Fan Fiction |
by teppanyaki
She was quiet. I turned back to stare outside the windows.
What's wrong with me?
'... Don't wish to bother you further... You're Jay Chou, a busy superstar! You've got to return to work right?' When she said those words, I felt the world crashing down on me.
Usually when my fans or people from the media use the term 'superstar' on me I would be slightly abashed and a little proud even. But I was feeling the entire opposite. Why? Does who am I to Liwen matter so much? I thought I was feeling normal once again. Guess I was wrong. She still sees me as her idol, Jay Chou. Not... Me. Do I really know her? And does she really know me? Indeed, like what I mentioned in an interview before... 'I would never date a fan.' I would never be ME to a fan anyway. But is it possible?
For an entire afternoon I felt normal once again, like I was a nobody, feeling the freedom of a commoner. I felt contented. I felt accepted, not as an idol, but as a person. I guess she still treats me as Jay Chou. I thought to myself bitterly.
I am still, Jay Chou. It must be one of the times again, when I feel like giving up all I have to become normal again. It always happens when loneliness creeps up on me. This feeling is worst than anything.
"Just turn right at the corner... Yeah... You can drop me off there. Thanks." Her sweet voice interrupted my thoughts. I turned and our eyes met. Awkwardness was the only word to describe the atmosphere then. I looked away.
The car came to a halt. "So... I'm getting off now. Bye bye." She smiled at me, but it wasn't that one I liked. It felt more like a forced smile, she wasn't feeling as good either. Was it because of me? Before I could say anything, she had gone out of the car and closed the door.
She's leaving.
I rolled down the window.
"Liwen!" I shouted at her back view. "See you at the cafe tomorrow!" She spun around and nodded. She then gave the beautiful smile and waved at me.
I smiled. A burden seemed to lift itself off my shoulders.
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"Good move, Jay!" Dan Tou was teasing me in the car, "Someone's going out on a date tomorrow! Haha..."
I sighed. As expected, merciless teasing from the both of them.
I want to be normal again. Is it too greedy of me?
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"I'm sorry!" Was the first thing Liwen said when we met the next day, accompanied with a bow. Huh?
"What was that for? You should say 'Hi!'" I joked, while trying to make her stand properly.
"I'm sorry if I said anything that offended you yesterday! Are you still angry with me?" She looked at me.
Angry? Oh no. She must have been thinking about it for the entire night. I should not have minded about the 'superstar' thing too much. It must have been written all over my face then.
"Of course I'm not angry. I'm... *cough* happy even that you're willing to meet me today again." I said, half covering my mouth. I hope I wasn't blushing. But I guess I was wrong as Liwen was laughing at my face the next moment.
"Hm. Haven't seen you blush before. This is a first! Haha.." She laughed, "I should have taken a picture of it and sell it to the paparrazzi to earn some quick bucks!"
I guess my face changed then when she mentioned 'paparrazzi' as she kept quiet when she saw my face.
Oh no. I have to salvage this situation. I shouldn't mind it so much, she's after all, my fan.
"Liwen, I should be the one saying sorry. Don't mind me for being greedy but I... *clears throat* I... just want to be normal." I confessed. But I guess she didn't get what I meant as she simply gave me a questioning look.
"Ignore what I said all right? Let's go grab a bite and *cough* catch a movie? How does that sound?" I offered.
"Sounds great! Let's go!" She answered eagerly. She paused for a moment and asked me, "Is this a date?"
"If you think it is." I answered, trying to sound mysterious. She looked stunned, slightly blushing and stood rooted to the ground for a second before catching up with me.
Its a date.
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We were sitting in the cinema waiting for the movie to start. I figeted in my seat. I have to tell her. Or she'll keep thinking that I'm angry with her or some sort. I HAVE to explain it to her.
"Are you okay? Is it your back?" She asked.
"No no... I'm fine." I replied. I gathered all my courage.
"*cough* Er... Liwen. I have something to tell you." I started.
She looked as if I was going to reveal some heavenly secret to her.
"Don't look so shocked. I just want to tell you that... erm. I want to be... *cough* normal."
"Normal?" Still, she didnt get it I guessed.
"I mean, please don't look at me from a fan's perspective. I'd rather you treat me as a... *cough* friend. As an equal. As... normal. You understand?" Somehow the term 'friend' seemed hard to come out.
She thought for a moment, as if she just put all the pieces of a jigsaw puzzle together, she looked enlightened. Or am I thinking too much.
"Oh my... I'm so sorry, Jay... I must have said many wrong things yesterday and today that made you angry. I'm so sorry. Ok I understand. I'm so sorry..." She kept apologising.
"Haha... Its okay."
"Let's start over again shall we? From friends, not from a fan's perspective." She asked and offered her hand, "Hi, I'm Liwen from Singapore."
"*cough* Hi, I'm Jay-" She stopped me.
"Can you introduce yourself as Jie Lun? Can I call you that? So it sounds less... idol-like." Haha. How silly. But true. Jay was the commercial name given to me anyway.
"Hi, I'm Jie Lun from Taiwan. *cough* Hope to seek your guidance in future." I smiled and took her hand. A rush of adrenaline seeped through my veins. I felt excited somehow. Excitement of becoming normal again. Excitement of knowing this simple yet wonderful girl, Liwen. Thank you, for accepting Me and Jay Chou.
It was a new beginning.
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-T. Hm. is the story getting draggy? comments are most welcome... thanks to all wonderful readers!!