Fan Fiction |
by ^D___B^
There are some people that you spend your whole life trying to meet, but never seem to see them. There are some people that fate binds you to. Even if you want to escape, no matter how far you run, you will always meet them.
It is like that for me and... her.
It was raining heavily. The fans who were watching me and my team play dispersed quickly. Just as I was rushing for cover, laughing, I noticed a familiar face.
Fair skin, long raven hair and a forlorn look- yes, I checked, it was her.
I waved to XiaoZhu and GengHong, gesturing that I would see them later. They saw her... and then came to understand.
She didn't smile as I approached, even though we were both being drenched, she didn't try to run for cover.
"It's been a long time since I've seen you," She managed a small smile, "How are you?"
I tried to play it cool. In actual fact my heartbeat was accelerating at an impossible rate. "Uh," I nodded, "Fine. What about you?"
She smiled and lowered her head. The raindrops were hitting us with a vengeance. "How about," she asked, "Lunch?"
I nodded enthusiastically, "Now?"
"Dui," She laughed, "Unless you prefer to talk in the rain until dinner time?"
I grinned, shaking my head.
We travelled on my motorbike. I followed her directions to a Dim Sum restaurant. This area of Taipei was so used to my frequent visits no one bothered to scream my name anymore. But they did greet me happily.
She ordered all my favorite dishes, rattling them off from memory.
I remembered how when I was sick, she cooked porridge and left it at my doorstep. I felt my heart wrench. How can lovers become friends? After all these years we still can show affection for each other, but that affection can no longer find a reason to continue.
She took out a book on musical compositions, and said that she thought I would like it. I readily agreed.
We talked about music, poetry and fashion. She's forgiven me, I realized. But while we talked, there was no way I could ask her if she was still living alone, or how her days have been... those personal questions can no longer turn up when we're friends.
And for the first time, I realized that pretending that nothing had happened, pretending that we could still talk normally, is the worst pain I have ever felt.
We sat in silence for a long time, hardly touching the dishes.
"Are you thinking of ways to save me?" She quizzed.
"I-"
"I'm just joking," She interrupted my answer, forcing a smile, "I'm on the brink, there's no way I can be saved."
People keep asking me, Jie Lun, when will you get yourself a girlfriend?
I shake my head, mumble some answers.
Yet I think, maybe after... I get over her.
Huang ShuMin.
There is a myth that I heard when I was a child. A swan's song is the beautiful legendary song sung only once by a swan in its lifetime, as it is dying.
A swan's only
and final
song.
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Xiang Ku
Eason Chan
Xiang Yue Zai Yi Ge Shi He Liao Tian De Xia Wu
Meeting on an afternoon suitable for a talk
Fen Kai Hen Duo Nian Man Yi Wei Mei You Bao Fu
Separated for so long I thought there was no more burdens
Wo Hai Da Suan Hui Gu Wo Men Wei He Jie Shu
I even planned to reminiscence how we ended
Hai Xiang Wen Ni Shi Bu Shi Yi Ge Ren Zhu
And ask if you were living alone
Dang Ni De Xiao Rong Gei Wo Li Mao De Zhao Hu
When you smile at me as a polite courtesy
Dang Wo Xiang Shu Shuo Zhe Xie Nian Lai De Gan Chu
When I want to say how I've felt these few years
Ni Que Dian Le Man Zhuo Wo Zui Ai De Shi Wu
You call a table full of my favourite dishes
Jie Shao Wo Kan Yi Ben Tian Wen Xue De Shu
And recommend me a book on astronomy
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Wo Xiang Ku Bu Gan Ku Nan Dao Zhe Zhong Xiang Chu
I want to cry Don't dare to Unless this way of being together
Bu Xiang Wo Men Meng Mei Yi Qiu De Xing Fu
Is not the happiness we pursue in our dreams
Zhou Xia Qu Zhe Yi Zhong Shi Kuan Rong Hai Shi Tong Ku
Walking down this path Is it generosity or pain
Wo Xiang Ku Zhe Me Ku Wan Cheng Ai Qing Lu Tu
I want to cry How to Cry Complete this journey of love
Tan Tian Shuo Di Shi Zuo Li Xiang De Chu Lu
Talks of this and that is the most ideal outlet
Tan Ying Yue Tan Shi Shi Bu Shuo Ai
Talk about music Talk about Things Don't Talk about love
Ruo Wu Qi Shi Yuan Lai Shi Zui Hen De Bao Fu
Pretending nothing is wrong is the worst form of revenge
Dang Wo Xiang Tan Bai Wo Men De Le Duo Yu Ku
When I want to be frank about our joys more than our sorrows
Ni Shuo Shui Xing Ta Mei You Wei Xing Hao Gu Du
You said Mercury doesn't have a satelite how lonely it must be
Wo Cai Ming Bai Shi Jian Jiao Fen Shuo Hai Can ku
Then I understand how time deals with break-ups in a more heartless way
Lao Peng You Le Zai Mei Zi Ge Bu Man Ju
Once we're old friends we have no right not to be satisfied