| Fan Fiction |
by syu_chun
Yoochun realized to acknowledge the change of atmosphere that turned to dark grey. The cloud darkens like it was asked Yoochun to stay for extra hours in the hospital. Somehow Yoochun felt that he better stayed. It was going to rain for sure. A moment later, the cool night breeze was caressing his cheeks and he closed his eyes at the feel of fresh air filling his lungs.
The rain started to fall heavily. He tilted his head over his desk. The sight of red umbrella on his desk made him smiled to himself. Junsu was a physic! He was a whether teller. Before Yoochun left to work, Junsu put the umbrella next to his briefcase. How very thoughtful. Yoochun sighed as he remembered his spouse kindness. He knew that Junsu also been forced to marry him but Yoochun can’t help but to think that Junsu might be falling for him. Guilt had immediately flown in. He felt horrible for going behind Junsu's back and had taken all of his mixed feelings out on his spouse.
Thunder roared from the sky. Yoochun flinched to the loud sound and realized that his cell phone been rang for a while. Quickly reached over the phone, he could see the word ‘YH-bb’ appeared. Smiled shyly he quickly picked up the call.
“Hey…” Yoochun softly said to the man on the other side.
“Yoochun, come to The Maze Bar now.” desperately voice formed through Yunho's larynx.
“What? The Maze? Why?” Confused with the tantrum that been
“Just come here OK. Do you know the place?”
“I do. It’s where Jun… I’ll be there in 15 minutes.”
Yoochun hung up the call and wondered the strained voice of Yunho. Yoochun looked outside from the glass window. The rain began and seemed to tell him that it was better if he stayed where he was now. Stayed at least until the rain stopped pouring. But he was paranoid and suspicious. Grabbed the umbrella on his desk, he wanted to find the rationalization of the strange voice of his love.
***
Yoochun pull down the umbrella once he was in the front of The Maze. He remembered this place as Junsu’s place in his bachelor day. Junsu told him once. Never knew how Yunho knew about this place too, and he was going to find out. He walked slowly into a very dark bar. Carefully not to slipped or knocked anyone, he heard his call phone rang again. Picked it up, he can hear Yunho told him that he was over the right side of the bar. The strained voice was still been heard by Yoochun despite of the loud song from the dance floor.
Eyes darted to everywhere, he found Yunho suavely in tux standing across from the place he stand now. He walked fast towards Yunho and smiled lovingly to him. Yunho’s face totally disheartened Yoochun. Tried not to make false expectation, he kept on smiling eventhough after Yunho saw him, his face wrenched.
‘He must be stressed out from work’ Yoochun keep on telling himself. Kept the smile upon his face, he marched quicker to Yunho. Every step he took his brows knitted deeper as Yunho suddenly lowered his head to the floor.
Determined to make Yunho let go of what bothered him, he almost hugged him to his embraced. But as he came closer, he realized there were two other figures sat on the long sofa just behind Yunho. He stopped as he realized the people that figures belong too and his hand still hung in the mid-air from his previous action. Yunho realized that Yoochun already knew so he gently hold Yoochun’s hand and put it back to his side. Looked at Yoochun’s brown eyes, he slowly spoken with his grim voice.
“Chunnie, they knew. Jaejoong found your message in my cell phone.”
“If it was Jaejoong, then why Junsu…?” Yoochun tried to surpass the alarmed.
“I don’t know… but they knew each other.” Yunho looked taken back with all the sudden situation. Somehow, Yoochun felt outraged and felt that explanation could make Junsu understand. Of what? His betrayal?
Yoochun let himself go from Yunho’s gripped and quickly walked towards Junsu.
“Junsu… I can explain”
“Explain? What about confession?!” Jaejoong shouted as he stood up between Yoochun and Junsu.
“I’m not talking to you. How dare you bringing Junsu here.” Yelled Yoochun with his eyes looked accusatory to Jaejoong’s dark eyes.
“Why can’t I? So both of you can still lie in front of our face?”
“Step away! Junsu, please listen to me… I said step away! I want to talk to Junsu! Who are you anyway?”
“You are cheating with my spouse!” screamed Jaejoong against Yoochun. For once, Yoochun hold his tongue. This was the first time he ever looked at Jaejoong as closed as like that. After three years of Yunho’s marriage, this was the day he finally met Jaejoong eye to eye. Guilt smacked him through his face. Ashamed to look Jaejoong straight to his eyes, he stared to the floor and tried to slip to Junsu from Jaejoong right side. But Jaejoong blocked him from moved again.
“Stop blocking me!” Shouted Yoochun impatiently.
“It’s my job to protect Junsu now!”
“Protect? Who are you to Junsu anyway!”
“Ah… Good question?! Do you think that you and Yunho were the only lover here? Junsu and I were together since high school and…”
“What?” Yunho suddenly involved with the conversation that he once just been the listener. He looked at Jaejoong red face with question eyes.
“Me and Junsu just like both of you.”
“You and Junsu…? Junsu, was he saying the truth?”
“Yes!” Junsu said with his grimed voice as he somehow endured a very long-suffering.
All of them lost words for once. Then it was Junsu broke the silence with a strong tone of voice.
“At least we were not the cheater! We give our best to make this work. But you… both of you just make me sick.” Said Junsu before he pushed Jaejoong and Yoochun aside and ran to the exit. Yoochun sprung aggressively and the umbrella that he holds hit Jaejoong’s hips. Yoochun wanted to run for Junsu, but stopped as Yunho suddenly took hold of his arms when he passed beside him.
He looked back and they look at each other for a while. Understood the meaning of Yoochun’s looked, he slowly let go of Yoochun’s hand. And without looking back, Yoochun sauntered to the main entrance. Towards his spouse.
Felt defeated, Yunho slowly turned around to face his nightmare. He always imagined that this day would happen. It was actually better than what he was thought. At least they were in the place where it was noisy and no one heard they bickered to each other.
“Jaejoong… I know I’ve been bad. Trust me…”
“Don’t tell me that everything was all some tragic mistake!”
“Let’s talk about it please… so I might explain why you are wrong.”
“Yunho… am I the one being paranoid now? Being suspicious?” Jaejoong let go his disappointed sighed as he felt nauseous hit him when Yunho still wanted to explain when he just been caught red-handed.
Yunho kept on silence and looked at the floor. Lost with word, he just expected to take all Jaejoong anger.
“I can’t believe it! If you don’t love me at the first place, why didn’t you stop this marriage? At least we can be with the person that we love.” Jaejoong eyes now full with wet tears which made Yunho’s heart wrenched everytime he heard Jaejoong’s cracked voice.
“Even so, this sacred relationship has been betrayed. Don’t you have bit sympathy on me? It’s not like I’m happy with this marriage 3 years ago… but now. Every day, every night… your happiness is a part of my prayer.” Jaejoong voice became lowered everytime he uttered his word. And the end of it, somehow he was like someone who begged to be loved.
“Jaejoong. I’m sorry.”
“If I knew this would happen, I will do the same with Junsu. And so I can see your pathetic face like you see mine now! Do you want things to be like that?”
“Jaejoong! Please don’t say that. I know that what I have done…”
“It’s already done. The fact is that you betrayed me. If only… If only I had to choose… between betraying you and be with Junsu or betraying my love to Junsu like what I did for three years… I really hope that I have the courage to betray you! But I sacrifice my love to Junsu! Betrayed him for marrying you. And that ‘man’… Do you really love that man so much?”
“I…”
“Answer me!” Jaejoong yelled while his index finger showed the way Yoochun went out before.
“I do OK! I really do. You right! Maybe this marriage never supposed to happen! Or maybe… or maybe you and Junsu should be together eventhough we were married!”
“BUT I’M YOURS!” roared Jaejoong silencing the man in front of him.
“Mi… mine?” Stuttered Yunho. The sudden confession made him dizzy.
“I was yours the day we got married, the day you put this ring on my finger. Now, you tell me to go away. And telling me that I should be as low as you and Yoochun?” Jaejoong cannot helped but just to let his tears eyes to flow out heavily.
“You are saying that you are MINE?” for the first time, Yunho felt like his soul darkened for assignations. He unconsciously stepped forward hoping that Jaejoong body covered by his. Before he could reach that warm body, Jaejoong spoke with his strong voice. Unlike the weak and cracked one before.
“It’s hurts to realize that you never felt the same for me. I’m filing for divorce.” Jaejoong pushed Yunho out of his way and leaved the stunned Yunho alone. For the first time, Yunho felt stranded in the valley of disregard.
***
“Junsu… please stop running. It’s raining! You might get hurt!” pleaded Yoochun as he ran a meter behind Junsu. He has been pleaded again and again for Junsu to stop running. Especially when he did not covered his head from the heavy rain. His last word really worked as Junsu suddenly stopped on his track, made Yoochun stopped running too. Still a meter apart, they stood silently. Yoochun gripped his palms tightly to the crook handle of the umbrella. Took every stepped carefully as he didn’t want Junsu to run again, until Junsu also under the rib of the umbrella. Shielded from the heavy rain, Yoochun tried to took hold on Junsu’s hand but he too afraid to do that.
“Never… Ever… say about being hurt. You don’t know what it meant.” Junsu’s face was so pale it scared Yoochun to his bone.
“Please understand Junsu. We’ve been force and I was so… aish!” Yoochun sighed in frustration as he knew that anything that came out from his mouth was not come out good.
“You’ve been lying to me from the first day.” Accused Junsu truthfully.
“Yunho was my true love since we were young and I just can’t…”
“If with him was a true love? Then what actually that we shared for all these years? Lust?!” Junsu turned to face his spouse and blamed him with his high pitched voice.
“Stop it Junsu!”
“It was so frustrated to realize now that in the end… there was no desire from you. Not even the simple desire for companionship. It has been because of disappointment and failure right? Is that what you felt everytime you sleep with me!” Junsu kept on screamed and he shed his tears while looked at Yoochun.
“Junsu, stop acting crazy.” Begged Yoochun.
“Answer me! Am I just the place where you throw your disappointment and failure! You fucking cheater! ANSWER ME!” Junsu screamed and started to hit Yoochun’s chest again and again. Yoochun can only stood still and received every punched from Junsu to his lifeless body. Every word from Junsu came into his brain like an arrow. He did not know if Junsu said the fact but Yoochun knew nothing of it was the truth.
He never been with Junsu because he was disappointed, he just liked Junsu everytime he saw Junsu cooked his meal, washed his clothes and tied carefully of his necktie before he was off to work. It wasn’t like he didn’t like Junsu, and more to hate this kind, caring and perfect spouse. It just Yunho was around and he always weak when Yunho was around. It was like a drug.
He pulled Junsu into his arms and embraced the smaller man lovingly. Tears in his eyes shown that he also hurt by the complication that happen around them. They stayed for a few minutes before Junsu regained his sanity and pushed Yoochun away. Once again, Junsu been poured by the heavy rain. Yoochun tried to cover his spouse back but Junsu took a step back everytime Yoochun came closer.
“Never put your arms around me again. I felt sick!”
“Su… if only I could…”
“Do not hugged me especially when you’ve decide to kill me next.”
“Junsu… what are you talking about?”
“A doctor supposed to save people lives right? But all you do is killing!”
“Junsu…” Yoochun started to really beg for forgiveness.
“You’ve forced me to give it a thought.” Strong voice came out from Junsu.
“Thought?”
“Before this chain of marriage entangled us to be more complicated, let us be free.”
“Junsu, I know that you hurt.”
“The feelings of betrayal and hurt may take time to heal. But I doubt that time shall heal the pain that I felt now. Yoochun… I want a divorce!”
Last word from Junsu left Yoochun crushed and his palms has no longer energy to hold the umbrella and so he let go the crook handle and let the rain washed away the mixed feeling he has as he can only watched Junsu ran disappearing among the people walked on that street.
[END]
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Will they divorce and be with the person that they really love. Or will Jaejoong and Junsu decided to forgive their spouse? Stay tuned until Simply Complicated Part III… see you soon!!!