Fan Fiction |
by kittyken
Everyone is left in anguish, but she is much in pain…
“Xiao You…”
They all move to reach her.
“Go away, go away! Leave me alone, please!”
“ Xiao You, Ximen is just confused.You must believe that-”
“No! No! These are all lies….” Xiao You is shaking her head her whole body is trembling as well. “These are all lies…we really can’t be together…I am only dreaming when he held me next to him…when he spoke to me of those wonderful words…when he told me that he loves me..They are all but a dream. ”
San Cai envelops her in a tight embrace, “Stop that, Xiao You! Please stop that!”
Numbness starts eating her whole body… “He left me again…he had not listen to me when I told him I love him…he didn’t listen to me, San Cai….he still left me.”
“No, Xiao You. He didn’t leave you, let’s just give him time to collect his thoughts. He will never leave you, Xiao You. Ximen loves you very much I want you to remember that.”
“No! No! No! I can’t believe that anymore…he’s gone.HE’S GONE!” She felt her tears are already blinding her…
“Xiao You please, please don’t give up on Ximen.”
She felt her heart exploding and her mind blowing up…
“Xiao You…”
Another woman has again suffered from the hands of F4…
She took all her strength and breaks away from them…then run!
“Xiao YOU!”
San Cai faints and falls down….
DEAREST Lei,
The kindness that you have shown me is something that I will cherish and forever be thankful of. I really never thought that I could be this close to you that you have even considered me like your own sister. Yes, you are right when you said that it will cost me a million to pay you for all those wonderful things you have given me for those were really too much.
I am really hurting right now Lei and I know that you will get mad when you find out that I left without even telling you or anyone from you especially San Cai but this the only thing that I want to do right now.
I guess I really have dreamt so much to expect that Ximen could love me back to have suffered like this. If only I have kept my self contented by just loving him a far maybe things will be less harder for me. I am broken, Lei…
All my life I only wish that I could meet someone who can show me a love that so true…and when I saw Ximen back then I knew it was him. It is him whom I want to share my love with. Although he is always saying that he is a good person but not a good man, I know in my heart that he could be good being both. I love him, Lei. I love Ximen so much.
I want you to take care of him for me, Lei and please don’t hate him for all what he have done. I will always understand his ways…I will forever understand him.
Please tell everybody that I also understand what had happened… and I’m really sorry to have dragged all you on my pursuit to find my happiness in Ximen’s arms.
I will pray that F4 will be complete again.Tell San Cai to take care of herself and my godchild. Tell Dao Ming Si to never leave her again.
In time I know I will be healed…for now would you just let me be on my own, please.
Take care of your self too, Lei. I cared for you so much.
Xiao You
Lei’s heart is crushed upon reading that letter. He fished out his CP from his pocket.
“Peter, I want you to send one of our people to Canada, now. You know what you have to do. Her name is Yang Xiao You. I want you to report to me from to time.”
The voice on the other line just acknowledged what Lei had said then went out.
Lei immediately run to his car and speed off.
SAN CAI was brought to Taiwan Medical Hospital after she collapsed. It’s been almost 24 hours now after she was admitted and although the doctors have told them that there’s nothing to worry about her and the baby’s condition, San Cai seems too weak to even open her eyes.
“San Cai! San Cai! Please don’t do this to me. Help out yourself. Get up there. Open your eyes please. Talk to me, talk to me.” Dao Ming Si’s been saying those words over and over again for the longest time now but San Cai just managed to lay there and go on with her sobbing.
“Stop crying now, oh please!” If under regular circumstances, Ah Si would have been shouting and keep on calling her crazy woman, but at this moment he couldn’t do it. San Cai is really suffering from what had happen to Ximen and Xiao You. He knows that she is too concern for her bestfriend’s pain.
“San Cai,” Xiao Qiao who also looks exhausted stands up and leans over her, “please be strong, I know you already are but I want you to be more. There’s a child now who depends on you, please don’t be too weak because of what’s happening. This will be over soon, San Cai. We will be all happy again, I know.”
Mei Zhou with eyes reflecting his aches cover his face with his two hands and wished hardly that Xiao Qiao’s last words will still come true.
“X-Xiao You….X-Xiao You…I want to see X-Xiao You…”
Ah Si leaned over to kiss her, “She will be fine, San Cai. She will be fine. Please don’t be bothered much this will be bad for you and for our baby. Think of baby Dao Ming please, San Cai.” Ah Si voice is beging.
The room’s door abruptly opened and reveals the miserable Lei.
“Lei!” Mei Zhou stood up and rushed to him.
San Cai opened her eyes to see him. “Lei did you find Xiao You? Where is she? Is she with you?”
Dao Ming Si flew his gaze to Lei.
Lei gave Ah Si his answer to San Cai’s question through their exchange of look.Ah Si has easily understood it, even Mei Zhou who just stares at them.
“Lei?” San Cai again inquired.
Lei walks towards her bed and give her a kiss on her forehead, “Xiao You’s just resting for a while, she will be okey, San Cai. But she told me that she will only see you if you stop thinking about her much. She wants you not to worry for baby Dao Ming’s sake. She told me to take care of yourself and the baby.”
San Cai weakly smile to him, “I’m glad that she’s fine now, Lei. Tomorrow I’ll get up here to see her.”
“San Cai you-”
San Cai reaches for his husband’s hand and holds on to it, “I’ll be fine now, Dao Ming Si. Thank you for staying by my side.”
Ah Si bends down to give her a kiss, “I will be here for you, San Cai no matter what. I love you.”
She tried to smile widely for him, “I love you too, Dao Ming Si.”
“I’ll just see somebody outside, I’ll be back.” Lei looks at Dao Ming Si and Mei Zhou then turn his back from them.
Mei Zhou signals to Xiao Qiao.
“Thank you, Lei.”
Lei turns his head and smile back to San Cai then proceeds to the door and left.
Xiao Qiao and Mei Zhou hurriedly kiss to San Cai.
“We’ll be back, just wanted to take some fresh air outside,” Mei Zhou told her.
Xiao Qiao gave her her sweetest smile, “You take a rest first San Cai.You need it for the baby.”
“Thank you so much to both of you, I really appreciate it. You can also take a rest now. Dao Ming Si will take care of me here.”
Ah Si smiles to his wife, “Of course I will.”
Mei Zhou taps his brother’s shoulder, “We’ll go ahead.”
“Okey, drive safely.” Ah Si gives Mei Zhou a meaningful look.
Mei Zhou just nods then with Xiao Qiao in his hands they left.
They meet Lei as soon as they exited the room.
“How’s she?” Mei Zhou immediately asks.
“She left us again.”
“Huh?”
Xiao Qiao embraces her self to Mei Zhou’s body. She cries again. He pats her back.
“What do we do now? She’s in grief. Everything’s not fine with her what if something happen to her, Lei? Let’s go and follow her. We cannot just stand here and let her go like that.”
“She asks us to let her go her away.”
“But Lei-”
“We have to respect her Mei Zhou. She doesn’t want us to see for we could remind her of Ximen and of what we did.”
Mei Zhou looks down. “I am embarrassed of what we did…We betrayed Ximen we hurt Xiao You. If only I-”
“Stop it Mei Zhou. Things will only be worsen if we keep on thinking of what we’ve done or what we should have not done. I have already advice to send someone to watch over her. We’ll get to know her condition from here. As of now, that I know is the only thing that we can do. We have to respect her decision to be alone although we will have to interfere with her privacy, we have to do this to protect and take care of her…for Ximen.”
“How’s Ximen? Where is he?” Mei Zhou’s face is too frustrated.
“I don’t know.”
“Lei!”
“I don’t know. You asked Ah Si!”
“Damn it! What’s happening now to us?”
Lei sighs, “I don’t know Mei Zhou. Let’s pray that Ximen will still find his sanity to end this whole mess.”
A LOST and broken soul has flown miles above to get away from the hurtings she had gotten from an unfair soul below. And if only she could see an angel playing behind the clouds she is seeing now, she really wishes for him to erase the pain that she is carrying inside her.
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i can't make it any longer...this scene is paining me also.
xiexie,
kittyken