| Fan Fiction |
by syu_chun
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Dr. Jung Yunho and Dr. Kim Jaejoong both standing in front of the mirror. The sight of unhealthy person inside the white room disturbing them.
“Jae... it's already 2 months.”
“Hmmm...” Jaejoong signed desperately.
“He's withdrawn, lethargic, acting impulsively and alcoholic at first. Now, he's neglecting personal hygiene, insomnia and he's getting nearer to anorexia.” Yunho stated while looking at that person's file.
“Well... you realize it don't you. All the symptoms.” Jaejoong watched Yunho's face.
“'Total Behavior Clues to Suicide'” Yunho spoke with his sympathy voice. He remembered once he doing his assignment on Suicidal Case and he refer to Glasser-A person at risk of suicide is experiencing a crisis, and in each of the four components which make up a total behavior, there are common clues which a trained intervener should assess-”
Both of the Psychological Doctor looked over the patient again. The patient sat on the corner of the room, hugged his legs and hide his face in between.
“Today is his birthday. I wonder if he knows that.” said Yunho with a concern in his voice.
“He knew. He asked me to bring something today.” Jaejoong while his face was like pointing to the metal chair behind them. A bunch of roses. A bunch of beautiful roses with all different of colors.
“Rose?”
“Once I asked him about his life when I try to find the 'resources', Rose is Rose. Conveys words. Conveys meanings. Conveys love. Conveys death, Junsu's death. He just said that.”
“Just give him the roses.” ordered Yunho and Jaejoong nodded before walking to the chair and take the bunch of roses.
He slowly open the white room door while calling softly Yoochun's name.
“Yoochun... I bring you thing that you asked me yesterday.” Jaejoong walked slowly to Yoochun. Yoochun still in his position but now he was swing his body to front-back motion.
“You sure you don't want to look at it?”
Yoochun slowly raised his head and as his eyes realized the thing that Jaejoong talked about, he quickly got up from his position and take the roses.
Yunho who observed the scene quickly wrote 'fast reaction over roses' over Yoochun's daily file.
Yoochun hold the roses like his life depended on him. Jaejoong keep on asking.
“Yoochun... Do you remember why you want me to bring this today?” asked Jaejoong softly. Yoochun quickly shooked his head. He was too immersed with the roses he got from Jaejoong. Jaejoong sigh and looked at the mirror. Eventhough he only saw his own face, but he knew that Yunho outside can understand him. Yunho sighed too and scrabbled inside the file again. 'Experience short-term memory loss'.
“Another symptom that can lead to permanent insanity that can bring to suicidal” Yunho said almost like a whispered as he said it to himself. He looked back at Jaejoong and Yoochun inside the room.
“Today is your birthday. Yesterday, I asked you what do you want for birthday and you said a bunch of colorful roses. So here it is.” said Jaejoong with smile upon his face. There was slightly a confuse reaction from Yoochun. Yoochun suddenly hold onto Jaejoong both arms.
“Did I asked Junsu to be here too?” asked Yoochun excitedly. The eager in his eyes made Jaejoong shocked.
“No... you only asked for this.” Jaejoong said with uncertainties. He pointed to the roses that he brought before.
“Ahh... Junsu supposed to be here. Today is my birthday!” Yoochun said and pouted. He looked hurt and stared to look sadly at the roses.
“Yoochun. Don't you remember what happen to Junsu.”
“Junsu... why? Was he around? I want to give him this roses. This time 3 red, a pink and a yellow. I will arrange it by red, red, pink, red and yellow. 'I love, admire and LOVE you friend'” Yoochun said and started to look around. But suddenly he realize he was in this white room and he was been in that room for a reason. The realization hit him back. He hold tighter over the roses and started to cry.
“Yoochun...” Jaejoong called and hold his shoulder.
“He's dead, isn't he?” Yoochun asked with sobbed in between words. The silent answer from Jaejoong told him that he right on the first place. Yoochun cried loudly and began to hide his face again.
No point to be there, so Jaejoong left Yoochun crying alone in with the roses in his hand. Opened the door slowly and looked back at crying and mumbling Yoochun.
“Junsu... Junsu... Junsu...” mumbled Yoochun alone with his body switch to the same position before. His hand hugged his long legs. He hide his face and the roses stuck between his head and knees. There no more cries and the body start moving front-back motion.
Jaejoong closed the door and looked at Yunho with his eyes and shooked his head again and again. Yunho sighed before smiled to Jaejoong.
“Take a rest Jaejoong. You need it.” told Yunho and start to show Jaejoong the way. Side by side they walked away from the white room. The room that Yoochun has been for two months...
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“today is my birthday... not yours...”
“still... I want to wish you happy...”
“wish you a good fortune”
“wish you still be beautiful as ever”
“wish you say that you love me”
“My wish?”
“I don't have a wish... it's your wish that I want to fulfill”
“wait... I think I know what I want Junsu”
“I wish I were dead along with you.”
From the end of the long hallway... Jaejoong and Yunho can hear the cries... Yoochun's Clues of Suicidal.
[END]