Fan Fiction

Only A Shard Of You COMPLETE

by azn14

Chapter 19

|| Be Hurt ||

-Yoochun-

Jin was like a bomb ready to explode; his timer was ticking and I set it off. I felt myself slip out of his grip as he tried to make my face and the wall one with his fist. As he missed, I ducked under this arm and quickly ran into the classroom, trying to lock the door. I successfully locked it just in time and turned to see all my classmates and teacher staring at me oddly.

“Park Yoochun, would you like to explain what that commotion was about?” Mr. Yoon raised an eyebrow at me. I quickly shook my head and grinned.

“Everything is under control Mr.Yoon. Someone just lost their grip and fell in the hallway,” I replied as I backed away from the door. His eyes were suspicious, but he shrugged it off as he looked down at the papers on his desk.

I made my way to Saeri and saw her “smiling”. That was definitely not the smile that I have gotten to know. All the people crowding around her were in her face talking all at the same time. All she could do was nod and “smile”. She spotted me as she turned her head and her fake smile turned into one of those real smiles. I felt the corners of my lips tugging up as well as I saw her trying to part the crowd to get to me.

She came up to me and quickly mouthed, “I am so lost, help me!” I nodded and put my arm around her shoulder to comfort her. I turned her around so that everyone had their eyes on us. I could see the girls just staring with either shock or envy on their faces. I looked away from them; I didn’t have my arm around Saeri for the same reasons I had my arm around other girls before.

“I think that Saeri just needs a little air when she breathes. Try not to crowd around her too much. She still needs to take in everything; take it slow,” I warned them and put Saeri back in the middle of the crowd, but this time I sat right next to her with my arm still around her shoulder. With that, most of the girls left to their desks and that made it easier on Saeri.

I noticed most of the things people were telling her weren’t even about her. All they were talking about were things that happened in classes that she was ‘supposedly’ in, but they weren’t sure if she was or not. As I listened, I felt myself feeling sorry for Saeri. She had been sitting here not knowing what in the world they were talking about. Where were her friends that were in this class?

I searched the crowd for the girls that I thought I saw her with before. When I couldn’t find them, I heard girls laughing and saw who I thought were her friends sitting in the corner of the room laughing. “I’ll be right back Saeri, just wait for a minute,” I whispered to her before leaving her side.

As I walked to the girls, I really couldn’t figure something out. “Hey,” I said in my signature husky voice. All of them turned and started grooming their hair a tad.

“Hey Yoochun-sshi,” one girl replied batting her eyelashes at me.

“What are you doing here? Did you want to hang out with us?” another girl giggled and then winked at me. These were Saeri’s old friends?

Suddenly I felt myself being pushed into a desk. My butt landed with a thud and I heard the girls giggling around me. “Sit down Yoochun-sshi,” they all said in unison. I quickly stood up and shook my head.

“No it’s fine. I’m actually here to ask you guys about Saeri-ah,” I uttered quickly before they could touch me again. All their faces fell and they formed a big mob in one spot making me look like I was being interrogated by them.

“Saeri-ah? Seems like you’re very familiar with her now,” a girl who was in the middle said. I guess she was the one who had a lot of say in this group of friends.

“Well we are good friends now, but that’s not why I’m here. Aren’t you the girls she used to hang out with? Shouldn’t you be over there trying to help her with her memory or make her feel comfortable?” I asked. Were these really her friends?

They looked at one another and shook their heads. The girl in the middle spoke again, “We aren’t really friends with Saeri anymore. Ever since the day she started talking to Jin and stuff, she sort of was just not in the group. This group even split for a while because of her during the time she was in the hospital. She was the one who connected most of us together; it’s useless if there is nothing in her head about us.

“Besides, it doesn’t look like she needs us. She has you now, doesn’t she?” the girl ended her tone with a bit of attitude.

I narrowed my eyes and shook my head. “Unbelievable. This is the time where you should be true friends to her and be there for her. Why is everyone abandoning her now when she truly needs it? That’s truly pathetic.” I walked away from them.

“Yoochun-sshi,” I turned as my name was called, “right now, you might be happy with her, but later on, it will hurt you.” I looked at the girl who said that as she held up two cards with weird pictures on them by her cheek. I walked away again and tried to ignore that statement while sitting beside Saeri. I’m happy with her; so happy that my heart actually beats for her. Saeri wouldn’t hurt my feeling; one day, she’ll fall for me too.

-Saeri-

Being around a ton of people is not working for me so I’m glad that the teacher told the students to pack up all their things as it was almost the end of the school day. As I got my air back, I sighed and giggled at Yoochun who was imitating the last story that we heard.

“And then, it was just gone poof! It was like magic. My sandwich was gone in 2 seconds flat using my hands!” We both laughed hysterically and stood up clenching our stomachs. I’m glad he stuck by me for all these silly things. I’m glad to have someone like him protecting over me.

Yoochun grabbed his bag and we headed out of the school waving to the many people that Yoochun knew. We saw the guys outside and they thanked me for the free day. “You saved us from class Saeri-sshi! I couldn’t thank you enough. It was a reviewing day and I would’ve been really antsy,” Junsu bowed at me and smiled largely showing a pure image.

“Junsu-ah, I needed that review day! Social and math are my worst subjects,” Yunho whined.

“Its okay hyung, I’ll help you out. The important thing was that Saeri got comfortable right?” Changmin said looking towards me. Half of that was true. I got comfortable being in the school, but the people were still a bit too much for me.

The guys decided to have a study day at Yoochun’s house, so we all started to head out of the school grounds. As we walked towards the gate of the school, I fell over my laces and fell on my knees. “Ouch,” I whispered to myself as I rubbed my knee.

They all crowded around me and offered to carry me if I was hurt. I looked up at the friendly and worried faces. Shyly, I smiled and shook my head. “I’m fine, go on ahead, I’ll be right there.” They looked at each other sceptical about that. “I’m not in the hospital anymore. I need to learn to be a bit independent. Besides I just need to tie my shoelace and I’ll catch up within a few seconds. Go now.”

“If you need one of us to carry you, just yell okay?”
Yoochun furrowed his eyebrows at me in concern.

“Yes, Yoochun-oppa,” I replied. They finally started to walk again, but they kept turning their heads looking back at me until they no longer could and were already out the gate. I sighed and quickly did-up my laces.

With my hand on my knee, I stood up and examined the small patch of hurt on my knee. It wasn’t too bad, nothing a bandage won’t fix. I started to walk without thinking about it and then as I passed by a group of kids, I felt all their eyes on my back. I tried to ignore it; maybe they saw me fall.

I was almost out of the gate when I heard them yelling at me and snickering. All the comments were from guys, but I knew the girls were snickering and whispering the insults.

“Hey airhead!”
“Do you even know which is left and right anymore?”
“How could you lose everything by falling on ice? Dumb kid!”

I closed my eyes and continued walking trying to control myself. I can’t listen to them, they don’t know anything. They don’t know what I went through.

“Is Yoochun your crutch now? Can’t you do anything by yourself? You took away his life! He should’ve just left you alone in the hospital! He’s your personal dog now isn’t he? What else does he do for you? You probably are pretending to lose your memory just so that he will stay with you!”

I stopped in my tracks and my mind went blank. What did they just say? I shouldn’t turn around. If I turn they will be satisfied and will just keep going. No, I can’t let this go. They insulted the bond between Yoochun-oppa and I. No, I can’t let that go.

As I turned I saw Jin shoving all the guys who had something into the ground, making the girls run away from the scene. The guys cowardly ran away afterward and then Jin’s eyes met mine. Just as I was about to leave, he charged towards me and grabbed my arm. Jin tugged me forward and in the opposite direction of where the guys were going. I tried looking back but Jin was walking way too fast.

“Yoochun-oppa!” I yelled hoping he would hear me somehow.
Jin tugged me faster and pulled me into a basically deserted art shop. I felt his grip on my arm and patted it. “Jin can you let go? My arm is starting to lose circulation.”

“You promise not to bolt out of here? I have to talk to you.” I nodded and he let go. My arm was red where his hand held. He pushed a chair towards me and pointed for me to sit.

I sat and waited for him to say something. He just stared at me and I turned my head away from him. Silence and awkwardness were thick in the air. I saw the memories of Jin in my head again and remembered that they didn’t hurt. I still need to figure out why. I looked back at Jin but just by looking at him, there were no answers.

Just as I was about to ask him something, he started walking towards me. He bent down in front of me so that we were eye-level. His eyes were sparkling brown and his features weren’t so bad. Wait, I shouldn’t think about this!

He tucked a hair behind my ear that was misplaced with my bangs and frowned. “Saeri, there is something I seriously want to ask you, but I feel like it is not the right time yet. So instead I will ask something else,” Jin paused and looked at me sadly, “who does your heart beat for right now?”
____________________________________________
woah, earlier update than usual :) Man, this chapter really came out of nowhere. Sorry if there is any confusion with anything.
hope you all enjoy this update!
And all I got to say for this rant is: my mom needs to know how to loosen up :)

comments please; Always Keep The Faith

11.29.09