people on the parking lot.
“Hey oppa! I’m at the parking lot can you get me here?” She said lovingly on to whoever she was talking with on the phone
Changmin, Yoochun and Jaejoong stared at her, somehow intrigued by the familiarity of the girl, then their eyes widened as their jaw dropped as soon as they recognizes her. It was Dara, his Dara.
Jaejoong almost jumped off his feet seeing her like that. She is no longer the Dara that he knew. Everything about her change. Jaejoong saw Choi SeungHyun walked towards her. His breath hitched as the guy approached her with eagerness and when the gut got nearer he gave her a kiss on her cheeks.
“Hi honey…. You’re back”
“Yes Tabi oppa! miss me?” Putting her arms around his neck. Facing him as their frontal body leaned against each other.
“Totally! I was hoping to call you last night after I heard you came back from California but your phone is off?”
“Ohh right! I didn’t realized it’s battery drained off till this morning. You’re worried about me right oppa?” Dara lovingly smiled at him, bringing their faces together, she rubbed her nose against him and Seunghyun gave him a peck
“Of course. I should have dragged you back when I went home last week but then you were still enjoying the beach there” his hands now around her waist pulling her near him “I kind of miss the two month that we spent together there” he grinned
“Oh well…. I missed you too you know” She grins back
“Teddy Hyung said you were pissed off by something again last night?. Care to tell me why my honey almost chewed Teddy’s head off?” The guy chuckled pulling away from the hug and grabbed Dara’s things.
Dara rolled her eyes and pouted. “as usual he wanted me to change my blonde”
“Hon you know I don’t like that color either. it makes you more beautiful” He pulled her and gave her a peck on her lips. “Please reconsider and changed it for me please?”
“No I like it this way” she glared at Seunghyun “acan you please stop pleasing my brother, I’m already thinking that you like him better than me”
“Of course not! I like you more” he smiled at her which was then replied by a glare from Dara
“Fine! Let’s leave the blonde on let’s just go. We still need to renew your classes. You got dropped you know, if it weren’t for me you can’t continue” The guy chuckled as he wrapped his arm around Dara’s shoulder protectively… not liking the stares and attention she’s been getting
They were walked passed by Jaejoong, Yoochun and Changmin who was still dumbfounded at the moment and was till gaping at SeungHyun and Dara. his arms around her shoulder While Dara’s arm around his waist.
Dara saw them and stopped on her track. Jaejoong held his breathe, just locked his ayes with her. Dara stared at the three guys for a while then slowly a wide smile creeped up her face. Something no one from the three really expected.
“Hi boys” she smiled and happily greeted them
“Ummm…. Hi?” Yoochun hesitantly waved back still having the dumb expression on his face.
Dara and Seunghyun then happily walkdc away.
Max tilted his head, wondering… Was it really Dara?”
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“Let’s go, Yoochun pulled the still dazed Jaejoong by his jacket and dragged him towards the school, down the hall through his classroom and pushed him into the door.
He finds it rather amazing that he can actually drag Jaejoong like that. If the older guy was in his right mind at that moment he could have kick Yoochun for dragging him like a lost lifeless doll. Yoochun grinned as he saw how distraught Jaejoong was.
“See you later buddy” he saw Yoochun and Changmin smiled and waved their hands at him. He just nodded and blankly sat on his desk and stared at the blonde girl who is just few seats away in front of him.
She was still talking to Choi SeungHyun that was sitting into one of the empty chairs beside her. He was holding her hands, caressing it.
Jaejoong felt like his heart being torn into hundreds of pieces like being kicked right back into his consciousness, that she does not belong to him anymore. That Dara was his past, not his present and definitely will not be his future.
But he was happy to see her all giggling and smiling. He wishes her to be happy. It does hurt him to see her with someone else and not him but somehow he felt relieved to see her moving on, that she’s not stacked up like he is.
He clinched his fist and looked away, avoiding to see Dara and Seung Hyun sweetness with each other. He doesn’t need to see everything, just as long as she’s happy. He took a deep breathe…
“come on now Jaejoong, it’s been three months. Let it go…. You have to let go…. For her….” But still, in as much as he doesn’t want to look, his eyes would search again for her. Looking for the girl he once loved and will still be loving.
“My baby is still pretty. Prettier than I remembered” he told himself “It’s good that you have moved on and have forgotten about everything that happened between us. I would rather let you forget about me than to remember everything that will just hurt you. That I hurt you and let you cry, that I failed and lost you, that you were once mine. I love you… and I miss you…. I wish for your happiness… even if it’s without me…. Just let me love you from a far ok? doing so makes me happy…. and please don’t hate me… that’s all I ask”
He said those words to him self. How he wanted to say those words out loud to her but he knew those words were never meant to be said and heard
With out realizing it, tears came falling down his face. He was crying while staring at Dara. His eyes never left gazing at her features even for a few seconds. He wiped away his tears swiftly to hide that he was crying.
He was known for being arrogant.. a player…. a jerk…. He laughed at himself. What happened to Kim Jaejoong? he was now exactly the opposite of how he used to be. He now cries for a girl…
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Dara didn’t expect to see Jaejoong in such a state. He has black marks around his eyes, he seemed like he didn’t get enough sleep or has he been drinking often? He gets a little skinny too, his pale face looks even paler and he looked so sad and stressed out.
He was not the same Jaejoong she knew. He used to be so confident about everything, arrogant to everybody, a jerk to someone who is less capable than him. But…. now his entire striking aura seems gone. he still looks good. Yes he still is as good looking as before but something about him makes him different, like he lost something special and that he really wanted it back but never got the chance to do so.
Dara kept glancing at him while she was talking to Seunghyun. She did felt his stares but hated the fact that he still have the guts to even stare at her like that. But as much as she does… she misses him so damn much even how much she tried to forget about him.
It was hell for her for the past three months. The first month that she stayed in her house and the remaining two months in California. In there she went wild, goes out to party every night, meeting boys… making out with a lot of them… drinking. Until she met SeungHyun and liked him almost instantly. He was there when she needed him and was a bit surprised knowing that they went into the same university in Korea and he is actually a good friend of Teddy.
She wished that she could love SeungHyun as much as she loves Jaejoong but she’s confuse as…. She likes Seung hyun but she loves Jae, but she hated Jaejoong so much that it hurts her hating him.
“Dara what are you talking about? You hate him… hate him…. he played you remember? You should hate him….” that is what she kept telling herself. You managed to change Dara this change is good. You’ve done a good job… you are not the same Dara… you are now different…. You are now Sandy…. fight it off…. you don’t love him… you hate him…. she tried convincing her self once more. She always tried to but still everything confuses her.
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He was ready to walk up to her and maybe talked to her. The gap between them was a few feet away… yet they seem to be worlds apart. That no matter how Jaejoong tried he could never reach her and hold her.
He wanted to reach her, hold her, he should at least explain, say sorry for everything and tell her everything that he wanted to say. No matter how often he thinks about her and how much he yearned to be with her…. Jaejoong felt like too much of her life didn’t involved him anymore. Yet how he wished that he was wrong with that thought but too much change in her means his thoughts… maybe…. was true…
That he was already forgotten… and hated…
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She saw Jaehoong started to walk towards her and she instantly panicked.
“Oh no no. I need to go” Dara kept mumbling. She tried looking back at him and pretended that she’s okay as she smiled at him brightly. She swiftly fixed her things, got her phone and dialed someone’s number making sure that her voice was loud enough so that he could hear everything she will say
“Hey Tabi oppa! Pick me up ok?………. How about your house?…………….. Sure I’ll go but you have to pick me up now………….Yeah… sure…. I’ll wait… bye…” She hanged up and stiffly stood on her stop unmoving.
They were silent, waiting for each other. No one dared to move or speak and they awkwardly stay that way just until Seunghyun came in. The new guy stared at Jaejoong for a while and grinned at him, almost mocking how Jaejoong was just standing where he was and couldn’t make himself come near his ex girlfriend.
“Hey… let’s go?” Seunghyun shifted his stare at dara and smiled at her charmingly
Dara glanced back to where Jaejoong was before smiling at Seunghyun “Sure…” wrapping her arms around his left arm.
“Club later hon? Teddy will be there”
Dara frowned “Let’s go to your place first, I need some rest. we’ll take my car” pulling TOP and walked away from the room. Jaejoong’s eyes narrowed after hearing everything Dara said. He thought that he can handle it, but surely he can’t
“Does she have to do that? does she have to let me hear everything? Does she have to let me see everything? God this is making me crazy!”
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