| Fan Fiction |
by azn14
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Today was one of those summer days that just made you smile. There was a field that I had just discovered and I went to walk through it. I was new to the area and I wanted to explore. The field was just by my house and it was huge. There seemed to almost be no end to it. As I walked through the knee-high grass with my yellow sundress on, all I could see was nothing but grass and an endless baby blue sky. All I could feel was the warm sunlight and the graze of grass across my calves. All I could hear was the beautiful tune of the warm wind. I felt at peace in this place as I strolled along.
But, as I got further from my house, I saw something in the distance. It was a person for sure. I couldn’t see any specifications, but I could tell it was a tall male. His back was facing me. Curiosity was biting at me, so I decided to abandon my relaxing walk and see who this person was.
I tried to get closer without making any noise. This felt impossible due to the fact that some of the grass crunched beneath my feet with every step. Thankfully, the person didn’t notice. He was listening to music with both his earphones in. I bit my lip trying to take the risk of getting closer. I was already less than three meters away from him. But, this guy didn’t notice I even existed, so there could be no harm right?
I took a few more steps and felt so close to him. From what I could see now, he was extremely tall and his hair was short. He was wearing a plain black wife beater and dark jeans that fit him perfectly. He was kind of skinny as well. Now that I saw the back of him, I really wanted to see what he looked like from the front.
Using the tall grass as a camouflage, I squatted slightly, and tried to sneak in front of him. Trying to be ninja-like, I made no sounds and tiptoed. Staying a bit squatted was getting hard on my legs so I took a break when I was beside him. I sighed and blew my side bangs out of my face.
“You know, you’re not very good at sneaking about,” a voice above me said. I cringed and looked up carefully. The guy had one of his earphones out and it was dangling on his chest. He was looking straight at me with big brown eyes that were piercing. Slowly, I got out of my squatting position and stood up straight.
I looked up at him; he was so tall compared to me. “Who said I was sneaking?” I asked raising an eyebrow.
He raised one of his eyebrows too, “Well, you sort of were squatting around me and trying to make your way to the front,” he said. What a guy, I thought. I blew the hair out of my face again and narrowed my eyes at him.
“You know what,” I started, he turned towards me a bit, expecting a comeback. I sighed and turned around, “never mind. Sorry for interrupting your music listening.” Now I was embarrassed. It was bad enough being caught, but now, I also had no excuse for sneaking around him.
Just as I was about to walk away, I felt him grab hold of my arm. I faced him and tilted my head to the side. “Yeah?”
He let go of my arm and scratched the back of his head, “You want to listen with me?” he said seeming a bit embarrassed.
I was taken back. Why he wanted me to listen with him was a mystery. I was weighing the options in my head, listen or go, listen or go. I saw him waiting for an answer. If I left now, I would wonder what could have happened. Guess I’ll stay. I smiled at him and nodded. He smiled back at me and gave me an earphone.
Our fingers brushed slightly as I took it from him. I felt a tingle and knew what it meant. I blushed and hoped he didn’t notice. I put the earphone in my ear and listened carefully. My right ear was filled with the quiet sounds of ballads. The ballad was soft and it hit my heart. I closed my eyes and let the song fill me completely. Just as it was about to get to the climax of the song, the song faded and it was off. I opened my eyes getting back to reality. The guy was looking at me with miss-matching eyes and was smiling purely. I felt another blush creep onto my cheeks and took the earphone out of my ear nervously.
“That was a good song,” I said quietly looking at my feet. I heard him chuckle.
“Yeah, it has the right mood for a day like today,” he said. I heard the smile in his voice. I glanced up at him and he was looking down at me. I don’t know what happened there but I felt something; something I haven’t felt before. And, from the look in his eyes, I know he felt it too.
“I’m Changmin,” he said finally he held out his hand.
I took his hand gently and shook it feeling a chill down my back. “I’m Hyerin.” I let go of his hand and grinned at him. Then I looked at the sky. The sun was already starting to set. I blew the hair out of my face and sighed. I looked up at Changmin, who looked down at me curiously, “I have to go now. My mom wanted me home before it was dark,” I said sadly.
He gave me a reassuring smile, “That’s alright. How about we meet back here tomorrow at noon?” he offered. I nodded my head.
“I’d like that,” I said quietly. I turned my back and started to head home. Almost out of the field, I turned around to see if Changmin was still there, but he wasn’t. I tilted my head a bit. It was odd; he was there just a moment ago. He must’ve left right after I did. I shrugged it off and went straight home feeling excited for the next day.
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When I saw it was near noon, I ran out of my house and headed straight for the field to meet Changmin. He was there, listening to his music and spacing out. As I glided closer to him, he turned around and saw me. He gave me a one-of-a-kind smile and beckoned me to come closer. I walked faster to be by his side.
“How are you today Changmin?” I asked as he took one earphone out of his ear and gave it to me. As I put in the earphone, it was some more ballad music. I was beginning to love this music that touched your heart.
“I’m okay. But something was bothering me after I left yesterday,” he said. I looked up at him curious and saw he was staring directly at me. I looked away from him and tried to get lost in his music.
“What was bothering you?”
“Can you look at me Hyerin?” Instantly I looked at him and he smiled. “That’s what I thought,” he murmured to himself. He kept staring at me and it started to feel awkward.
“Changmin, why are you staring at me?” I didn’t take my eyes away from him this time though. Something in his eyes was now capturing my gaze.
Changmin inched closer to me. I felt my heart beat faster a bit from his closeness and felt a slight blush come upon my cheeks. “Can I just try something? Don’t be freaked out. I just want to try it.” I nodded not knowing what to expect.
He stood behind me and looked down at me. Gently, he wrapped his arms around me and hugged me from behind. I tensed up a bit. Changmin let go immediately of me, “I’m sorry, I’m making you uncomfortable.”
Suddenly, I felt bad for tensing up. He started to go back to my side, when I grabbed his lower arm. “No, I’m sorry. Try again, I won’t tense up this time.” He looked a bit unsure of whether to try again or not. I gave him a reassuring smile and pulled him lightly so that he was behind me again. I let go of his arm and waited.
He lifted his arms slowly and once again wrapped his arms around my petite body gently. This time I didn’t tense up though, I relaxed and placed my hands on his lower arms that were around me. I could hear my heart in my ears thumping loudly.
The wind hit me a bit from behind and his scent blew in my face. It was a different scent, something that would now become unforgettable to me.
Changmin put one of the earphones in my ear and then rested his chin on top of my head. “Thank you Hyerin.”
I patted his arm and grinned as the beat of the music matched the beat of my heart, “Sure, no problem. But Changmin, why was that bothering you?”
He hesitated for a bit before he spoke again, “You remind me so much of her.” My heart sank a bit. ‘Her’. Changmin had a ‘Her’. I let go of him and my arms fell by my side.
“This ‘Her’, do you love her?” I asked hesitantly.
“I did before,” he said with emotion in his voice. I closed my eyes and blew my hair out again. “But, I never got the chance to tell her that. I regret that now. But, because you resemble her so much, I feel like I sort of love you too.”
I opened my eyes and looked up at him. He lifted his chin off my head and looked down at me too. His eyes seemed a bit distant, but they were caring. I put my head down and blushed. “Don’t say that you feel like you love me. I’m not ‘Her’, I’m Hyerin. And, I just met you yesterday.” I said biting my lip.
“Yes, you are Hyerin. I’m not confusing her with you. You’re different from her. You have your own scent, your own smile, your own heart...,” he whispered into my ear. I felt a chill down my spine. I went out of his embrace and turned to face him.
“If I’m so different from her, how do I resemble her and make it feel like you love me too?” I asked curious. He was starting to confuse me and I didn’t like it.
He placed his hand in his pockets and shook his head, “The only way you resemble her is the way you blow your hair out of your face. You both do that the exact same way.”
My mouth formed an ‘O’ and I nodded. How can that one thing make him feel like he loves me? Suddenly, he brushed the hair out of my face and tucked it behind my ear. “You should pin it up or cut it though. Your face is too beautiful too hide with hair,” he said gently. My heart felt like it was going to explode. Oddly enough, I liked that it felt like it was going to explode. It made me feel warm inside and just happy.
He turned me around and hugged me from behind again. Instead of letting me listen to the music with him, he softly sang the song in my ear. His voice was mesmerizing me. I held onto his arms and felt like I never wanted to let go. Is this what it felt like to be in love or something? Never wanting to let go? Hyerin, you silly girl, you fell in love at first sight.
When I let go of him, he said we should meet here every day and listen to a new song together. I took his offer immediately. We headed our separate ways for the night and again, when I was almost out of the field and looked back, he was gone. How he moved so quickly amazed me. Nevertheless, I looked away and walked back home awaiting the next day.
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The days went on and we met at the field everyday. We listened to different songs, but they all had the same feeling to it. But lately, I noticed a slight change in Changmin’s expression. He seemed, sadder and a bit more distant. He was still caring and loving towards me, but it seemed like he was preparing for something bad to happen. Today, I wanted to confront him about it. We had gotten close and I didn’t want him to feel upset.
Before he could even hug me, I asked him, “Are you okay Changmin? Like, you seem really upset lately.”
His arms that were up before were now by his side. He looked away from me and stared into the sky. I waved my arms up trying to get his attention. “Changmin, don’t look away from me please. I want to know,” I said concerned.
Changmin sighed and smiled sadly. “I’m afraid that it’s time.”
I raised an eyebrow, “What do you mean ‘it’s time’? It’s time for what?” I started to get scared. I didn’t know what he meant by that.
He took hold of my hand and caressed it. “I can’t stay forever Hyerin. I only have enough time to correct what I have regretted.”
Out of nowhere, tears started to form in my eyes. “What do you mean? Changmin you aren’t making any sense!” I sobbed and my voice cracked. He pulled me into a hug and rubbed my back.
“Don’t cry. It’s my fault for getting to close to you. I shouldn’t have gotten so close to you because now it will be painful for the both of us. Hyerin, I’m so sorry,” he said trying to comfort me. I grabbed onto his shirt and sobbed into his chest. Was he saying goodbye? Like, I had no clue what he was getting at. All I know is that it hurt; it hurt a lot.
Changmin pulled me away from him enough so that he could speak again, “I no longer have any regrets. Hyerin, I love you. I can honestly say that I have experienced true love now. I do love you and you will be in my heart forever. Now, you are the only person in my heart. I will say it again and again. I love you, I love you, I love you,” he whispered. He whispered that over and over again, one tear coming down from his eye.
We cried together for a while and then he finally wiped my tears from my face. I sniffled and tried to give him a smile. It was small but it was there. He took his iPod from his pocket and placed it in my hands. I clenched it and held it tightly.
“This has all the music we listened to and more. I hope that you’ll listen to every song and have me in mind. Never forget me,” he said lacing his fingers with mine.
I shook my head, “How could I ever forget a guy like you? Changmin you will always be in here,” I pointed at my heart and placed my hand there. He nodded and bent down a little.
Changmin looked me straight in the eye and then lovingly placed a soft peck on my lips. I closed my eyes and then felt wind circling me. I opened my eyes and saw he was gone. Tears started to roll down my cheeks endlessly again and I didn’t want to wipe them away. I let the wind wipe them away for me. I smelt Changmin’s scent around me still and knew he was there in the wind. I turned back and started to go home, the iPod in my fist.
The next day, I decided to go back to the field. It had become a habit of mine and there was nothing else that I had to do. I stood in our spot, put in both earphones and turned on the iPod. Immediately a playlist popped up titled ‘Hyerin’. I clicked on it and the songs that we shared started to play. I felt the tears coming back and they ran down my cheeks.
I fell to the ground. The realization that Changmin was really gone was hitting me hard. I took out one of the earphones and sobbed. I sat there for a while letting the music be my background music. Finally, I stood up and stared into the distance. Then, the first song we listened to played.
I closed my eyes. “Changmin…,” I whispered into the wind. Suddenly, I felt his arms around me. It took me by surprise but I embraced the feeling. I knew he wasn’t there, but his scent was lingering around me. Changmin was there somewhere and now, he didn’t have any regrets. I knew that wherever he was, his heart and mine were in sync. In sync to the same song, to the same love.
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Hope that was a decent one-shot :P It's not the best but, it made my heart ache for some reason ahah!
Anyways, I will now end my superiorly long post.
Ps- please check out my friend's first story, she's nervous about it ehhe.
http://www.winglin.net/fanfic/OMGitsLove/
Comments please =)
05.10.09