| Fan Fiction |
by JEdesu
It was weird. My mouth suddenly replied ‘New York’ word when my producer asked where was the location shooting for my video clip. My new song was handed on my hand. I read it many times…
I thought… I remembered someone.
I stood up, walked towards my piano and put the sheet in front of me. My fingers were playing the intro, then I began to sing..
| Mou nantonaku wakatteru kimi ga utsumuku wake wo
Wakare wo kiridasezu ni irunda yo ne |
| Actually I have sensed it, the reason why you looked down without speaking
It's all because of the goodbye which you could not say out |
|| “What happened? It was not like you.”
“Iie. Nandemonai.” ||
| Hodou ni ochita kage wa yorisotte kasanaru noni
Futari no omoi wa ima hanarete yuku |
| Our shadows on the road are getting closer and closer, almost overlapping
But why are our hearts growing apart |
|| “You’re mad, I know it.”
“So what will you do if you know that I’m mad?” ||
| Chigau koi ni deatte shimata kimi wo
Tsunagi tomeru kotoba mo mitsukaranai |
| You must have found someone new
I couldn't find reasons to hold you back |
|| “I’m in love with someone else.”
“Sou ka.. that’s why you act weird during this month.” ||
| Sayonara nante, owari da nante
Uso da to itte sore demo |
| Why the goodbye, why the ending
You said these were lies |
|| “Do you still love me? Rei?”
“No. I’m sorry. I don’t love you anymore, my feeling has change.” ||
| Hodoita te wa tsumetaku naru
Bokura wa tanin ni naru |
| Even though you've said that, the hands which had let go were getting cold
We are becoming strangers |
||“I’m really sorry, maybe it wasn’t enough but—”
“I’ll never forgive you.” ||
| Gomen ne nante mou nakanaide
Dakishimete shimau kara |
|Why the apologies, please don't cry
'Cause that would lead me to hold you tight again |
|| “Don’t cry.”
“I’ll never forgive you, but I’m sorry for saying those words to you.” ||
| Kasaneta omoide ga itami ni kawaru sono mae ni
Hora saigo wa egao de Say goodbye... |
| Among the layers of memories, before they turned into painful moments
Let us smile and say goodbye |
|| “Then, bye… Yamashita.” ||
Hoshina Rei?
“Yamapiii~”
I turned my head. “Uso… Toma?”
“Yo. Where’s your single? It named Loveless, rite? Where is it? I want to hear that!”
“We’re seldom to meet each other and you’re here just for asking my single, eh? Ja. Here’s the lyrics. Read it first.” I gave that paper to him.
He laughed. “Gomen, chuu… I miss you.”
“Disgusting.” I laughed too.
“Then, I’ll read it.”
So, where were we? Ah, yes, that Hoshina Rei. I didn’t have any news about her. Since she said that she loved someone else, and she hated me. It was useless for trying to find her address and began to make a good relationship with her. She hated me already.
“It’s good.” Toma gave that paper back to me.
“That lyrics, reminds me of someone.”
“Huh?”
“That girl, when we were in High School.”
I felt Toma didn’t make a little move.
“Do you still remember her?” I asked.
“Oh, Rei-chan, rite?”
“Yes.” I wandered around. “It have been five years. Phew.”
“Err, yes, five years.”
“I wonder what is she doing in New York now.”
“She’s happy.”
“Of course, she has a someone who—“
“Iie. She still loves you.”
“Eh?”
Toma smiled. “Five years ago, all of her words is a lie. She lied to you because she felt that she disturbed your job. Are you happy to hear that?”
I didn’t say anything.
“Oi?”
“I’m not happy. I also have someone else right now.”
“Childish answer!” he hit my head, but it didn’t hurt. “I’m not talking about Kagami-chan.”
“So?”
|| “Te—tell him.. I’m happy.. in New York.” ||
“Nothing.” He stood up. “She just happy.”
“Sou ka.” I stratched my head. “We… are happy.”
But honestly, I felt that feeling again, I was…
… loveless.