| Fan Fiction |
by miss_tiff15/teechung
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"Gillian, lets go." I stared at Charlene who was motioning me to get out of the car. Edison had the door opened wide, and was carrying my bag filled with my things. Alex glanced back at me from the front seat.
I sighed and climbed out of the car. Edison steadied me as Charlene wrapped her arm around me. Alex smiled from the front, "Be right back. Gonna go park." Charlene closed the door and he drove away.
Charlene smiled, "I don't know how you did it Ed, but thank you."
Edison shook his head, "It's all for the sake of Gill." He looked at me pointedly.
I rolled my eyes, "Alright you two." I ended up dragging the whole hospital thing for another week. I promised them I would go on the mark of my two weeks. Edison was paying for me to be placed in a private room. It was sweet, but I also felt bad. My insides were warmed up though because he said that his money was my money. My toes still tingled from his last kiss. We walked in as I was quickly placed into a hospital room. I stared at the place disgustedly.
Edison smiled, "Gill, it's for you."
I sighed, "I have to spend the rest of my life in here."
Edison looked at me, "Gill, this isn't for the rest of your life. If your body gets stronger, then you can go home again."
I stared at him, "Ed, there's only two weeks."
Edison kissed me, "I don't allow that talk."
Charlene stuck her head in, "Hey, Ed, do you have the information for Gill?"
Edison smiled, "Oh right." He fished around in my bag and pulled out documents. "Be right back Gill." He turned and walked out.
I stared at Charlene and Edison as they turned the corner. Was I the only one who registered the fact that I was leaving? They all seemed to be fine. No sadness or pain. I sighed and turned to my bag. I reached in and found my sheet of paper of things to do. I looked down the list.
- find someone to live for CHECK
- experience love
- see a meteor shower
- be truly kissed CHECK
- stop heart disease
- experience life CHECK
- finish something CHECK
- to feel weightless CHECK
- leave my mark CHECK
- find my parents CHECK
I stared at experience love. I most definitely have done that. I put a checkmark beside it, smiling to have Edison here by my side. I stared at see a meteor shower. I knew that wasn't going to happen in this lifetime. I knew for a fact there wasn't any meteor showers in the next two weeks. And finally I looked at stop heart disease. I smiled. It was a foolish thing I wrote way back when I thought there was hope, but I really doubted there was anymore. I crumpled the sheet and stuffed it back into my bag. I looked around the hospital, the smell of sick people killing my nose. This was life. The hospital. Where life came and went. People where born in hospitals, and a lot of people died in hospitals. This was the beginning and the end. This was where you saw your very first thing, breathed your very first breath, and it was also the place where you saw your very last thing and breathed your very last breath. I sighed as a nauseous feeling took over me. I stood up, my legs weak and limped to the washroom, and then I vomited right into the sink.
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I sat in my bed, wasting three days of my life. Edison was by my side the whole time, but it wasn't like you could kiss in the prescence of nurses and doctors scurrying around. The doctor even warned us that we shouldn't engage in anything exciting, meaning no sex. He said the adrenaline or the excitement could push me over the edge. Edison always came in, dark circles under his eyes. His laptop was always sitting beside him, one hand over mine, the other one over the keys. Charlene dropped in along with Juno. Their relationship was no longer "just friends." They were slightly more than friends. I guess they were getting there. Alex came to visit too, along with Stephy. I was secretly thankful that they got together. At least that meant she didn't like Edison. I constantly felt sick, but I didn't want to tell the doctor. I waited until they were gone, and then threwup in the toilet or the sink.
"Miss. Gillian Chung?"
I looked up at Dr. Kwan. He was my current doctor, hired by Edison. "Yes?"
Dr. Kwan stared down at his charts of my health, "We have good news Ms. Chung. We've found a donor. Someone's whose heart matches yours. Once we do some tests on whether your body can accept it, then we're good."
I stared at him in disbelief. What did he just say? Did he just say that I had a donor? A heart that fit? I... I was going to get a new heart. I... I was going to live. My hands flew to my mouth, which was hanging open. "Oh my God..."
Dr. Kwan smiled, "I think your body is ready for that. All we have to do is some tests and we're all good." My body shook uncontrollably. I was going to be saved. I was going to get to live and grow old. I closed my eyes, the excitement coursing through me. The possiblities. The things I could do with a new heart. A good heart. I would no longer have to live in this hospital. No longer have to live like a sick person. Edison and I could grow old together. Be together for a long time. "Gillian, are you ready for the test?"
I nodded, "Let's go."
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"EDISON!" I called to him as he strolled in.
"What?" He looked at me worriedly.
I smiled, "I'm going to live. I'm going to live!"
Edison stared at me, "What?"
"There's a donor. It fits me. Dr. Kwan did the test. I'm going to be saved."
Edison walked towards me, tears welling up in his eyes. He hugged me tightly, "You're going to be saved." Edison was breathless. I didn't blame him. I was breathless. Edison smiled, "That's going to beat out on what I have for you."
I smiled at Edison, "What is it?"
Edison laughed, "You'll find out." A nurse walked in with a wheelchair. I glared at it. Edison stared at me, "Gill, you know you need it."
I shook my head, "I want to walk."
The nurse smiled, "Why don't you walk, and if you get tired, you can sit, okay?"
I nodded as Edison sighed and helped me out of bed. My legs were sore and weak from lying in bed. My backside was in pain and I could barely hold myself up. My knees buckled as Edison caught me. "See Gill..."
I shook my head, "Let me walk." I held onto Edison's hand as I pushed myself one step after another. I wasn't going to be like this in a few days. Edison held onto me as the nurse stood on the other side of me. The three of us made our ways out to the courtyard. By the time we reached the grass, my legs were too tired to move. Edison helped me sit on the grass and the nurse wrapped a jacket around me. The cold autumn air bit at my cheeks.
Edison smiled, "Be right back." I nodded as he ran off. The nurse sat beside me in silence. I stared at the dark sky above me. The grass was slightly cold as it soaked through my pants. Suddenly fireworks flew across the sky. I smiled up at the beautiful sky filled with white lights flashing across. A pair of arms wrapped around my waist as I watched each light fly across. I breathed in to smell Edison's scent. I turned and looked at him. He smiled, "You like it?"
I laughed. That was the exact same thing he said the first time he played the fireworks. "I would yell at you Edison, but I don't want to this time."
Edison chuckled, "What do you want to do?"
"I want to just enjoy. Live in the moment." I turned my head up to the white lights. I noticed this time there weren't colours or splashes of fireworks. It was constant white lights streaking across the sky. They almost looked like... oh my goodness. They looked exactly like shooting stars. I gasped and turned to Edison, "Meteor shower. You made a meteor shower for me?"
Edison looked down, "I'm sorry. There aren't any meteor showers happening soon. I wanted to make sure you could see it, but this was the closest I could get."
I shook my head, "No, Ed, thank you."
"I'm sorr-"
I kissed him to shut him up. As I pulled away I whispered, "I love you Edison Chen."
He smiled, "I love you too Gillian Chung."
I giggled, his words warming me up inside and out. I pulled the jacket off, my body no longer cold. I turned around to see that the nurse had left us alone. Which was perfect, because this moment was between me and him.
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I stretched my body, a smile playing across my lips. Today was the day I could do my surgery. My body was still in hyper mode. My list was almost done. I was ready to get a new heart. I no longer had to live in this hospital. Everything was perfect.
Dr. Kwan walked in, his face empty of a smile. I stared at him. Maybe he was sad that I was leaving the hospital soon? I shook my head. There had to be something bad. I looked up at him. He stared down at the chart in his hand. The latest body check. "What's wrong Dr. Kwan?"
He looked at me and then back at the chart, "When did you last have your menstruation cycle?"
I silently counted the days in my head. I was late by a week, "Does my heart affect it?"
Dr. Kwan stared at the chart, "Sometimes your organs could be going wrong without us knowing..." I looked at him in silence. "I'm sorry Gillian, but there seems to have been a problem."
"What problem?"
"It seems that you're... pregnant."
I stared at Dr. Kwan, "Pregnant?"
"You can't do the surgery. I'm sorry. This was our wrong doing. We should have checked that before we told you about the heart transplant."
My hands flew to my stomach, "Pregnant? I'm pregnant?"
Dr. Kwan sighed, "Yes. It seems so. This would actually be a problem. You see..."
His voice droned on, but my head was somewhere else. Realization washed over me. I... was pregnant. I had two weeks of life left in me. I couldn't get a heart transplant. I have a heart disease that may not even let me carry this child... I swallowed as tears rushed to my eyes. I was going to die. And the baby was going to die with me. My hands flew to my mouth. And the dam broke. My tears streamed down my face. We were going to die.
"What's wrong?" Edison rushed in.
My fingers gripped at the sheets covering me. I was breathing in and out, gasping for air. The doctor was trying to push me down to help me breathe. I stayed firmly upright. My body in shock. My whole body frozen in its place. The only thing moving was the tears running down my face. This was the worst thing that could happened. I couldn't live. I couldn't help this baby. I was a murderer. I was going to kill my baby. I gasped as my heart constricted in pain. My knuckles were white. I could feel my air shortening. But I was too stuck on the idea. The tears were falling all over the sheets. My cheeks were dripping with tears. Edison's arms came around me. He was yelling something to me. He was telling me to do something. I couldn't hear him. I couldn't breathe. I couldn't move. Edison was pleading to me. My eyes were closing. My vision completely fogged. Edison was shaking me now. Something was shoved into my nose and mouth. Air was pushing through into my lungs. And then everything went black.