| Fan Fiction |
by lollipoplove
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“Let’s stay like this for a while. It feels good.” Siwon said softly.
Hankyung was just looking into his eyes, yet his heart threatened to go out of its pericardium inside his chest.
Siwon’s warmth was just engulfing him, as if he’s in a shell, or more like a protective case, Siwon being his protection from the outside. His heart just wanted to approve of this protective shell. But then his mind didn’t.
‘But it feels good.’ He thought.
Yes, Siwon was right. It feels good. They have been in each other’s arms before, but not in a position where they were like this, awake, and breaths tickling each other’s lips.
And those tickled lips. The two men’s lips that touched each other. Not kiss, it was far from it. But Hankyung thought that that mere touching of the lips was much more heartwarming than a passionate kiss.
“You know why I was cold a while ago?” Siwon said some moments after.
“Why?” Hankyung asked softly.
“Because I want you to-“
“YA! YOU TWO! THIS IS A PUBLIC PLACE! YOU DON’T DO THINGS LIKE THAT HERE!” A shrill voice echoed through the room.
Siwon was more angry than ever as he glanced to the side, revealing an old man in a janitor’s uniform. He groaned.
“WHAT ARE YOU TWO WAITING FOR? STAND UP BEFORE MIRACLES HAPPEN!” The man boomed again.
Hankyung stood up shyly, putting on his shirt, and bowing to the man. Siwon didn’t want to stand up just yet, so he just laid on the floor.
“Siwon, let’s go!” Hankyung said embarrassedly.
Siwon didn’t speak.
“Urgh.” Hankyung reached for Siwon’s hand and pulled him up. It was only just then that Siwon stood up.
“Stop acting like a kid you know.” Hankyung said, as he walked with Siwon to the exit, holding his wrist. But what surprised him again was Siwon interlacing his fingers with him. He glanced at him but all he saw was Siwon whistling.
‘Why must he be so cute?’ Hankyung sighed inwardly.
As they neared the exit, Hankyung noticed that the janitor was glaring at them as if they were dads beating up their daughters. Hankyung bowed again, but the man just glared at their interlaced hands.
Siwon, noticing, grabbed Hankyung by the waist and pulled him closer onto him.
The janitor looked scandalized as he retreated back to his quarters, muttering things in the lines of ‘Faggots. They should go to hell. It disgusts me.’
Siwon smiled in victory.
“What are you smiling about?” Hankyung asked once they were out.
“Nothing.” Siwon said, whistling.
“Nothing my face. Tell m-“ Hankyung was cut off, not unlike that moment by their doorstep, by Siwon’s lips on his cheeks.
Hankyung looked surprised again, to which Siwon chuckled to.
‘There’s so much more time.’ He thought.
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They went back to the apartment, only to see Eunmi and Yongjun rolling around on the comforter on the floor, laughing.
“Look Siwon, they’re so cute!” Hankyung said. Siwon smiled.
“Ah, Hankyung-ah, you’re back!” Mrs Jung said from the kitchen. “Yunhi left already, he had to go fix some things. You know, Eunmi and Yongie looks so cute together! If you want we can arrange them for marriage!” She meant that as a joke, of course.
Suddenly Siwon’s stance stiffened.
“Eunmi won’t be in an arranged marriage. EVER.” He said sternly.
Hankyung and Mrs Jung looked taken aback, but Siwon wasn’t. He looked angry yet determined.
“Did I say something wrong?” Mrs Jung said tentatively.
“Come on Hannie, let’s go.” Siwon said, walking to pick up his baby. Then Yongjun cried.
“Ahh, Yongie-ah, don’t worry, there’ll be a lot of time.” Mrs Jung said, taking her grand nephew. “Wouldn’t there, Hankyung?” She said the sentence with hesitation.
“Uhmm, yeah.” Hankyung replied, still confused at Siwon’s actions once again.
Siwon grabbed his hand, and they were out of the apartment. Once they were back in the car, Hankyung questioned Siwon.
“What was that about? Hankyung asked.
Siwon looked surprised that Hankyung didn’t know what he was feeling. Well, more like he forgot how he should be feeling. He guesed that the Chinese man forgot that he was about to get married to Yoona in a matter of months. And when he thinks of it, it’s becoming nearer and nearer. His mind just then, whirled into a mass of worry. He was going to get married. What will happen to Hankyung? Eunmi?
Should he remind Hankyung now? Well, he should, because everything would be screwed up bigtime. But then Siwon thought that maybe Hankyung not knowing is better. Well, not for the greater good but for them two. He would have more time being with him, more time enveloping him in his love. He doesn’t want those times to end, but then it should. Not telling him for now, Siwon thought, is the best option.
“Siwon?” Hankyung disrupted his thoughts.
Siwon smiled and said. “Nothing, never mind.”
“But-“ Hankyung tried to protest but Siwon only started the car and ignored him.
Hankyung just sighed, feeding Eunmi milk.
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As the shower water splashed to his bare chest, Siwon couldn’t help but think of one thing:
Hankyung.
Well, more like Hankyung shirtless, sweaty and drinking water.
He doesn’t know what makes him think those things at this precise moment, while showering. He guessed that it might be the steamy atmosphere in the bathroom.
“Urgh…” Siwon groaned as the Chinese man’s figure just drifted to his mind once again. How his butt showed when he squats low to pick Eunmi. Or how his body was revealed again to Siwon’s eyes when he changed into a new shirt once they got home.
Siwon then imagined Hankyung standing in front of him, naked, all wet.
Siwon gulped.
Then that devil sandwiched by his two thighs started growing.
He closed his eyes shut. Imagining Hankyung as he slowly stroked his hardening member, slick in the shower water.
‘SIWON. STOP. YOU ARE NOT DOING THIS. THINK OF IT, IT’S DISRESPECTING FOR HIM.’ His mind screamed.
But his body seemed to react the opposite. The slow strokes started to get fast.
“Ugh…Hankyung…” He whispered, as he imagined Hankyung’s hands pleasuring the member he was stroking.
Siwon could then feel the accumulating heat from his member, his knees buckling…His climax was coming soon….
“AAHHHHHHHHH...!!!!” Eunmi’s cry was heard from outside.
Siwon instantly snapped out of his lusty trance as thoughts of his daughter, complete with Dora the Explorer and Barney flooded his mind.
“Ughh.” Siwon groaned irritably.
He figured out that he would just finish bathing. Moments later he stepped out form the shower, wrapping a towel on his waist.
But just then the door to the bathroom opened and in came Hankyung.
He gulped. Hankyung’s muscles were so defined in the shirt he was wearing.
Hankyung gulped too, as the sight of Siwon in only a towel started to make his face redden.
“Oh, I gue-guess I forgot to lock the door.” Siwon said.
“Oh, no uh, uhmm sorry, I’ll go.” Hankyung stuttered. In his haste to dash out of the bathroom, he dropped the lotion he was holding. When he tried to open the door, it jammed with the tube of hand lotion.
‘SHIT.’ Hankyung only thought.
He crouched low to try to unjam the door, but it was futile. Siwon approached him, and that familiar feeling of heat engulfed him again.
“Let me try…” Siwon crouched low, the towel covering his lower body precariously being extended on his waist.
Hankyung closed his eyes.
‘NO, NO, NO.’
When he opened his eyes, Siwon was still trying to unjam to tube of lotion. His eyes landed on Siwon’s plump lips, which were half open, concentrating on unjamming the lotion bottle. Siwon, noticing the eyes on him, looked over to Hankyung. There gazes locked. They just couldn’t take their gazes of each other.
Suddenly Siwon’s knees slipped on the floor, making his body launch itself to Hankyung.
The two men were now milimiters from each other, much closer than how it was a while ago. Siwon started to feel hot again, so did Hankyung.
Siwon felt himself lean closer, yet very cautiously. He knew that he shouldn’t, but he really couldn’t stop himself now. The afternoon earlier he and Hankyung were mere milimiters from a kiss. And now he would get that kiss, he thought. His eyes found Hankyung’s luscious lips, parted a little. He looked into Hankyung’s eyes, which were wide in surprise.
Siwon smiled inwardly, as he put his hand on top of
Hankyung’s, interlacing their fingers, as if saying relax.
Hankyung wanted to go away, but everything inside him
didn’t want to. The heat of Siwon was just swallowing him, much more now, that the other man was half naked and wet from bath. He was shocked, so was his heart, as Siwon leaned closer very slowly, as if waiting for Hankyung to answer if it was alright.
‘OH MY GOD, OH MY GOD.’ Hankyung recited in his mind.
As Siwon’s breath was so close to his lips, he figured out that it was futile to contradict his body and heart. He relaxed, submitting himself to the wonders that would come a mere seconds from now, closing his eyes.
They were now in a state of incoherency as the tips of their lips started to touch each other.
“WAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHH!!!!” Eunmi cried again, making
Hankyung’s other hand press on the lotion bottle. It squirted open, and alas, the door was wide ajar again.
Siwon opened his closed eyes, angrier than ever. He was nanoseconds away from kissing Hankyung and now they were rudely interrupted again.
Hankyung stood up hastily without a word, yet Siwon could see the disheveledness in him as he exited the bathroom shakily.
Siwon couldn’t stop himself from punching the floor. But then again he couldn’t, and wouldn’t, hate his daughter.
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Hankyung tried to close his eyes for the nth time.
After a few seconds he opened it again. He turned his body around on the small bed, facing the empty space.
‘You shouldn’t have moved back here.’ He thought.
‘Here’ meaning the guestroom beside Siwon’s. After the little incident a while ago, it became very awkward and fidgety between the two of them, especially as how he nearly broke the pitcher he was supposed to be pouring Siwon water from. Just the sight of him, especially when their elbows rubbed, would just make him go insane. Much more sharing a bed with him.
Unknown to him, Siwon was also writhing around in bed, at the absence of that muscular yet soft figure he had come to hug and put an arm around at every night.
He knew things wouldn’t be very easy after that near kiss at the bathroom. Well it would be, had they kissed, but they hadn’t. So that near kiss was just as good as a confession.
‘I’ll tell him now?’
He found himself standing up from his bed and walking to the doorway that linked his and the guest room. As it was not locked, he slowly opened it.
Hankyung, at the sound of the creaking door, feigned sleep. Siwon walked to him and said softly, “Hyung?”
Then Siwon’s breath tickled his ear, as he was bending low. “Oh, you’re asleep.”
Then Hankyung heard a sigh. “Look, I’m sorry for what happened, see, had we kissed, then everything would be different.”
Yes, it would be way different, Hankyung thought. For the first time ever in his life, he hated his baby for interrupting them.
“But you don’t know how much I want you by my side now.” Siwon said softly, brushing Hankyung’s bangs away. “But you don’t want to, and I respect that.”
He heard another sigh. “You know hyung, I know you’re not blind, and by now, you should now that I love you so much.” Hankyung’s heart then pounded really fast, at the same
time, he felt like he was floating in air. So Siwon really loves him. He was so happy…
“I love you hyung, and I want to be there always to protect you and be by your side…” Then he felt Siwon’s lips on his cheeks. “Goodnight…” Siwon finally said and walked to the door.
Hankyung didn’t open his eyes then. Yes, he wished that Siwon was by his side right now. Yes, he wished that Siwon kissed his lips, not his cheeks. But then that I love you from Siwon was enough….
The sun shone brightly on Seoul the next day, summer heat prevailing over the city.
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From the balcony of Siwon’s apartment, Hankyung could make out Mt. Namsan, and the tower above it. Then to the other side it was the Han River, the oriental roofs of Gyeongbuk Palace seen vaguely.
Everything looked perfect, the sunshine making it be.
If his life was just like this view. Perfect.
If only he was clear of guilt.
Then he would tell Siwon he loves him so much, more than anyone, anything.
Then they would get married at the beach in Incheon, wearing relaxed white shoes and slippers. There would be an arc made of white daisies near the shore. Of course, four year old EunMi would be the flowergirl. Eunhyuk his bestman. But wait, two bestmen in a wedding?
Hankyung smiled at his baby as he imagines her starting at school, Hankyung and Siwon bringing her to her preschool in a province outside Seoul, where they would buy a small house with a lot so they could plant vegetables that he can use for the restaurant he and Siwon would be putting up.
Then at the afternoon Siwon picks her up from school, arriving just in time for a delicious dinner where Eunmi tells her dads about her new friend, new teacher and her new crush.
Hankyung laughed bitterly.
“Always be a good girl, okay? Even if Daddy Hankyung’s not with you anymore.” He said as he kissed EunMi’s chubby cheek.
Eunmi, not knowing the inner plight of Hankyung, only chuckled. Hankyung then nuzzled his nose to the baby’s small one. He remembered months before that this would make her cry…
And what months those were. Just in a span of 7 months, he became a dad, moved in with a stranger, fell in love, and now, fighting with himself.
What a short yet long seven months.
He wondered if Tiffany never died, will he be just like the PE teacher that he used to be? Well, he was still a PE teacher, but then, he was the PE teacher who fell in love with another man. Talk about that stereotype of buff manly PE teacher. He wondered if he never fell in love, if Siwon never fell in love with him.
The day before was just electrifying. Siwon nearly kissing him, and finally confessing. Maybe a half confession, as he thought Hankyung had been asleep. He just cursed himself at not being able to tell Siwon that he loves him too. And that guilt just bubbled up more when he woked up to an empty bed. Well, the guestroom’s bed was just for one, anyway.
At breakfast, everything seemed normal again. All friendly and loving. Now Hankyung realized how they had been playing with nothing but stupidity at their futile attempts to evade a confession.
He recalls how Siwon kissed him goodbye that morning. “Bye, hyung.”
Hankyung just wished that there was that three word phrase after that. I love you. He just wished that he had said it like the night before.
He walked to Eunmi’s crib and put her down, as he remembered he had to make a grocery list so Siwon could buy stuff when he goes home from fixing his travel papers.
As he opened one of the kitchen cabinets, he heard the doorbell ring.
‘Why does Siwon forget that we have a doorbell?.’ He told himself that it was not Siwon by the door now, as he was used to knocking. He stood up and approached the door.
He opened it, and he saw a tall girl with short red hair, wearing a purple dress that clung to her figure, yet not vulgar. She wore red high heels with her dress, and many bracelets and bangles glistening from her wrist.
“Hello there, Hankyung shi.” A sugary yet lethal voice said.
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