| Fan Fiction |
by syu_chun
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Hyung… I Love You!
“I want to work.” said Changmin suddenly. He was on his knees besides Yoochun, his hyung and also his friend since they were in an orphanage house.
“What?”
“I’ll be working soon.”
“As what?”
“Anything will do.”
“Stop talking nonsense. I already put something on your bed. Go see whether it was the right one and after that we will have dinner.” Yoochun got up and walked weakly to the kitchen.
Changmin was on his knees and his heart hurted by the rejected request by Yoochun. He grunted loudly before got himself to his room. As he opened the door, darkness came through his eyes. Patted the walls to find the switch, he threw away his bag to his bed randomly eventhough the room was in dark, who knew better about his room than himself.
As the light became visible, he quickly laid his back on his bed and looking randomly on the ceiling. He wanted to work. He needed to work. He needed money and Yoochun hyung will never cope with his needs. Fees, books and not forgetting the vacation that his college peers has been planned on the end of the year.
Up till now, since they were out from the orphanage house almost 5 years ago, all his needs been fulfilled by Yoochun. And he always thankful for that, but he was a growing boy who has his own imaginations of living. Something that Yoochun would never understand.
‘I already put something on your bed’
Changmin remember Yoochun’s word and he up with elbows and started to look around. He grabbed his bag and he found a thick book under it.
“Ah…. Hyung never forget.” Changmin whisper to himself. Two days ago he spoke to Yoochun about the new book that he needed for his study. In that time, Yoochun bitter face answered Changmin’s question and he swore to himself as he never spoke about the new book again. Still, he cursed deep inside his mind as he knew that if he did not have the book, then library has to be his second home.
He tossed the book around. The book was so heavy and the price was so expensive. His professor told the whole class once about the book’s price. Just yesterday he was thinking that Yoochun will never afford to buy the book and now he hold the book and he can said that he owned it. He owned the book. Hot tears stings in his eyes. He remembered that day…
“Hyung! Take me along! Take me! Please!” shouted 11 years old Changmin while he hands pulled Yoochun’s shirt as the older boy reached to the main gate.
“Changminnie! Don’t be stupid. I’m old enough now. Next year I’m going to be 18. I can live on my own.”
“Changmin! Came here this once!” Shouted the woman from the orphanage house. She was running towards them and make Changmin hide myself at the back of large shoulder of Yoochun. Hiding behind 18 years old Yoochun made him fully disguised. He thought he was fully protected. Yoochun let out his small sighed at peeked over small Changmin on his back. Yoochun looked back at his front where the woman stood breathlessly.
“I’m sorry Mrs.Kim.” Yoochun politely bowed and the woman called Mrs. Kim harshly pushed Yoochun aside and took hold on Changmin’s hand.
“Listen to me boy! You are still under our responsibility. Wait until you old enough then you can go whenever the hell you want to go!” said Mrs. Kim and she unsympathetically pulled Changmin back to the house.
“Hyung! Take me Hyung! Please!” plead Changmin with eyes full of tears. Yoochun quickly turned his back towards the gate and took steps forward. Changmin still shouting and pleading and it hurts Yoochun the most. Gritted his teeth, he looked back at Mrs. Kim and Changmin and started running towards them.
“Hyung!” a happy voice came out through Changmin’s sore throat as he saw Yoochun running back to claim him. Yoochun quickly ran in front of Mrs. Kim and knelt in front of her.
“Please let him go with me. I swear I’ll never let anyone know about this!”
“You know that I will never allow you, don’t you?”
“Please. I’ll take care of him and you don’t have to worry.”
“Worry? Do you think that I’m refused because I’ll be worried of him? You know why he has to stay don’t you? Don’t play dumb Yoochun.” Mrs. Kim viciously said with her low voice. Yoochun still looked at the ground feared of the demon in front him. Changmin kept on crying and pleading to him and that was made him determined.
“I told you that I will not going to tell anyone about it. Including the government people.”
“You know that the government sent people to check over every month. And you also knew what happen when they found out someone missing don’t you?” roared Mrs Kim and she increased the energy of squeezing Changmin’s wrist.
“Please let go of him now. Please before…”
“Before what? Don’t think that now you are free you can threaten me!”
“The government will not realize if only one person has gone missing.”
“And if they do, they’ll cut the money into this house!”
“You stupid bitch! You never used the money on us!”
Mrs. Kim used her leg to kick Yoochun’s stomach and that was enough to make Yoochun crawled painfully on the ground. Looked over Yoochun pathetic situation, made Changmin boiled with anger. He sunk his teeth on Mrs. Kim hand and pushed that cruel woman aside. Took over the role of savior, he grabbed Yoochun’s hand and they both ran towards the main gate. Away from the house that kept them from the world and locked for years… years of no mercy.
Changmin promised himself on the day both of them got away, he will never became a burden to Yoochun. Yoochun stated that Changmin still young and should be thought well and have a good education, unlike him. Yoochun always told him that in order to free them from poverty, education was the only way. Yoochun took him to school while he was looking for a job. Changmin was really flattered to his Hyung and promised to himself that when the times come, his education will paid all the kindness of Yoochun.
Guess what…
The thick book on his hand told him otherwise. Unlike the others, he was gifted with a good brain. As he wanted to stop, opportunities kept on offering in front of his door. Yoochun smiled for Changmin, while Changmin have to battle with himself.
When all this going to end…
When will the exact time he can make up to Yoochun.
“Changmin. The dinner is ready. Let’s eat together.” Called Yoochun from the hall. Changmin wiped his tearing eyes and walked slowly to the hall. Yoochun still on the kitchen but the dinner already on the table. Two bowl of rice but only one that fully contain inside. Two cups of water but only one has milk in it. The other only have plain water.
Yoochun came out from the kitchen with a fried chicken on his left hand and a soup of vegatables on his right hand. Smiled lovingly towards his brother, he put the meals on the table and settled down on his chair. Changmin slowly sat down and waited Yoochun to read prayers. Finished, he quickly gave Changmin a pair of chopstick.
“There’s more rice in the kitchen. Feel free to add after you finish this one OK.” said Yoochun happily as he pointed to the Changmin’s bowl.
“Hyung, you just eat half…” Changmin stopped as Yoochun cut his word.
“The book? Was it correct? When you told me, I’m not really sure its title. I hope I got it right.” Yoochun almost chocked himself while talking as his mouth full of rice. Changmin was just nodded and Yoochun let out sighed of relief. Just after 10 minutes of dinner, Yoochun finished his and quickly took his bowl towards the kitchen.
“Hyung. Why are you in hurry?” asked Changmin concern.
“I have something to do tonight. Do not wait for me. Don’t forget to sleep early.” Yoochun came out from the kitchen and took his possession before quickly exited from the small house on the roof. Changmin continued eating as he heard a sound. Yoochun hyung’s cell phone. He forgot to bring it along. Changmin looked over the cell phone and did not recognize the caller. Curiously, he answered the call.
“Yoochun, we are short one person tonight. Are you free now?”
“Umm… yeah…” unknowingly how to answer, Changmin felt excited to know what Yoochun do at night.
“Good. I’ll ask someone to fetch you. Wait downstairs OK?!” ordered that person and cut the line.
***
Changmin waited for 20 minutes before a motorcycle stopped beside him. The man gave him a helmet and Changmin quickly put it on and sat on the motorcycle. That person drove away and they stopped at a bar. Not like ordinary bar. Changmin realized the type of that bar. Adult bar he always said. Changmin kind of shocked at first but he still managed to follow that man to go inside the bar using the back door.
“Yoochun?” someone called Yoochun’s named and Changmin knew that person already waited for Yoochun and expected for Yoochun to come over. Both men looked at each other for a while before the other man spoke.
“You are not Yoochun.”
“I’m his brother.”
“Where’s Yoochun?”
“He was out somewhere.”
“Aish… I can be mad to him. Today is not his duty.” Said that man to himself before looked back at Changmin.
“OK Yoochun’s brother. How old are you?”
“17… almost 18 and I can…” Changmin desperately added his word.
“Aish… you’re a minor! But it’s OK. You look old. Come with me. I hope you can wear Yoochun’s clothes.”
“I’m taller. It can be too small…”
“Then pray now because I don’t have any uniform for you. By the way, the name is Yunho”
“Changmin” Changmin nodded and can’t help to wonder what ‘clothes’ that Yunho talked about. Yunho walked so fast and Changmin has to do anything to keep up with him. Anything means tripped over something unknown and pushed people who suddenly appeared on his way.
Suddenly Yunho stopped on his track and Changmin almost knocked that person down. Yunho pushed Changmin into a small dressing room. Changmin widen his eyes to see all the type of clothes that was hanging there.
Lace…
Mini dress…
Gold legging…
Thongs…
Changmin slowly slide to the floor. He can’t help but to cried his heart out. That was what Yoochun did at night. He worked at a bar as a stripper. Or maybe worse… a whore. For what?! For Changmin to pursue his study. Was his book came from this dirty job? Changmin shook his head to keep his head cleared. He just compared Yoochun to something dirty when he knows that whatever his hyung did was all for Changmin’s own needs.
Pulled his knees to his head, he kept on crying to think how he has burden Yoochun until to that extent. Put his pride aside for money that not even for himself but to his pathetic brother. His loud sobbed been heard to the people outside and all of them crowded at the door.
Changmin looked at the door as someone opened it harshly. Still sobbing, Changmin saw Yunho’s face and there a lot of other faces behind him. Anger filled his heart to see at faces that looked at him. Stood up quickly he began barking to everyone in front of him. Blamed them for whatever reasons that Yoochun end up worked in that place. Everyone was taken back to his shouts but Yunho quickly took Changmin’s hand and pulled him to other room. Pushed Changmin inside the other small room, he smiled to Changmin.
“Sorry. Wrong room.” Yunho simple said as he closed the door. Changmin was taken back for a while before the smell of the room fills his lungs. It was Yoochun’s smell.
***
“What do you know about drinks?” asked Yunho.
“Drinks?”
“Cocktails? Martinis? Shooters?”
“Hmm…” Changmin really has no knowledge about alcoholic drinks especially when he never affords to buy one.
“Aish… Do you know other drinks that served in a bar?” asked Yunho patiently.
“Ooo… I know ‘Cherry Bing’” excitedly Changmin tried to show that college student like him do knows about drinks.
“OK! That’s good enough. Come here.” Changmin quickly followed that man to the other side of the bar where non-alcoholic drinks been served.
“Junsu. Swap places.” The bartender named Junsu quickly nodded and he off from that place to the place they’ve been earlier.
“OK! Keep on serving your ‘Cherry Bing’ now.” Yunho tried to walk away from that place but Changmin managed to call him back.
“What do you want now? I’m so busy right now!” Yunho almost shouted as he turned back to look at Changmin. Sighed to his rudeness, he walked back towards Changmin.
“If you are worried about Yoochun, don’t worry. I’ll tell him nothing.”
“Thank you. I’m sorry for shouting back then. It just that…”
“It’s OK and you can breathe now that you knew that Yoochun is not… hmm… them” said Yunho as he pointed his face to the people on the stage.
“Yes. I’m glad.”
“I think that you might be the reason of it.”
“What?”
“Nothing. You know what, Yoochun could be famous if he was up there. With that lips…”
“No! Hyung should just be here. Here… Behind this counter.”
“And that what he did. Behind this counter.” Yunho smirked before he turned away.
“Yunho-sshi. One last question.”
“What?!” Yunho getting annoyed with all the questions from Changmin. If only Changmin wasn’t a minor, he would not be too gentle to him.
“Did… well… Did anyone ever well you know… kind of approaching him when he was working here?”
“Approached? It kind of inevitable when he’s working here right? There are people who even asked for marriage.”
“What?! Marriage?!”
“Bye Changmin-sshi. Keep on a good work.” Said Yunho and left Changmin dumbfounded to his own thoughts.
***
“Yoochun”
“Yoochun?”
“…Hyung”
“Yes...”
“Will you going to get married one day?”
“What?”
“One day, if someone suddenly asked you. Will you get married?”
“I will never get married Changmin.”
“Ah… that’s good.”
“What? Are you happy if I’m not married and lead a happy life?”
“I want you to have a happy life of course, but I don’t want you to get married.”
Yoochun laughed and his hand reached to Changmin’s hair and made it messy.
“I don’t know what are you trying to say, but I get the point. I’m not getting married OK. At least not until you graduate.”
Changmin slowly took a step closer and wrapped his hand around Yoochun.
“Promise me that you’ll not get married OK?”
“I promise. Why are you being so weird today and asking me about marriage? I really want to why actually.” Said Yoochun as he laughed he turn back the warm hug by took his hand all over Changmin’s neck. He swore that Changmin got himself taller for a feet at least, and when they hug like this, he totally look like a girl.
‘Because I love you and I want to keep you for myself’ Changmin confessed to his own mind. He was 19 years old and Yoochun might see him only as his younger brother. What will happen if he suddenly confessed…?
“Because I can’t live on my own now.” Told Changmin on Yoochun’s neck and he tightens his hand around Yoochun. And so he’ll live with that answer… until the day, he managed to call Yoochun Hyung as ‘Yoochun’ and he can take care of Yoochun and proudly pronounce his actual words…
‘Hyung… I love you and I want to keep you’
[END]