Fan Fiction |
by Amy
4th June 04.
I'm so stupid. Why did I accept Cyndi? Just because I wanted to run away from reality. Everything that consisted of Jolin. I was scared. Now... Jolin knows everything. How I wish I could rewind time. Go back to where we were laughing and smiling. I remember playing piano and she singing. I wish I could give her the last piece of composed song sheet I did for her. On the day of the accident. I wanna tell her how much I love her.. I long to hug her, kiss her and give her my love. Anything. I heard the door close just now. I wasn't sleeping. During the hallway, I saw her. It shocked me. I even shouted at her. Out of shock. Fate took me away from her. And now Fate gave her to me again. The room mates and the hallway incident. Fate wanted me to treasure her when I could. But I, instead, hurt her deeply. If I could turn time, I would have not run away from reality. I would face it...And maybe I can even play the piano and sing for Jolin, now. Even when I was with Cyndi... My mind was about Jolin. I took Cyndi as a subsitute for Jolin. Because they looked so alike. But I soon found out Cyndi's personality was so different. Jolin was gentle, and Cyndi was acting cute and flirtous.
05 June 04
I wished I had rescued Jolin. Earlier. I know she would not sleep... I knew. I secretly knew Jolin wanted to change. But I kept quiet.
18 June 04
I heard from Hebe that Jolin went to beat up Jason. She changed completely. I want the old Jolin. The one who would smile and say it's okay as not to worry people. I know she changed because of the thing that happened during 05 June 04. She can hold a gun or knife. She even knows some people in a secret societies. I love her. I'll accept her even if she changes. If she becomes disabled, I'll love her. Even if she becomes fat and ugly, I'll love her forever. Because she was the one who made a big impact in my life. She was the one who told me to forgive. To forget. And to love. She touched my heart.
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Jay got up, rubbing his head. "Have you found it already? I told-"Jay stopped. He saw Jolin's tears on his notebook. Quickly, he grabbed the notebook out of Jolin's hands. "Mind your own business."Jay muttered and looked away. Jolin let tears roll down her cheeks. Jolin slowly walked towards Jay. She put her hands over his waist(Like Dolphin At The Bay). "Why must you do so much for me?"Jolin whispered. "I'm not worth it."Jolin's tears rolled down. "Because... I love you. And I will always be waiting for you to forgive me. To forget all the pain and sadness I gave you. I want to enter your life. But I will wait. Wait till you're ready. Wait till you accept me."Jay replied. "What if I'm never ready?"Jolin asked, her head against Jay's back. "I'll admire and love you from a distance. And I'll do it forever," Jay turned round. "Even if you fall in love with someone else, I'll be happy. Because you found your true love."Jay whispered.
Currently my mood is really good. ^_^ And I hope it touches your heart. Comment if it did. xD THANKS and whoever cried, comment too. xP [20 12 04]-Amy