Fan Fiction |
by teppanyaki
"Mr Chou! Can I have your autograph?" Why must you come when I told you not to? It will make it harder for me to leave. Why must you remind me of the identity you and I have to return to?
Why must you remind me I'm not JieLun anymore? I'm Jay Chou.
Why must you remind me your not my princess Liwen anymore? You're my fan.
I looked into her eyes. They were slightly red. I felt a sour sensation around my chest. I was glad I had my shades on, or my eyes would give JieLun away.
She smiled her beautiful smile at me. One last time before I leave. How I wished there were only me and her there. We were the only ones in the world. How naive I was. Fans were crowding around us. My bodyguards were around me. How naive I was.
I took her notebook and scribbled.
"Thanks for your support!" I said, and returned her a dimply smile.
Bye Liwen. Thanks for the wonderful memory.
It may be impossible, but I hope to share my days with you again.
Will you let me?
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I tried to look as if everything was fine. Its hard to tell though, as I was usually expressionless. However, only Ma and Geng Hong managed to realise my difference. Geng Hong joined us in the entourage as well.
Ma kept coming over and asked if I was fine, and if I needed anything.
"I'm okay, Ma. Don't worry about me." I replied simply.
Geng Hong came over and sat down in the empty seat beside me.
"Are you okay? You seem quiet." he asked. No wonder he's my best bud.
"Go away, I want to rest." I looked out of the rounded window of the plane.
"She's just a fan. Its impossible, you know that don't you?" He must have learnt about her from NQMM. Stupid monkeys.
"She's not JUST a fan!" I shot back at him. He looked shocked. No Jay... control yourself. Don't let your emotions rule over your head. Don't lose your cool.
Geng Hong gave an apologetic smile and pat me on my shoulder.
"I hope you know what you're doing." With that he left.
I hope I knew what to do. I caressed the cross pendant on my necklace and closed my eyes hoping sleep would come soon.
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I had to brace myself up. I had to continue my role as Jay Chou. I can't afford to lose my fans again. I can't afford to be complacent. I've lost many things in a go once when I was complacent, I can't handle it if it happens again.
'...Jay loses best male and best album in TW music awards after winning numerous awards in last year's awards ceremony...'
(A/N : this took place in 2003. refer to previous chapters!)
I shook the memory out of my head. It was all in the past.
"Feeling fine, Jay?" My dance instructor asked me.
"Yeah I'm okay. Let's continue with the rehearsal."
I'm going to put on a good show.
They expect my concert in Connecticut to be a blast. So I'll give them a blast.
This is a chance to make my mark in the West. I'm going to break through the Western market and show them what the Chinese are capable of.
This is my chance, I can't ruin it.
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I appeared on stage after a costume change.
"*cough* Er... thanks for coming to my concert! Very happy to be here. Hope you people haven't forgotten about me! *cough* Merry Christmas..."
Rounds and rounds of screaming came following after.
There was a fan below the stage who handed me a big bunch of flowers. I smiled at her. Thank you.
My fans. What would I do without you?
I suddenly remembered another one during my LA concert. It was all relatively quiet while I was singing.
"ZHOU JIE LUN! WO AI NI!" I flipped around and saw a girl frantically waving her lightstick at the balcony some distance away. I waved at her and laughed.
Another even came on stage and hug and kiss me. That was scary though.
They must have tried means and ways to grab my attention, I thought, while spotting a group of fans in the audience wearing caps. I smiled.
There was even a group of African-Americans in the crowd. Indeed, music crosses all boundaries. I'm glad.
'I hope you'd would always stay by my side.' As I wrote to my fans in the book. I truly hope they would see it.
Liwen was a fan too. She must have had her own means of grabbing my attention, and she got it. But she must return to her identity as a fan, just like I have to return to being Jay.
Why must things be so complicated?
'Wo xiang wo shi tai guo yi lai'
'Zai gua dian hua de gang cai'
'Jian chi xue dan chun de xiao hai'
'Wo she bu de li kai...'
The audience was singing with me. I love this feeling.
I can't bear to give everything up. I love music. I still want to perform. I still want to continue writing melodies.
But I want my princess as well.
Merry Christmas, Liwen.
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just realised genghong went to the US with jay & co. too. just read it in some article and added him in. *edit* stupid me typed dan tou instead of geng hong. changed it already!
im having a brain freeze. i nid inspiration! either that or i think im sick. running a flu. wad a time to get sick. After these updates I might not be able to update until say... New Year? Going overseas! so sorry dear readers... Bear with it! as usual, comments are most welcome! Happy New Year!
-T.