| Fan Fiction |
by starsplum
When Junsu was back to the care of his manager and members he refused to eat more than one meal a day, a meal so small that it is more like a bite. Seeing that Junsu is in no condition to be back at work, the manager can only send DBSK back in front of the cameras without the presence of Xiah. He ordered the rest of DBSK to keep Junsu’s signs of depression hidden away from the public, only telling the paparazzi that Junsu is taking a break off from work.
Since Junsu is not allow to step out of the DBSK dorm, he spend his day laying in bed staring at the ceiling, his mind wandering somewhere else. When he doesn’t feel like laying in bed anymore, he would walk out to the living room and plop down on a couch, turning the TV on and stare at the screen, his mind wandering somewhere out there again. Junsu would just lay or sit in their dorm all day, waiting for his members to come home. Most of the time, the members would come home late at night to find Junsu sleeping on the couch, and Yoochun would gently pick him up from the couch, careful not to wake up the soulless body and carry him back to their room.
Today, like every other day since Junsu is back from the hospital, is the same. After Yoochun places Junsu back in his bed, he tugs him in as he studies Junsu’s sleeping face. Yoochun noticed that Junsu’s sleeping face doesn’t look peaceful like it used to, it looked troubled and sad. Frowning, Yoochun changes into his pajamas and climbs into his own bed. He really wants to know what have gotten into Junsu, what caused him to stop laughing like he used to. He wants to talk to Junsu, but he never got a chance, since their schedules are so tightly packed, and even when he does have a little time to spare he uses it on Jaejoong. They barely spend any time as a couple, and he knows that Jaejoong is upset by this, even though he tries to hide it. Feeling guilty for thinking about Junsu so much, Yoochun reach for his phone on his bedside table and text Jaejoong goodnight to ease some of the guilt. He looks at the person sleeping on the bed next to him on last time and closes his eyes.
Yunho is lying under his blanket pretending to be asleep. When he is sure that Changmin and the others are all off to dreamland he got out of bed and tip toe to the kitchen. He slowly opens the cabinet under the sink and rummage through it quietly. When he found the bottle he walks to the dinning table with the liquor in hand, and sit down by himself, gulping mouthful after mouthful of strong liquor down his throat until he feels light headed and is ready to get sick. A single tear slide down Yunho’s face on to the dinning table, following immediately by another. Tears fall down from Yunho’s face on to the table continuously, making a small pool on the dinning table. He buries his head into his arms and bites into his quivering bottom lip in attempt to stop loud sobs from coming out. Within minutes, Yunho is asleep on the dinning table with his face stained by tears.
He have been doing this for a couple of weeks now, this is the only way he can let his sadness out without being seen by anyone and falls asleep. What he doesn’t know is that Changmin had found out since the first day Yunho begin this habit. Changmin was the first one to wake up that morning and was surprise to see Yunho’s bed empty. When he walked out to the dinning area, he discovered Yunho with tear stains on his face and a bottle of liquor in hand. Changmin quickly threw the bottle of liquor away and carry his hyung back to his room, knowing that Yunho doesn’t want anyone to find out about this. And Yunho just thought that he himself had somehow put away the liquor and climbed back to bed in his drunken state.
Since then, Changmin have been the one who wakes up in the middle of the night and carry his Yunho hyung back to bed. When Yunho threw up due to the alcohol he would clean up the mess for him. He have tried to throw away the bottles of liquor, but Yunho would always buy new ones and Changmin knows that alcohol is the only thing that can put Yunho out of his misery, so now he just dilutes the alcohol to make them less strong and hide the liquor back to the cabinet where Yunho stored them.
Changmin understands that Yunho hyung is not any more healthy mentally than Junsu hyung, the leader is just putting on a content face for the cameras and his members to see so that he wouldn’t be classify as being weak and worry people who care for him. Changmin realize that he is the only one who knows how to turn Yunho and Junsu back to their old self, but to do that, he would have to hurt Yoochun ad Jaejoong first. Either way someone he cares about would get hurt. He himself is hurting right now to see his friends suffering. There is no solution to this right now, not until Jaejoong and Yoochun realize who their true love is, not until Junsu and Yunho can be strong to their feelings.
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Chapter 13~! Finally!
Sorry for the long hiatus... *ashamed* I took a break from writing because I had to study for exam, but now that I am done all my exams have time to write again~
I promise I will update more frequently from now on~ Please forgive me~? *puppy eyes*
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