| Fan Fiction |
by starsplum
*knock knock*
“Junsu?” I called, “Can I come in?”
“… Ya.” Junsu replied from behind the door.
I open the door and see Junsu sitting on his bed staring out the window in an unlit room. I trace his gaze out the window and see a full moon hanging up in the vast dark sky alone. I search for the little twinkling stars, but found none. I close the door behind me and feel my way to my bed, sitting down on it slowly.
“Junsu… I thought you were happy a few hours ago when you were hanging out with me?” I disrupted the silence after a few moments of us sitting on separate beds, staring at the moon.
I redirect my eyes to Junsu’s silhouette, taking in the shape and outline of my best friend. It has an aura of sadness and loneliness surrounding it, trapping it in. I want to go up and hug him to make the depress feeling lingering on Junsu go away so badly, but I managed to hold myself back.
“I was.” He replied in a monotonous voice, still not looking at me.
“Then why are you like this now? What’s up?” I asked, trying to keep my voice in control without bursting in anxiety.
When I didn’t get a reply from Junsu I told him gently: “You know, if something is bother you, you can tell me and put some of the weights on your shoulder on me right? I am your best friend.” The urge of wanting to help him is strangling me, yet I can’t do anything about it.
Junsu still has his back towards me, and all I got from him was the cold harsh silence.
I got up and move closer to him. With the help of the soft moonlight I can see Junsu’s bed. Sinking down on the soft mattress I gently put my arms around him, holding him close. I feel his body stiffening at my touch, but I am not letting go. Circling him from the back, I try to give him all my warmth, hoping to melt the coldness in him.
I feel Junsu gradually relaxing in my arms, but he still refuse to turn around.
“Best..Friends…” Junsu mumbled in my arms. I can feel the two words vibrating through him to me.
Yup. Best friends. That’s what we are. Junsu is my best friend who can make me smile with his smile, touch my soul with his voice, and break my heart with his tears. The best friend I used to know so well of, but not anymore.
“You will be my best friend forever Junsu, no matter what.” I assure him. Even though I can’t understand him anymore, he is still my best friend. And nothing will change that.
“Best friend forever huh?” I heard Junsu replied with a weak laugh, his voice and his body slightly trembling. “You don’t understand do you, Yoochun?” He asked.
“… No Junsu. I don’t understand anything about you anymore…” I confessed and hug him tighter. “But you can explain to me! I am sure I will understand!”
I feel a drop of water on my hand and from Junsu’s unsteady breathing and shaking body I know he is crying. I turn him around slowly and see his red eyes drowned with tears that keep flowing out. My heart shattered at the sight.
“What’s wrong? Did I say something I shouldn’t?” I asked him worriedly, reaching up to wipe away his tears, but they just keep raining down. “Tell me why you are crying Junsu.”
“It hurts Yoochun…” Junsu choked up. My eyes widen and I went into panic mode.
“What hurts? Tell me where are you hurting Junsu!” I asked anxiously, touching and checking him everywhere, trying to find something wrong with him.
“My heart hurts…” Junsu said, while putting his hands on my shoulders to try to calm me down.
Oh no. “Your heart?! Do you have a heart disease you didn’t tell me about?” I asked again, taking my cellphone out, about to call the ambulance when Junsu put his hand on the cellphone, indicating for me to put it away.
“Ya, I have a heart disease.” Junsu said while trying to suppress his sobs, then he look deep into my eyes. “I am heartsick of you… I want to be more than your best friend. I… I love you Yoochun.”
I stopped all my checking on Junsu, too shock to move. I look at him wide eyed and jaw dropped. That is not the heart disease I was expecting.
“J… Junsu…” I stuttered. I can hear my heart pounding loudly.
“It’s… okay Yoochun. I know you don’t like me back, and that you have Jaejoong hyung already. Just pretend I never said that.” Junsu said as he shifted his gaze down to the bed. “I understand if you don’t want to be my best friend anymore. I can leave DBSK too if you are not comfortable with me around.”
“N… No, don’t leave DBSK.” I managed to say, still too shock to say anything more. I cannot let mine and Junsu’s personal problems ruin the DBSK we used so much efforts to build. Yunho and Changmin had nothing to do with this.
“I am going out for a bit...” Junsu said and left the room, leaving me sitting by myself on his bed under the lone moonlight.
“WHO THE HELL PUT A GLASS OF WATER IN THE MIDDLE OF THE HALLWAY?!!!!!” Came Changmin’s voice, which reminds me that we are never alone. Someone is always by your side. I made a mental note to tell Junsu this as I smile to myself.
--End POV--
*Out in the hallway*
--Changmin’s POV--
“WHO THE HELL PUT A GLASS OF WATER IN THE MIDDLE OF THE HALLWAY?!!!!!” I yelled after I tripped on a half full glass. Great, now my feet and the floor are wet.
I see Junsu walking down the hallway and was about to ask him to get me some paper towel when I noticed the pained expression on his face and his red puffy eyes that are staring aimlessly.
“… Junsu? Are you okay?” I asked gently while pushing him slightly away from the puddle of water he was about to step into. Junsu hyung didn’t reply me, instead he kept walking until he reached the living room. He sits down onto the couch and tears start dripping down his face.
I quickly pick up the glass from the floor to the kitchen and put it in the sink, then got some paper towel to clean up the puddle and my feet. I walk into the living room after I am done and sit on the couch with Junsu, cuddling him without saying anything. I can already guess part of the reason for his tears, Yoochun hyung. I wonder what happened? But I won’t force Junsu hyung to tell me until he wants to tell me. For now, I will just give him a shoulder to cry on. It sure is hard to be a maknae… sigh.
--End POV--
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Chapter 18~!
Yoosu!!! ...and more angst, lol.
I hope you all like angst, or else you will be suffering painfully in this fanfic, haha~