| Fan Fiction |
by lilies_009
Dara’s eyes were filled by her tears as she watched him walking out of the club. She knew exactly how she feels, she was fighting against herself to run to him, hug him. She almost stood up but stopped, remembering the hand she was holding that moment. Her gaze dropped and found TOP smiling at her.
She clutch the side of the couch almost burying her nails just to make herself not move an inch from where she was sitting. For the first time in three months of hating him, she somehow wanted to listen to whatever he will say and maybe forgive him.
She felt Top’s strong hands held hers, gripping it tight. From the time Jae started to sing that song until that moment, he was with her, yet he was actually forgotten.
“Hon? Do you want to talk to him?” Top ask her a little smile crept on his lips. Dara stared back with wide eyes. She can’t believe how Top would just let her talk to the ex boyfriend who obviously still have her heart.
“What?” Dara ask back. She’s not sure if she was even hearing it right.
“Did Seung Hyun just ask her to talk to Jaejoong?”
“Sandy, I know you want to talk to him, just go ok?” He looked away from her not wanting her to see how jealous and miserable he was.
He knew Sandy likes him. He knew she was sincere in dating him but no matter how much he thinks about it, although he knew a part of her heart belongs to him, a whole lot more still belongs to Kim Jaejoong. Seunghyun knew that no matter how much he likes her, this has nothing to with his feelings for her not of her to him.
He grabbed Dara by her wrist and started to drag her out of the club. His eyes searched for Jaejoong and found him along with his friends. He was sitting on a gutter and was crying. Seunghyun couldn’t help but chuckle at how Jaejoong looked. It wouldn’t really surprise him if the guy would try to snatch the girl from him and ran off the minute he looks up and see her in front of him.
Dara was shaken as well seeing Jaejoong’s in such a pitiful state. Who would think that Kim Jaejoong the almighty player that she knew would actually be there looking like a wet kitten?
Seunhyun let go of Dara’s wrist, held her two shoulders to face him. He smiled at her assuring her that everything was ok.
“Hon, I don’t know why I’m doing this but you need to talk to him, I don’t know why but I think you just need to” He looked at her intently, eyes searching for a protest, but he didn’t saw it. All he saw was the longing.
“But oppa, I…” Dara was a bit staggered. She knew Seung Hyun was hurt but just never allowed anyone to see it. But that doesn’t mean she could just hurt him in ways like this. She would not want to make Seunghyun feel that he was never wanted, that she have never liked him because she does. I there’s anyone in the world more deserving for her love, it’s Seunghyun.
“Listen, I don’t care what will happened after your talk. You may end up getting back together or you’ll still choose me, it doesn’t matter. Either way as long as I know your happy. I’m cool with it” He smiled but a glint of jealousy was obvious that Seunghyun couldn’t even contain himself but to tear up.
“Tabi Oppa…” Dara stared at him.. still not believing what she was hearing
“Just give me your keys, if anything happens call me.. I’ll pick you up. alright?” He gave her a kiss on her forehead and hugged her tight, a hug like he never wanted to let go. Seunghyun knew that if he did, it would be the last time for him to hug her like that.
“Ya! Kim Jaejoong I’ll leave Dara to you, talk things out and don’t tell Hyung” Top called on to Jaejoong making Jaejoong stood up in a hurry, wiping away his tears and nodded
Top turned towards Dara “I’ll see you…again soon?” he brought his right hand to her face and caressed it…. “Bye….” he added with a smile
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“We just leave you guys alone” Yunho grabbed the other three boys and dragged them back into the club but making sure to stop in front of Dara and said
“Jae ah please tell her everything. She deserves to know. And Dara… please listen to him, he’s been through a lot”
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Jaejoong stood a little wobbly trying to come up with words to say. He’s happy because he can finally talk to her but he remained gawking at her who was just like him, standing a few feet away from him, not even moving.
“Dara…I..” Jaejoong finally found the courage to speak and strength to finally push his feet to walk towards her. His face was full of anguish and his eyes are red and swelling.
“Jaejoong just tell me everything that you needed to say, Including the stuff that I needed to hear And please… can you be honest this time?” She looks at the guy feverishly.
“Babe… can we take a walk?” He ask her in a still low voice
“Can’t you just say it here? Shit!” She grunted “ I can’t believe this! I feel like I’m the one who’s the bad one here. Seung Hyun already walked away and now by the way I talk and the way that your pleading it kind of looks like I’m the one who’s making everyone’s life miserable”
“Dara please.. if it was that easy to just say it all in here I would not have to keep it for a long time. Please…. not here“
Dara kept still and silent for a while.. He was right
“Let’s go, but I’m not walking, let’s drive around. Where’s your car?” She softened a bit looking around.
Jae pointed his finger to the end of the street where his car was parked and the latter eyed him for a while before turning away. He watched her walked ahead of him as he smiled nervously thinking of the possible outcome of the talk they will have.
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Jaejoong was silent throughout their trip, and although he was dying to hug and kiss her he didn’t make a single move. No, not even talking to her for he doesn’t want to provoke her, not now that he can finally be with her… even for the night.
He promised himself to tell her everything Even it meant breaking a promise to someone, even if it will break her heart, or her brother’s heart. Jaejoong silently cursed feeling lost. He has no idea where to take her and he was afraid that if he did take her someplace too familiar or unfamiliar she will just hate him more. It seems illogical but to the love sick Jaejoong, making Dara unhappy that moment scares a shit load of him.
He kept driving around, until he saw dara fidgeted on her seat, somehow looking irritated and uncomfortable. He gulped and prayed that god would at least give the girl a bit more patience. He just drive along roads and ended up parking near Cheonggye Stream in downtown Seoul.
Fortunately it was a pretty silent place, pretty romantic if it weren’t for the tension between them. They can almost hear the water flowing down the stream yet… it was so calm and peaceful to listen to…later making them a bit at ease. The place somehow has a warm aura… Just enough to make both of their cold hearts warmer.
They were silenced once again, unable to talk and were lost in their own thoughts just looking at the lights ahead of them. Both couldn’t explain the feeling of finally being close to each other again, as each contemplate of what exactly the words to say.
Jaejoong can not exactly explain how the girl has such effects on him when he thought he grew up being all cold, playful and jackass. He just knew that the time with Dara was the times when he was the happiest. Regardless of things Dara made him to do. He watched her through the side of his eyes while the other kept her stern gaze up front.
“Say it Jaejoong” Her head snapped sideways and Jaejoong was caught looking at her. He was a bit surprise but then realizing that it is now or never he decided to just end the dreaded silence.
“I’m sorry” he started to talk, eyes locked with hers.
Her eyebrow rose “And?” She crossed her arms in front of her chest and eyed the fidgeting Jaejoong.
“I love you” Jaejoong’s voice lowered. He knew he wasn’t suppose to say those words but he just have to tell her. He caught how Dara’s breathing hitched. He was afraid that the latter will get annoyed and just cut their little reunion and walked out from there, he was glad that she didn’t.
“Kim Jaejoong I’m not here to hear those crap! Tell me everything first, then I’ll decide whether to believe you or not” she said still rather cold and heartless. But dara knew that her defenses were slowly crumbling down. Just being in that car with the guy was already making her weak that Dara was in a struggle to keep herself away from him and not hug and kiss the guy senselessly.
Jaejoong did not directly answer her and Dara could see the hesitation on the others’ eyes. Was it that big that even at that time Jaejoong was still having thoughts. Just thinking about the what if’s made Dara frowned. Is it possible that the problem has something to do with her.
“God! why do you have to think about it? just tell me so that we can get over all these fast!” Dara grunted with disappointment as she leaned her back at her seat. “I’m starting to think that going with you is such a waste” She rolled her eyes and crossed her arms, Convincing herself that all she just said was true. She missed him so much… Yet she doesn’t want to admit it.
Jaejoong took her hand and squeez it a bit for comfort, he sure ly doesn’t know how she will react to his revelation. He did took it the bad when his mom left, will Dara took it the same way as he did?
Dara felt bad for forcing it out of Jaejoong that way. But the longer Jaejoong held it in the more she felt restless about it.
“Your dad wasn’t killed in a shootout”
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