I miss you (completed)
by lazybutt4ever
Chapter 19
TY POV
I walk out of the room. I guess she has forgotten me already… I know it only has been couple of days…but I guess she worked hard getting over me…*sigh “YES!!!!!” I turn to the door, what the hell? I thought to myself…. Why did you scream yes out of no where, I smile at her stupidity. She probably is answering me… NO! Taeyang! Snap out of it… she has forgotten about you. I walk over to Seungri’s room and lay next to him.
SR: hyung, sorry about at first… did you two kiss?
GD: kiss? What kiss? (standing in the doorway with the toothbrush in his mouth)
SR: at first when I went into Taeyang hyung’s room, he was on top of…-
TY: nothing…
GD: on top of…???
DS: Cher?
GD: ON TOP OF CHER??? (his eyes widen O.O)
Seungri nodded.
TY: no..!! its not what you guys are thinking…
GD: umhm… (walking away)
TY: no no it’s not like that…
Seungri lay back on his pillow and put on his headphones and closed his eyes. Daesung went back to reading his Doraemon comic. TOP was asleep since the beginning… Nobody wants to listen to me explain… oh wells… I lay down on my pillow and moments later I fell asleep.
“AAAAAHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!”
I popped up when I heard that… I looked over at the other members, and none of them even moved an inch. I got up and walk out the door… thinking it was GD. Went to GD’s room and he was sleeping like a baby… Went over to where Cher is sleeping…
-knock knock-
TY: Cher?
Nobody answer… I thought she was sleeping, went inside and I see her sitting straight up with her knees up and head down with her hands around her knee and face. I walked over..
TY: hey… are you okay?
She didn’t answer… She lift up her head and wrap her arms around me. She started to cry non-stop. She was hugging me very tightly…
TY: is okay… is okay… I’m here… everything will be okay…(patting her back)
She continue crying… moments later she stopped and let go of me.
Cher: sorry (whisper)
TY: is okay… are you okay?
Cher: umhm… sorry you had to see like this… (continue whispering)
TY: did something happen or something?
Cher: no… this is what happens when I have nightmares….
TY: is that you that screamed?
Cher: (nodded) sorry.. I woke you..
TY: is okay… as long as you are okay I’ll be fine. (slightly smile) go back to sleep…
I was about to leave when she grab my arm…
Cher: (grabbing his arm)… can you stay here tonight?
I can see that she is really scared. I nodded. She moved over to the other side of the bed to make room for me… But I insisted on sleeping on the floor. I went over to the other room and grab my pillow and blanket and went back to my room. When I went back in, Cher was putting blankets on the floor.
TY: what are you doing?
Cher: sleep on the bed…I can sleep on the floor….
TY: (walking over to her) no… you sleep on the bed…
Cher: (laying herself down on the blankets) is okay, you sleep on the bed… I think I’ll be better off sleeping on the floor
TY: (bends down trying to get up) Cher…
She closed her eyes. I had no choice but to sleep on the bed. I felt bad. Her back is facing against me. I sat on my bed, with the feeling I am feeling right now I can’t sleep.
Cher: I do think about you (saying it in a really soft voice)
TY: what?
Cher: I do think about you… I always thought about you… you are always on my mind. No matter what I did or what I saw you are the first person I think about… (sits up)
TY:… why didn’t you say that at first?
Cher: I don’t know… you caught me off guard… (looking at him)
TY: you could of still answer me…
Cher: I know… but iono why I didn’t…. these past few days, you is all I think about. No matter how much unnie tell me to get over you I couldn’t, As much as I tell myself that leaving you will be best for you.. And forgetting you will help me move on and not be hurt as much. But no matter what I still think of you and still look at your pictures and there are times where I actually want to call you or text you. But I don’t have the courage too… because I told you to forget about me… I figure you would be mad at me, and it will be better for you not to see me when I have my nightmares. I don’t want you to see my crazy side…. I want to leave you a good image of me… and not the crazy side…(starts to tear) I really don’t want you to see me when I have my nightmare attacks, I was suppose to leave to SF, so I can forget about you and come back with a new life. But then unnie… (couldn’t continue..)
I walk over to her, bend down and move her closer to me.
TY: I thought about you everyday too, I didn’t understand why you didn’t want to be with me anymore. I don’t mind if you have an disorder… I don’t mind at all, as long as I am with you, I don’t care about anything. I want to be by your side when you have your nightmares, I want to protect you Cher. I want to be a person that you can depend on Cher. When you didn’t answer me at first do you know how much my heart hurts? And the letter, when I read the last part of that letter, my heart literally jump out and broke into pieces…. Cher, you effect my life, you are the one that makes me happy, you are the one that can make me cry, you are the one that bring the sweet guy out of me, you make me feel embarrasses when the guys talk about me and you…all I need is you Cher… I know it will be hard for you to date me… but the problem is not even here…
Cher: (wiping her tears) you don’t get it Taeyang… you don’t understand how I feel… I don’t want you to see me like this, as much as I want you here by my side… and that is how much I don’t want you near. I like you a lot Taeyang.. I may never find someone as sweet, as caring, as handsome as you are… but I am willing to give you up…
TY: why are you doing this… we can be together…
Cher: NO WE CAN’T!!!
TY: WHY CAN WE?
Cher: don’t you get it? I have a past…! This past will affect you… I don’t want my past to harm you in any way…
TY: how will it harm me?
Cher: it just will….(tears starts to fall even more) just listen me… I am doing this for the both of us. We can still be friends…
TY: I don’t think I can still be friends with you…
Cher: Taeyang…. (hands on his face) just remember I am doing this for the both us…
TY: (staring into her eyes) I still don’t understand, how is it gonna harm me?
Cher: (moving her hand away from his face) IT JUST WILL!!!! (gets up)
TY: how will it?? Can you at least explain it to me?
Cher: just trust me, me not being with you, you will have the best life ever…
TY: without you with me, how will I have a good life?
Cher: you’ll find someone more compatible. Someone that doesn’t have this disorder… someone who will love you more…
TY: WHO CAN LOVE ME MORE THAN YOU?
Cher: someone will…(walking toward her clothes)
TY: what are you doing?
Cher: getting dress…
TY: why? It’s the middle of the night…
Cher: I can’t stay here anymore…
TY: can’t I just take care of you for ONE more night?
Cher: no…. you and I will hurt even more if I stay ( getting her jewelry)
TY: (grabbing her arm) CHER! Where will you go?
Cher: anywhere…
TY: can you just stay… it is so late already, what if something happens to you, I’ll never forgive myself…
Cher: you just have to forget about me… forget that you met me, erase everything that has my face on it, or anything that reminds you of me…
TY: just stay! You can leave tm!
Cher: I can’t…(sobbing, walking out of the door)
TY: CHER!!!
Cher: (walking toward the front door) remember forget about me….(opens the door and leave…)
TY: CHER!!!!!!!!!
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O.O lol enjoy!