| Fan Fiction |
by syu_chun
Park Yoochun kept press on the tip of his pen followed by his heart beats. The harder the beats, then his thumb was pressed on faster. His eyes focused to unknown spot and his mind flooded with what tomorrow reserved for him.
Sighed heavily for been so frustrated of what was going to happen, he harshly put the pen on the table and started to find anything on his table to distract him from thinking. Found a ‘Reflex Hammer’ on his desk, he grabbed it and tried to focus the used of this item that once his learned if in his Medical College.
“Focus Park Yoochun. Do not think of anything else.” He told himself while he held the hammer with both of his palms and shut his eyes.
‘The reflex hammer is used to illicit deep tendon reflexes throughout the body… there was no desire from you… used to test for the sensory modalities of pinprick and light touch… It has been because of disappointment and failure right?... signal then travels down the lower motor neuron to the target muscle… Is that what you felt everytime you sleep with me!’
“NO!” Shouted Yoochun suddenly as his mind cannot stop thinking about last week declaration. He felt that his head wanted to explode everytime he remember the scene. Remember Junsu's hurt face. And remember the thing that will take place tomorrow. He held the hammer tighter in his hand hopefully that it can less the burden. Then, he wanted to throw the hammer across the room.
Too engrossed with his deep thought, he didn’t realize the knocked on his door and tried to throw the ‘Reflex Hammer’ directed to the door but stopped as the door opened.
“Hey… May I coming?” Dr Shim Changmin suddenly appeared at the door. Changmin realized Yoochun’s action and acted along like he ready to dodge the instrument. The tall and handsome man at the door acted to move to his right and left side ready to slither away the hammer.
“Stop it Changmin. What do you want?” Yoochun slammed the hammer harshly on the desk instead of throwing it. Shim Changmin was his colleague since they were just trainee on that hospital. He was the maid of honor when Yoochun got married. He knew all his stories, in fact he was the one that saw Yunho everytime Yunho came over to see Yoochun. Changmin walked closer to one of Yoochun’s drawer across the room where Yoochun kept all his medical instruments. Opened one of it, he sighed, looked over Yoochun bitter face and started to mock his friend.
“I’ve told the nurse to get rid all your surgery knives from your room. They were getting so disobedient this day. What if suddenly they saw their most favorite doctor killing himself? Aish… we really need to teach them to listen.” Changmin acted as he sighed again and shook his head disappointedly.
“Very funny! Now tell me what you want before I really throw this hammer.” Yoochun held back the Reflex Hammer on his desk.
“Yah! Chill out buddy! I just came here to give you this.” Changmin threw Yoochun a big brown envelope. Yoochun’s fast reflex grabbed the envelope. Eyes suspiciously looked at Changmin while his hand ripped the envelope. Took out the paper inside he changed his gazed from Changmin to the things on his hand. Shocked to what written inside, he eyes darted to Changmin questionably.
“What is this?”
“Place where you will not throwing anything to the others.”
“Stop mocking me, Changmin. Tell me who decide this?”
“I asked the Director myself and he agrees.”
“Japan?”
“…is a good place to relax and not to be stress out.”
“Why me?”
“Why not you?”
“I…” Yoochun felt silent to think over the decision to relocate him to Japan. Was it a good decision? Is that mean, he and Junsu will never have any chance anymore? What can he do? The date has been chose and it will be tomorrow. Understand the problem that troubled in Yoochun’s head, Changmin sighed softly and sat on the guest chair in front of Yoochun.
“This will only take place as soon as you decide that you accept the offer. You don't have to do it right away.”
“The relocation only takes the day after tomorrow. There's no time to think.”
“Like you have anything to think about after tomorrow?” Changmin facts shocked Yoochun to hell. He was right. After tomorrow, whatever resulted that turned out, he have to make his decision. Whether to stay… or be gone forever. It’s not only left Junsu behind… but also Yunho too.
“But Yunho…”
“I may not say this before, but do you really want to be with Yunho after the divorce?” asked Changmin and his face changed its color.
Yoochun kept on looking down and realized not only his divorce that took place tomorrow, but also Yunho and Jaejoong. As typical and coincident as its sound, their marriage separation will be started on the same day and same time but at different places just because they married on different places.
“Well, I just want to say. You may look at me being cruel to do this to you. I hope that you could stay here too. I’ll be missing you if you are not here.”
“Thank you Changmin.”
“Please do not thanking me! No! Don’t you understand what I'm trying to tell you?”
“What are you…”
“I want you stay here. I really do. But I want it because of Junsu. Not Yunho! Look Chun, I’m sorry. I know I shouldn’t be like this, but… it’s up to you. You should decide what the best for you.” Stuttered Changmin and he got up from the chair and walked to the door. Yoochun did understand especially when time to time, Changmin reminded him how lucky he was to have Junsu. Yoochun knew that Changmin always concern about him and he never thank him for that. Yoochun managed to call him when Changmin held on the doorknob.
“Changmin. I still want to thank you. For everything.” Yoochun said with his low voice. He saw Changmin’s shoulder moved as he sighed. He turned his face back too Yoochun and smile for his dearly comrade.
“I just hope that Japan will rarely quake when you're there.” Said Changmin and he closed the door, took himself out from the trouble. He has just done his part.
Yoochun smile bitterly after Changmin out of his room and suddenly his cell phone rang. ‘YH-bb’ on the line and he pushed the button and answered the call.
“Yunho…”
***
Yunho took days off after he received Jaejoong’s lawyer letter. He didn’t have to open the letter to know what was inside. He sadly looked at the ripped envelope. In fact, until today, he did not have the courage ripped the envelope to see what inside. It was Jaejoong who did it. It was happen 2 days ago when Jaejoong realized that the letter still sealed, and for the first time in that week, Jaejoong ever spoke to Yunho.
“Yunho!” called Jaejoong harshly to Yunho who been sat alone on their veranda. Yunho’s eyes pop open when he heard the voice he did not managed to hear for days. Excited he was, he turned his back to see Jaejoong stood at the sliding door and he quickly get himself up to listen to what Jaejoong want to say.
“Jaejoong…” a small smile craved upon Yunho’s face when he called Jaejoong’s name.
“I see this on your desk! Why didn’t you open it?” asked Jaejoong severed against Yunho. Yunho sighed to see the envelope.
“I… don’t want to.” Yunho told him and part of him was very disappointed as Jaejoong called him to remind him the letter that he refused to read.
“Ah… you don’t want to? OK! Let me read it for you.” Jaejoong sarcastically spoke and ripped the envelope aggressively while smile mockingly at Yunho’s face. Took all the paper from inside, Jaejoong started to read the title and the contents but it wasn’t even got through into Yunho’s mind. Yunho tried his hard not to clamp his palms to his ears. Jaejoong keep on telling him everything and Yunho did not even paid attention but just kept on staring Jaejoong’s face.
“… and this will take place on 25th June 2009.” Jaejoong stopped his lecture and looked back his soon-to-be ex-spouse. Yunho flinched to realize the date that Jaejoong told him.
“25th June…”
“Yes! 3 days from today. So be prepared!” Told Jaejoong and he put back the papers in the envelope and harshly threw the envelope to Yunho.
It was 2 days ago and Yunho felt his anger filling into his heart. Tomorrow they need to be in court to cancel their Wedding Certificate and sign the Divorce Degree. Jaejoong really wanted to break up this relationship and why Yunho been so reluctant to grant the request? This is the time to get away from their complicated relationship before and what was more important, he can be with Yoochun. His love life for 18 years. Tried to not thinking twice, he grabbed his cell phone and pushed the fast dialed number 1. ‘YC-bb’ appeared on the cell phone screen and he put it to his ears.
“Yoochun…”
***
“We are in this together!”
“But…”
“This is what we always waiting for.”
“Yes but…”
“Don’t you love me?”
“Do you have to ask that question?”
“Then?”
“OK! We are in this together! Happy?!”
“OK!”
“OK...”
“Bye… I’ll call you tomorrow… after the…”
“OK! I understand. Bye!”
Beep...
***
25th June 2009…
What has done need to be done. It was a decision that he made. And it was the point of no return. Jaejoong opened his wardrobe and took out black tuxedo. Wore it and looked over himself through the mirror. He saw his own face... his own lips. Why did his lips refuse to twitch upwards like it used to be? Of course not today. Finished dressing himself, he picked up the big envelope on his table, he walked aggressively towards the door.
Jaejoong shut the door of his room before reached to the stairs. From upstairs, he saw Yunho just sat on the sofa with eyes darted to the floor. Like Jaejoong, he wore the same black tuxedo and Jaejoong remembered the day they’ve got married. Yunho has the same expression. Stood silently and only looked at the floor. After years, then Jaejoong realized that he acted like that because he felt regretful. So why do he has to do the same today? Regret about the divorce? No way…
Jaejoong walked down and stood in front of sitting Yunho.
“Let’s go.” He told Yunho and walked to the main door of the house. Yunho followed him silently from behind. Both of them get into the car and Yunho started the car engine and drove away. Still no words between them, and Yunho started to switch on the radio. Jason Mraz 'I'm Yours' was on aired.
Like air was taken from his lungs, Yunho suddenly can’t breathe. His palms was so sweaty and it was cold until he can felt that he was actually grabbed the wheel. Calmed himself, he pushed the off button on the radio but it wasn’t working. The song was still heard. Yunho’s panting for lack of oxygen and he started to push it again.
“I’M YOURS!” His remembered how Jaejoong yelled to him.
“SHIT!” Yunho screamed and pulled the car to the side of the road in a dangerous way and started to push the entire button on the radio to shut it down.
“HEY! WHAT ARE YOU DOING?!” Yelled Jaejoong as he was so shocked when Yunho suddenly stopped and acted like a crazy people.
“HOW DO YOU OFF THIS RADIO!” Yunho still pushed the button but he end up to made it louder. Jaejoong pushed Yunho to lie back on his seat and Jaejoong moved forward to reach the car key. He turned off the engine and pulled the key to his hand.
“We change seat now! You almost get us killed! I know I should drive my own car!” Jaejoong said and he got out from the passenger seat. Yunho still lay back on his seat and his breath is short and fast.
‘I’M YOURS’…
***
“So both you already decide on this?” The lawyer asked the two silent figures in front of him. As both of them kept their mouth shut, so the laywer just took out the document. One of it was their wedding certificate. Yoochun looked at it and somehow it was like a death agreement once ago. Now he knew that he never regret to get married to Junsu. Junsu was so kind and beautiful and he was the dreamed spouse that anyone wanted but can’t have. To let go someone so perfect like Junsu, might be the most stupid thing, but it was so cruel to let him suffered.
The lawyer pulled out one thick paper and shoved it to Junsu. Yoochun can read on top of it. ‘Divorce Degree’. That word made him breathless. Junsu took out his pen… 'Instead of counting birthday, I count blessing everyday' engraved along the side of the pen. It was the pen that Yoochun gave as birthday present on his birthday last year. Was he going to sign it with that pen? Yoochun looked at Junsu’s face and saw that he took a deep breath, gulped his own saliva and started to sign the paper. Without knowing, Yoochun quickly took hold Junsu hand.
“Junsu…”
***
“Mr Jung Yunho, please sign here. Your spouse already signs at his column for the agreement. After you sign here, then the obligation of being partners will not be upon both of you anymore. The wealth distribution will be further discussed by both of your lawyer after this.” Told the lawyer patiently to Yunho. Jaejoong just sat without sounds somehow just waited for the minutes for him to be released. Yunho took out his pen and put it where his signature needed.
Moved his pen on that paper, he sighed. Jaejoong looked with his corner eyes and quickly looked back at his front and he gripped his palms tighter. The lawyer tried to take back the paper on Yunho’s hand but Yunho refused to gave it. Watched Jaejoong side face, Yunho hold the paper then he shoved it to Jaejoong. Jaejoong shocked when the paper was been shoved to him and his eyes focused on the place where Yunho should signed.
‘Please be mine’
It was written on that paper with very messed handwriting but it still visible to read. Yunho quickly fall to his knees and took Jaejoong hands to his chest.
“Please. I know that I’m wrong. And I don’t deserve forgiveness. But please consider being my side again. I'll do anything. I swear!”
“Yunho…”
***
His cell phone rang. He could see ‘YC-bb’ appeared on the screen. That’s what they promised. To call each other. He picked up the call.
“Hey Chun…”
“Hey... I... Well, how was it goi..”
“He forgave me!”
“Eh?”
“I asked for second chance and he forgave me.”
“Ahhh… Well...”
“I know that we promised to…” Yunho started to spoke very quickly as he afraid that Yoochun was mad at him.
“Yunho, it’s OK!” Yoochun cut the words from Yunho.
“But we just promised that…”
“We are still together too. Junsu and I, we are still together.”
“Ah... really?”
“Really really.”
“Well, I’m glad. I’m sorry Yoochun.”
“No. We both should be sorry to them. Where’s Jaejoong? I don’t want to bring problem anymore.”
“He’s in toilet. I’m waiting for him now.”
“We better stop talking now. I don’t want to make him suspicious.”
“No… we will never do that again. So, I will delete all your account in my cell phone.”
“Wh... What?”
“Your number, your e-mail address and all of it. Truthfully, I remember everything. But I guess that I’ll forget it when the time comes. As long as I don't see it anymore”
“Ahh… you should do that. 'WE' should do that. And I will do the same with yours.”
“Yes… that’s for the best. Chunnie, I think Jaejoong might be out any minutes. So you know... well, we should stop talking now.”
“Hmm... OK.”
“Yoochunnie, we might not be talking anymore.”
“Yes. I know. We talked enough for 18 years. I don’t feel lacked... at all”
“I’m glad... that... we really in this together.”
“Yes. In this together. Always...”
“So… this is goodbye. Bye Chun…”
“Yes. Goodbye!”
Just before Yunho end his call… he can hear Yoochun called him again, so he quickly put his phone back to his ear.
“Yes?” Yunho asked concernly.
“Yunho-ya… I have a confession to make. I do came to your play that day.”
“Play?”
“Romeo and Juliet. I was telling you that I wasn't coming because I was mad about the kiss. And I...”
“Ahh... 'that' play. It was over decade ago and I really don't mind.”
“Oo... OK. Just want... to tell you that... you played... well. And another thing! Remember the day that I didn't came to the beach and I said that there was an emergency in hospital? I lied. Junsu wanted to meet his parents so I was...”
“Hey Chun... It's OK. Nothing all of that matters now. Past is past.”
“Oo...”
“It's really OK.”
“Yunho-ya. The past years of my life have been filled with extreme hardship. And you bring out the positive things to take place in my life, and still there were times that the bad always seems to outweigh the good. Still... I felt thankful and blessed.”
“Chun...”
“Just want to tell you that we are going to be fine. I will be fine...”
“We both will”
“Yes. And Yunho-ya... I really love you. Bye.”
And so the call ended… and Yunho can hear Yoochun cracked voice form the other side.
***
Yoochun wiped the tears that kept on flowing to his cheek. Still hold onto his cell phone, he looked over Yunho’s contact where all of his information written and he deleted all of it. Then, he made his damped eyes and voice clear, his dialed a number. Waited for the answer, he wiped again his tears that never seemed were going to stop.
“Changmin… it’s me. I agree. Please arrange all the procedures and I’ll sign everything when I go to the hospital.”
***
“Hello. It’s done. I’m divorced”
“I did not. Sorry Su. I break our promise.”
“What?! That was not what we planned before”
“I know”
“I can’t believe this! You lied?! Well... congratulations to you. At least your spouse didn't divorce you. Go to hell in finding your happiness.”
“Su, don't be stupid!”
“What?! Now I’m being stupid! I had enough. My life full of betrayal. I don't care anymore. All Yoochun done was stopping me to sign with his stupid pen!”
“JUNSU!”
“So this is it, right?!”
“Hell no. The plan still on.”
“What?”
“Junsu! Do you think that I’m so damnful forgiving? At least not that easy!”
“Jae... what are you...”
“This will make revenge more sweeter baby. Much more sweeter!”
[END]
A/N: The ending was a cliffhanger… but I do not have intentions to continue this to Part4. Hope everyone find it OK!!!