| Fan Fiction |
by whitefoxbuns
Everyone attentions suddenly averted toward to dressing room, where a moment ago, our manager and our leader headed into. The air turned serious, gaze catches gaze questioning what was going on in curiosity.
“Yah G-Dragon, you are the leader, you can’t be missing out on practice and training even if you are the almighty talent that you think you are. What are you up to? You don’t even tell anyone the reasons why you’re missing practices. Not only your works were affected but your team members were also. How do you think they feel? Do you still care about this team? Big Bang?”
Manager’s voice was getting angrier by words, stressing the importance of the situation to Ji Yong. He had been missing practice and coming home late now a day. Eating so irregularly, not getting enough sleep, or so I think with his 2 AM routine. This is only the outside look, he been like this to all the members, but to me it increased tenfold. We barely breathe in the same room anymore.
Why isn’t he answering? All of our ears are now tenting for his response. Ji Yong knocked the door open with force, stormed out of the room quietly, our eyes met for a second then he turned and headed straight for the exit, as if manager hyung yelling didn’t reached his ears at all.
As soon as it happened, everyone returned to their usual self, chatting about their day or the best they could do is think up rumors as replacement for Ji Yong answers. TOP hyung came out from nowhere; I guess he had heard everything also because he face never betrayed his expression especially when he was serious. Everyone was normal, except for us four, Top, Tae Yang, Dae Sung and I. With a nod from the oldest, one by one, we silently excuse ourselves from our current activity to follow Top. Where to you may ask, someone has to be responsible for Ji Yong, if he does not willing to do it or share his problem with us, the best we could do for him is to share his responsibility. I just realized I was never good at speaking to the manager.
“Hyung, we want to apologize for Ji Yong actions. We don’t know what is going on with him, but we will try to fix it soon.” My problem was taken care of thanks to Top hyung. The manager seems to be in real stress, let out a deep long sigh, looking at us with disappointment, so much I wished I could dig and bury myself right then and there to hide from the shame.
“You should really do it soon. Big Bang can’t afford this kind of publicity right now, since the words has leaked out that GD might be have an affair with someone. What? You guys didn’t know? Don’t give me those surprise expressions. Whatever it is he is in, you all are responsible for this, for Big Bang.”
With that he left us by ourselves, quiet, thinking, asking ourselves. Was there something wrong with the group? Why Ji Yong didn’t tell us anything? Top hyung was the first to break the silence, giving us a comforting smile that we always had known him of.
“Hey, it’s time to go anyway, why don’t we all go home, I’ll order something, and we all need a rest anyway. How about taking care of this when we see Ji Yong tomorrow neh?” and without waiting for our replies, he nodded as if knowing we would do the same. Slowly the oldest ushered us all together outside, toward the exit, leaving the stress and worries behind for the moment
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“Hey…maknae…Seung Ri…are you sleeping?”
I was shaken lightly by the shoulder, didn’t realize I had fall asleep on the way home, I found myself using Tae Yang’s shoulder as the pillow.
“Ah…mienhe hyung…” rubbing my eyes slightly, my vision came awake to the passing street light on the lonely street passing by outside the window.
“Ani…you don’t have to apologize, you look like you needed rest the most out of all of us. Look at the dark circles under your eyes.” Tae Yang warm fingers rubbing at the skin below my eyes, so sensitive I blinked a few times.
“Are you…are you ok? With Ji Yong I mean.” Tae Yang was frowning while staring into my eyes seeking for an answer, as if he knew something was there between me and Ji Yong.
Shifting away from what seem like an embrace Tae Yang was giving, I turned toward the outside, answering him with all my ability of persuasion.
“Why should I not be? I’m ok...really…I’m just worry with Ji Yong hyung, that’s all.” I gave Tae Yang a smile for supporting. “She must be beautiful don’t you think?” I smile truthfully this time.
Tae Yang returned my smile with his own one, much more comforting than mine. He replied with an understanding voice. “Yeah…”
We ended our conversation with that, both giving up, allowing our feelings and emotions being poured out into the night, blending with the street light.
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*crashed**bam* “ah~~my head~~~” *gurgling sound*
A loud crashing noise startled me out my sleep, my heart pounding rapidly, thumping in my ears. I can’t trace out the figure in the dark, the cause of the loud noise and a fowl, alcoholic smell slowly intruding my nostril pulling my conscience wide open. So long to the neon light, all I could see was that the person was hunching on the floor, near my door, breathing harshly.
Searching blindly for my glasses lying carelessly at the edge of the bed, I put it on trying to identify the figure who was now somewhat conscious and beginning to stand up.
“Maknae…Ri…”
“Hyung?...Ji Yong…oh my god…what is---” I couldn’t even finish my sentence rushing toward the falling drunken leader, flailing his arms all around.
“Babe~~~I feel so happy, so FUCKING happy!!! Aren’t you happy?!” mumbling in his intoxication, Ji Yong pulling onto me with all his weight, grabbing any part of me he could reach.
“Shh…….hyung…be quiet, you’ll wake everyone.” Wrapping one of his arms around my shoulder, I slowly drag him to my bed. Yes…drag him…I couldn’t carry him fully, not when all of his muscles were slacking like this.
“No~~~don’t sshh..me maknae…we must party, I want to party…tell everyone the news…yes must tell the news.” Nodding to himself while both of our bodies falling heavily onto the mattress, his heavy arms pulled me along, falling hard onto his chest I tried to even out my breath from the closeness we’re both experiencing.
I sit up, feeling a bit calmer, a bit easier. Ji Yong loud rambling had stop suddenly, probably the alcohol had completely worn him out. He looks so handsome laying there, dozing off, hair meshed out in all directions possible.
I learned from a onetime experience with a drunk person, that he or she does not like to be wrapped up tightly when waking up, it could caused major anger, moody disorder and could even resulted in violence. To Ji Yong it was no excuse, and to me that wasn’t an excuse for me to undress him from the tie, the button up shirt, the dress pants, and socks he had on. He must have gone home and changed after the argument with our manager.
I worked the socks off his feet. He must be really stressed out to be in this situation. Our leadershi has great style choosing out this tie, maybe to impress someone. I took a deep breath before starting to unbutton him. Feeling my cheeks heating up, I quietly give myself a “hwaiting.”
Trailing behind each undone button is his smooth skins, which heats up the back sides of my fingers. An intake of breath I found myself taking. Slowly I allowed myself to continue, averting my eyes frequently, running away from the sight of his tanned, firm chest heaving up and down in rhythm. I didn’t want to take off his shirt completely afraid I might wake him up, and then I won’t know what to do with myself. The belt was the last obstacle. Slowly I contact to cold metal, feeling completely embarrassed with myself, I started to unbuckle to object, praying to god that Ji Yong will not wake up.
“Yah~you sure want to continue down there?” I jumped from the sudden voice coming from the awaken leader. My face painted with a shock expression mouth gaping, the comeback is gone due to the sudden outburst by Ji Yong.
“Don’t stop because of me, I’m just saying, if you continue I might not be able to hold back myself.” Even in the dark,
I could make out the smirk gracing that handsome face, so sane for a drunken man he could’ve fool a stranger.
My conscience kicked in and I pulled away from him, turning away I began to stand up, saying I’ll be sleeping in his room for tonight. Out of nowhere, Ji Yong hand reached out, held my wrist tightly and pulled me carelessly back onto the bed. My body went along with the force of gravity flew toward Ji Yong direction, falling down. Taking the advantage he flipped our position so that now he was half on top of me, smirking and I was out of breath being scared and startled at the same time.
“I…I thought you could hold back…since I didn’t continue.”
In the dark, I whispered with all my courage to the half lit face hovering above me.
A silence came, no replies from the figure above. Only his deep breaths and warmth slowly invading me. He then bends down to my ears and whispers.
“Seungri…can you hold back tonight?”
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