| Fan Fiction |
by syu_chun
He's eating but his mind lost with his thought. Trying to remember every single line that Yoochun wrote. Certain word is not memorable by him and he cursed himself for reading it carelessly. He looks at Yoochun who is eating his dinner and hopefully to get back his memories over the lyrics. He may not realize on how his face frown over Yoochun, but when Yoochun stole a glance to him, Yoochun quickly look away and there's a red tint over his round cheek.
Without knowing, Junsu's face felt warm and quickly consume to eat his dinner.
Junsu need to read over the poem again. Somehow he felt connected with it.
***
Junsu walk into Yoochun's room and try to find the piece of paper again. On the desk... nothing there. Inside the drawer... there’s nothing too. He remember that he put it on Yoochun’s bed and try to find it there.. nothing. He sighs and sat on the bed while his eyes look over the room. He looks at the dustbin beside the desk. Could it be....?
He looks inside it and found small pieces of paper....
He felt pain in his heart...
***
He walks out from that room and sees Jaejoong in the kitchen washing the dishes. He sat on the kitchen counter and asking Jaejoong opinion.
“Jaejoong hyung... people say friendship brings happiness but why do I feel pain and grief?” Jaejoong look at him and Jaejoong face somehow seem to know the thing that bothering his mind.
“Because you confuse it with love Junsu-ya” Jeajoong said and still the knowing smile craves on his beautiful face.
“Love?”
“Think Junsu”
“I know what friendship is and what's love is Jaejoong Hyung.”
“Then think deeper...” Jeajoong emphasis the word deeper and taps over Junsu's shoulder gently.
Jaejoong walk away from the kitchen and let Junsu with his thought. Junsu felt lost. What with love and friendship. What does Love has to do with friendship.
***
Day by day, lots of question keeps on spinning in his head. Until the day he cannot bear with questions or the pain in his heart.
“Yoochunnie... we are friends right?”
“Hmmm..” Yoochun nods
“Does love has to do something in our friendship?” Asked Junsu that make Yoochun rolled his eyes to him.
“Love plays everything in friendship.” Yoochun slowly said as he confuse with Junsu’s question and the answer that he give out.
The next question from Junsu somehow make Yoochun’s heart hurt.
“Then we supposed to be happy with our friendship right?”
“Are you not happy with us now?” annoyed Yoochun answer.
“Yes... I felt pain.”
“Do you hate me Junsu?” there’s slightly anger in Yoochun’s voice.
“No I’m not. I'm thinking of you more than I’m thinking about anyone else.”
Yoochun felt silent of Junsu's confession.
“Junsu-ya... I felt pain too.” Yoochun said and unwillingly to look at Junsu’s beautiful face.
“You do?”
“Hmmmm... the different is that, I know why my heart in pain. I just too afraid to make it disappear. Our friendship is a burden to me.”
Junsu want to ask more but he stuck with words. He inhale deeply and again he felt that his heart hurt.
“Chunnie... the lyrics or poem or whatever you wrote that day. Why are you ripped it?”
“Rip?” yoochun suddemly realize that thing that Junsu talk about. He acts like he doesn’t know...
“What do you mean by ' If I have him… I’ll bring him to heaven…If he has me…I’ll follow him to hell…?”
“It just a poem, Junsu-ya...” Yoochun end his word by looking at the floor.
“Please…” Junsu pleads...
“ But if you want to know, it means that his loves for that person is so deep he’ll follow to wherever he go... he’ wants to be owned but he’ll never be the owner that person. Well… at least that was what I was thinking when I wrote it.” Said Yoochun with his low voice and Junsu quickly put his hand on Yoochun’s left cheek.
“If you have me, you'll bring me to heaven... and if I have you, you'll follow me to hell?” Junsu say as he point fingers between yoochun and him when he say 'you','me' and 'I'. Yoochun look at Junsu for a while before nodding. Junsu close the gap between them and hug Yoochun tightly.
“What if we have each other? Should we go to heaven or hell?”
“Junsu-ya... what are you saying?”
“I was wondering whether the pain you have is the same of the pain that I have now.”
Yoochun cannot even use his brain right now as he can feel junsu's heat over his body. So he cannot interpret all Junsu's word.
“Chunnie... can I say something?”
Yoochun is too shock by the hug slowly nod against Junsu’s shoulder.
“I was asking Jaejoong Hyung why friendship could be a pain to me and he asked me to think deeper. I think I know the answer.”
“What is it Su?” Yoochun asked and at that time, his hand moving as he want to hug Junsu back but too afraid to do it.
“I was falling in love with you. The pain that I felt over our friendship is because I love you more than a friend” and with that Yoochun who reluctantly want to hug Junsu quickly put his hand around Junsu's waist.
“And I’m so in love with you, my best friend!” Yoochun say as he tightens his hand on Junsu's waist.
And so their Friendship blooms into Love!!!
[END]